Everything is numb, my heart beating in my ears like a drum.

It hurts to breathe, as I slowly lose sense of reality and everything is a blur.

As the tears fill my eyes, the corrupt thoughts leaking out through them,

I feel the numbness leave and all the pain hit at once.

A storm of thoughts fall from my eyes I watch my self die.

Every ounce of light being drowned by the black ink,

harboring all the unreasonable pain and anxieties that lay dormant in my head.

Feeling forgotten and pushed aside by all who matter,

I can’t help but to feel as useless as an empty platter passed around at a party

Everything matters, but nothing pulls me to care.

Everything hurts as I try to heal the bleeding wounds holding me captive in my own hell.

Sitting and letting the pain grow.

I shouldn’t hurt this much. I’ve no reason too.

But the demons in my head say I deserve it.

Nightmares and anxiety, sleeping too much or sleeping too little.

Always tired it’s inevitable.

Tired of living, tired of trying, tired of everything.