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Zeus Mar 2017
am i crazy or insane or just hiding behind the pain of growing up and facing life,
i'm suicidal or so i tell myself.

i guess im just like every other teenager
"no one is for me"
"love isn't for me"
"they don't understand me"
"they treat me so unfairly"
like every other teenager, i sing the teenager anthem,
"i'm trying find out who i am"
"i just want to have fun"

but i've never been able to act my age, i've always been with peers older than my age
i had to be the shoulder to cry on, i broke a few hearts but i healed many more
im lost in my sea of thoughts and always drown in my river of words, i fall for the same type of trap,
but i guess i'm still like every other teenager?
i'm filled with rage that burns deeps and hurts everyone else, im filled with darkness that takes the rage and makes it beautiful art, i'm filled with a past that makes me treat people betterly worse, i live a life that many can not relate to.
but i guess im still like every other teenager?..
Zeus Mar 2017
I’m no Betty boop I’m not the prettiest bird around
so it’s hard to explain how I deal with the daily pressures, these writings are my mask, I hide behind the words and pour my heart out hoping to be heard out, I’m not looking for attention I just want recognition.
Right now I don't know what to do because I prefer the dark cold alone nights with nothing but the moon my music and my words which I dot cross and dash out, the world is my canvas and my mind is the pen which I use to express my pain,
I’m not sure if you'll understand but I had to give up everything because this voice within my head destroys everything I touch, I can't hold like she wants me to cause I might ruin her good soul,
But I need somebody, I’m not just the perfect somebody,
I look around and see the pretty girls wondering if they see me, I look around and see fast cars wondering if I’ll have more than one,
I look at myself and wonder why I’m so an understood am I doing something wrong or am I doing everything wrong, I know it's one of the two, am I deep? Or am I just one of the few?
emotional writer but I feel nothing except this numb feeling, I’m not sure if you'll understand but this pain is within and it’s the only feeling I know, I might be hurting I might be loving it still feels the same
Zeus Jan 2017
All these broken words on the floor
all these broken promises on the floor
all this black blood on the floor
all the same mistakes I've made before,
i think i might just make once more
for you i would make them twice more..

all this pain i cant feel, the drugs must be working
i might just leave if you cant leave with it,
all this love but i still don't feel it.

all the burn marks no can see
all the bruises that no one can see
all the fake smiles that no one can see
all hidden behind the angel wings no one can see,
all topped with the horns no one can see

i've got some new friends lose
some new hearts to break
some new minds to ruin
some new lips to taste
some new hate to create

as i write i show the darkness and the rage
i show the voices that scream beautiful music
the nightmares that are fantasies to me
the nightmares that are fantasies to me..............
Zeus Jan 2017
Would you like to know the difference between real love and imaginary love..
When some thing happens between you and the person you say you love, from a small fight to a big fight maybe even a few days or weeks without talking
Something like that could happens and you two start talking again, spending time with each-other again if the feeling gets stronger then its love, if the feeling is not there anymore then it is not love.
True Love never fades, it either becomes stronger or turns to hate but it never fades,
Imaginary love (infatuation) fades out after some time or after an event that hurts one or both of you....

i saw you say it was love,
to you saying it was a crush
i know one day you wont even remember but i will,
because i love you enough to give up every desire and intention i had for you,
i love you enough to see you make stupid mistakes and set you straight,
i love you enough for the both of us,
you loved the idea of me,
you loved the idea of we
you never loved me
and you think its hard to face
put yourself to in my place
always keeping a happy acting like I'm fine
telling that one simple, to give your heart peace of mind,
always remember i gave your heart a piece of mine..
Zeus Jan 2017
LISTEN TO ME!, In the moment i am NOT a poet!!, but when i grab my anger and hold it!, i am NOTHING more than a crazy bull, being used by the violence i am just a tool!!, i **** out verbal slang and terminal ****** slur, i am a vulture sir, i am a mess, i stir up the rest, i am filled with rage,and the rage calms the VOICES in my head the SCREAM SHOUT YELL!!, but this noise is peaceful......

LISTEN TO ME as i say to you, if you love me then HATE ME and NOT my work!!.. my work with words is all i have so on my knees i plead to you have mercy on the one TRUE love i have!, the one true thing that keeps me stable when your OVER REACTION hurts even me!!..

LISTEN TO ME and we go back to the facts i have to face, i face no faces for the shadows that haunt my room!! speak in tongues and seek REVENGE on the unknown that left them with me, the starch and scream trying to ESCAPE FROM ME , i guess the shadows hate my jokes...


