I will be okay, she said to me
wiping a tear off with her sleeve
blood shot eyes looking at me,
smiling at me with false bravery
Embarrassed by emotions shed,
she put her hand on top of her head
Pushed me away & said,'' leave me alone''
I just need some time of my own
I did as she said out of respect,
she reacted in a way I didn't expect,
she left the house, she was distraught,
I sat there, left with her thoughts
She was one of my best friends
after that day, never seen alive again
They found her after a few days
someone killed her in a bad way
I always felt responsible
but stopping her was impossible
If she had not run away,
she would still be here today
So many things I wanted to say,
that may have changed that day
I should have said,'' you can count on me''
That her friend, I would always be
and that if she ever fell apart,
that I would hold her broken heart,
until she was able to mend,
I loved her, she was my friend
now I am filled with, ''if only I's?"
and left with wondering why?
For a friend who's no longer here. She'll forever be 18.
