I care
i care too much
about my future
my life
my family
whats going to happen to me
or if i will ever have a contribution to the society or the world
i care about my manners
how i come across to people
what people think of me
i ask why people dont like me
i care when someone makes fun of me
and then i blame myself for all the things i cant control
i care about those around me
i care too much

but now i dont care
i dont care how i weigh
i dont care how i look
or what im gonna do in life
or what job i get
i dont care if a truck ran me over tomorrow
for i know that ive tried my hardest
ive tried to make a better future for me and my family
i try to be with God all throughout
and i tried with these poems too
ive tried to make my family happy but you can only please them so much
i tried when people made fun of me
i also tried when people dont like me



so many thoughts in my mind
but so hard to write them down
rather i like to do things