LISTEN TO ME!!
Zeus Jan 2017
if i show you the real me promise not to run away
if i show you my true colors promise not to laugh,
not to cry,
not to fix me,
if i show you my true intentions promise not to think we are meant to be,
if i show you my past promise not to change how you treat me
if i show you how to write promise not to leave me
if i show you my crown promise not steal it,
if i show you my thunder promise not to be afraid of the lightening,

if i show you my heart promise not to break it
if i show you my dreams promise not to get scared
if i show you my mind promise not to say its too dark..

I'll accept whats happened to you,
so pick up your past and bring them to me
don't leave your imperfections or insecurities at the door,walk into my life with them,
bring your problems to me and I'll hug you to make you feel better,

i walk in darkness with my eyes closed just so i can see clearly,
i walk with the darkness because in the silent noise of the cold heat i feel fearfully safe..
Zeus Jan 2017
i hate when they like me
i hate when they like me
i hate when they like me.

i have met good hearts, good hearts i tell you, they get close, they get really close and i get to know them, i get to touch their souls, they show me parts no one has ever seen before and i heal scars they've been hiding for lifetimes, i show them the light with the darkness i carry.

i hate when they like me
i hate when they like me
i hate when they like me.

i meet the most beautiful young ladies ever, they have beautiful faces, beautiful bodies and beautiful minds, i wont lie, sometimes i'm like a child in a candy store trying so hard not to taste anything, the temptation is too great so i stay away.

i hate when they like me
i hate when they like me
i hate when they like me.

they pour their hearts out to me, they tell me they like me, they love me, they tell me they would be lucky to have me, they tell me the sweetest words ever but i can not give them what they ask for, i can never seem to give them what they ask for.

i hate when they like me
i hate when they like me
i hate when they like me.

i try to make them feel better, i try to stay close but i hate when they like me, i hate when they like me because when they like me they tell me how they feel and i can not give them what they want, i can never seem to give them what they seek so they leave.

i hate when they like me
i hate when they like me
i hate when they like me.

i hate when they like me because when they like me they end up hating me.
this is not a poem, this is what happens when a writer pours his heart out, this was written for every girl i called a friend but left because we couldn't be more than friends.
Zeus Dec 2016
She was in a long white beautiful dress it was the best day of her life, she was in smiles and everyone could feel her joy. tears would fall from her eyes as she got ready for her big day. she couldn't keep her composure, she was simply over whelmed by what was about to happen, her perfect princess wedding was about to happen,
her groom walked in, wearing an all black suit reflecting his soul as he claimed every time someone asked why he chose it, as he walked in, he saw how beautiful she looked,
she looked at him and shied away as she said "my dark kiing, its bad luck to see your bride before the wedding"
he walked to her and he said "you look so beautiful, I couldn't wait to see you"
she smiled and said "you have made me the happiest woman alive, I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you"
the bridesmaids left the room leaving the bride and and the groom to have their last moment as singles,
he got closer to her and pushed her hair back. he whispered to her "I love you" and she couldn't contain her joy, she pulled him close put her arms above his shoulders and kissed him like it was her first and last kiss with him. she felt a warmth from within her, a warmth that quickly turned to a cold and stinging pain from her side
she looked below and her bright white dress began to turn a deep thick red, she saw silver blade with a gold handle, her warm blood poured out, she looked back up with shock and tears  in her eyes, tears which began to fall as her body began to fall as well. her groom caught her as she fell, he gave her one last kiss, the last kiss that would be the last thing that she felt as her world began to fade away.

he laid her down, he put her body over her dress, she was like a flower, a red rose that just shade its color
as her blood still poured out, her body started to become cold, his suit was covered in blood, he looked at his hands and they were covered in her blood, he thought to himself, "my last angel back in heaven where she belongs",

one of the bridesmaids walked in to a horrific sight of the dead bride and she screamed...

to be continued..

#DarkWritingsInc
this is the first of many short stories found in my collection, Dark King Chronicles.
Zeus Dec 2016
Zeus why limit yourself you know it drives you crazy.

i just wanted to do something that would impress you.

you have my heart you don't need to impress me.
i know the word limitation kills you so you shouldn't

limitation to me is nothing as long as you smile.

you always make me smile even when you say nothing.

you're just being sweet you're always so good to me.
i don't deserve you, that's why i try so hard.

you already have my heart mind body soul and commitment

to keep all that i will always do my best.
if my best isn't good enough then i'll do better.

my dark king you shouldn't stress, you're the sweetest ever.
you mean so much to me more than words describe
if i could paint my emotions for you i would.

you're more sweeter than me, more than you know.
i'll always try to impress you and make you smile.
i hate 10 word writings they're never enough so i decided to write more than 10 words using 10 words i don't know if this has been done before but i like it!!
Zeus Dec 2016
I want them to love me like they love you.
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