I look back
To when it was you and me
But all
I see
Are broken memories

I gave you my heart
But you have empty hands
You were the key
To my happiness

My tears flow
Like the rain
Want them to go
Please go away

This pain I feel
Deep inside
Won't soon subside
You were my light
When it was dark outside
You were my hope
My fire
That needed to ignite

But you left me
Didn't even look me in the eyes
You never cared
That it hurt me when you lied
You made me believe that you loved me
When in real life
You didn't care
If I does
If I fell from a million feet
Would you be there to catch me?
I'm slowly crumbling
About to fall
But you don't care at all
Your just another boy
In your own world

I watch the still water
All the glistening coins
So much false hope...well here's my wish....

I wish I wasn't wishing anymore
How many is it now? I stopped keeping score.
I'm tired if throwing pennies in this stupid wishing well
I have to do something....
Here goes nothin...

They know my name
But not who I am, not my story
Yet they feel they have the right to judge me
They know my smile
But not my pain
Yet they think they know what I stand for, what I mean
They see my bruises
But not my scars
Cause I've Hidden behind layers and layers of lies
I hide my true self so they can't see
Be the annoying, cheerful, ****** girl you always pretend be
They don't who I am
My story, my life
Yet...thinking again.....
Do I?

I don't like who I am
I don't like who've I become to be
A boy crazy teenager
Who wants to be just like everybody
I have no identity
No individuality.......

I know who I want to be
I know I want it badly
But I don't know how to change
I want relationships on the back burner
I want Religion and Personal Growth on the front
Lets not forget about being successful in school and in adulthood
I want to be that independent woman that makes a difference
Takes a chance
MAKES A CHANGE!!
But I'm not that girl.......
I am a robot
I do as I am told
I follow the crowd
And i am stuck in an emotional and mental prison I locked myself in
And I've lost the key....

Tears stream down her face
now knowing that shes been replaced
silent whispers
of agonizing pain
she saw him kiss her
blood pulsed through her veins
" I hate you, I hate you"
but she knows thats not true
her heart is broken
but her pain will forever be unspoken

I never wanted the fairy tail wedding
until I met you
suddenly it was the gorgeous wedding on the beach
a beatiful white gown that flowed like the waves of the ocean
you at the end of the white carpet
my king waiting anxiously to share the kiss of our new begining
but just as the wind,
our plans were blown away by the hurricans of our past and present
and in a matter of days we were forced back into reality
the fairy tail yanked right out of our hands
now we're trapped,
forced to have to walk through the cruel world,yet again
the dove with the permanetely clipped wings

You ignored my silent pleas
so I screamed my pain with a knife
yet I know you still wont hear me
until I end my life
even then I don't think you'll change your ways
and honestly we both need to learn how to cope
instead of turning to our addictions in order to conceal our pain

my eyes are stained the color red
from all the crying we did the day before
but today its as if we never even talked, so my wrists stung as I bled
you drunk and I cut more and more
you said we'd be a happy family again
but if you think about it, we never were
because even from way back then
the good memories are a blur

My heart cannot feel hate
for anyone besides myself
so I see why I believed your apology wasn't fake
up until you grabbed the liquor from the top shelf

I don't expect you to change your ways
I guess I can't either
so you can just call me razor blade
and I'll call you alcohol breather

The Girl I Just Met, she is really sweet! When we first met, I cheered her up and she suddenly became the girl who made my life complete! Her and I have so much in common that it feels like we were meant to be! When I try to think, she's the only thing in my mind that I see! I love her, and she loves me. She means the world to me, she's my love and she's the only thing I'll ever need! We may be far from each other but God will bring us together because he knows how much we love one another! When the day comes you'll forever be in good arms, your my everything, and I'll never let you go, your my lucky charm!