I smile but they know deeply inside I am grown with sadness. This little thing called life,man I cant understand it. But even though it beats me down still I remain standing . Sick of the lies the pain inside is ever lasting from being friends with everyone just to see none of them lasted. They said they'd be here forever never thought they  would vanish. What happened? Why do I compare myself to the next guy? I should love myself. Questioning my existence doesn't help. Stuck in spiraling depression nothing could get me up. I wonder if I was the only one who was stuck in a slump, no matter how high you jump you just cant get over this ****. And you try different ways to climb it while wonder how the **** did you even get inside it. It feels like the floors are lowered and the world is rising, leaving you at the bottom trying harder and harder.