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 folder: Heart aesthetics

I still remember that kiss you gave me atop a windy cliff
all those years ago.
 I had seen its design in your eyes as they ssoftened
held fast to thier desired destination 
and as I looked up,
neither wanting or not wanting,
afraid of what would come nnext as you leaned closer,
I felt the headiness of your warmth
your arm around my waist
and thought no more of leaving,
rather just collapsing into your design of our duality and merging.
It was a moment lost in time and the beauty of it still wraps my heart.
Even on the coldest days I feel as if it were today.

I remember it this way; 
warm lips nudging,  
melting slowly sweetly,
and rebounding so softly,
drawing ever so gently 
such delicate and soft waves
pressing love into my lips 
the slightest breath
just enough to keep the exquisite reverberating pressures lightly locked intensely passionate yet flighty and light
as not to chase the flutters in my heart away
the sweet mellow taste melding,
collapsing us both into eachother's new beautiful and timeless realities...

**** this beast that haunts this cave

Im not ******* sharing it anymore

got my sharp stick and courage to waver

gonna stab that ******* right in the heart

Ill spill my blood in bowls full before i yield this fight

**** this monster that rises in my chest

gonna stomp it back into the mother ******* ground

got my high heel boots on to tread its dread

Ill break my legs in a thousand places before I quit this fight

**** the ****** HATERS who think that Ive got to stink before they shine

**** all the ******* that ***** with your mind

**** it all, forget the score

it never fucken mattered anyway

cause I was never approved to play

I play any way because

Im gonna **** that demon up

you know the one that blackend up my soul

the days are fucken numbered

it stops here cause I aint got no fucken time for that fucken **** anymore.

her soft petals unfurled and curled open
the nectar drops released themselves clinging to her edges
till the last pull of gravity won its persistent gentle cajoling
the warm scent filled the air surrounding her
exotically hypnotic drawn like a moth
it was at this moment his lips brushed her tendrils
and drawn in, he drank deeply till drunk with ****** love.

oh I pull pieces of love thread from my soul all the time hoping just one is still attched to you

the missing is the worst part

the gaping hole of emotions where the swollen heart overflow pours

does it go where you are?

can you feel me loving you?

can you sense the way i need you near?

awash with fear and dread.

Im afraid to pull another thread,

and still i pull it, hoping each deathly milimeter draws me closer to you

are you still here?

or have you made the unkindest cut of all my cruel dear?

will you answer?

just a little tug

so I'll know

and not worry anymore

a virbrato hug carried upon this thread of ours

anything to stop this ache of mine

I miss you,

I miss you baby,

please dont play games with my head,

where are you dearest?

Im desperately yours

and terrified alone

help me love I beg,

i keep pulling out loose threads!

her lovely songs filled my hearts pages

in heart and words she was all a flutter

now shes gone how my heart ache rages

only loves sweet words ne'er a mutter



as all her lightness danced upon my soul

ebroidered words so beatifully sewn

came back each time to feel her warm glow

but not tonight i fear she has flown,



ne'er was a sadder occasion than it twas

when my lovely dovely twas discovered lost...



where are dovely without you im lost!!!

I drive the city streets at night

praying for a glimpse of you

playing the tapes burned in my mind

anything just to hear your voice

i miss talking to you in that free and easy way we do.

i mis that deep throaty laugh

that tenderness in your eyes

the way you think Im amazing

and the tender nervous way you touched me ever so lightly

a whole world in your touch, the univeral truth in your eyes

a hunter closing in and a deer in headlights by the close

my mind like my car drives in circles

I crave our time

anything to hear your voice

to feel your energy mingle with mine

God I miss you

I just want to feel alive