how is it possible

to easily forget my name

i am falling in love
with the absence of you
it is starting to wear off on me
& i am beginning to take
the love i once had for you
towards myself slowly now

she cried to me

there is no one for me

& i snapped to reply

honey
do not have the mindset of
the one does not exist for you
in your beautiful lifetime
because before you existed
a partner was set for you
just & only you honey

i believe everyone has a soulmate
the one & only living suitable
for your beautiful existence

blessed whoever they may be
you will fall in love within time
& all the emotions that once
made your beautiful life depressed
will be nonexistent as if they
were not ever once present

because this existing soulmate
is out there searching for you
as you wait for their presence
to be one in your existence

& if that soulmate never comes
into your beautiful existence
or is not to your pleasing

i
me myself & i
will be your soulmate
in a loving way to make
the bright smile stay on
your face everyday for
until the end of time

i am trying to master the art
of not giving a ****
the same way the world praises you
for succeeding in perfectly

you tell me not to rush
time is slowly for perfection
but time is ticking too fast
& i have no other choice
but to fall in love with you

you gave water to my roses
when the world convinced me
that there was a drought

fall deeply in love with yourself
so you can do the same all over
when the one was arrived
to shower you with romance

if he was truly perfect
meant for your soul
then why was the description
of his actions & love
not accurate to match
the way you portrayed him

my heart is giving up
and my body is tired
for giving the world
to those who
do not view me
as their world

maybe the cliche saying we live by
is the one i am currently dying in

perhaps you are very wrong for me
while my precious timing is just right

but i am too naive to accept
our truly false romantic affairs
because i do not want to let go
and i believe i never will in life

i was gold
but allowed myself
to be treated as silver

i do not classify myself
as a famous teenager
when the only attention
i am trying to seek
is the one from you
as the world applauses
my every move

i gave a million *****
yet
you could not give one

you are waiting for love
from someone
who has never noticed
your worth
from the beginning

was your heart not devoted to mine
when my melodies sung for yours
as the sun rose on my side to wake
the soul of yours you have left behind
in the life you continue to forget
that we have created together
as the sunsets on your end to her

any kind of fool could see
that there was nothing great
in the deepest purity of my love

i'm falling in love with everyone & everything.
but everyone & everything isn't you.

how is it so easy to not think of a girl like me. i thought i was unforgettable but you proved me wrong. did you not like the smell of my perfume. was my hair parted the wrong way. did i not smile brightly enough for you. or my works of poetry that reveal high selling books of mature language. tell me what i am doing wrong so i can become more like your type. because i want to be memorable. always on your mind.

what hurts the most
is that i loved you
when i was meant
to love him instead

what if you were the one

for me

and i let you go
but then again
if you were the one
this situation
wouldn’t be
the one

to think if you were the one

for me

i can kiss the skies above
see the enchanting galaxies
hear the harmonious angels
embrace the smells of love

but i cannot feel the love of him
if i have yet to discover a love
with the soul that takes my body
for i must fall deeply with myself

the sore pain my heart is suffering from
will never heal
as you broke a piece of mine
to bandage yours
to be a better you for your return to her

i loved you
and you loved everyone but me
because so i will never gain
that love back again i gave
therefore i release my living for you

i am giving second chances
to people
who did not even deserve
a chance from the beginning

it is painful for me to look at you
when i see still an everlasting
in your drowning brown eyes

i wish i knew that
the day we met
we would not last a lifetime
so i could cherish the present
instead of reminiscing now
everything that could have been
through the ghost of you

have you told yourself
i love you
in the mirror staring
because you are gorgeous
and you must see for yourself

there are numerous love letters
sealed with gloss kisses of mine
waiting for you to cry desperately
in the late night full of silence
where i am no longer present
because the tables have turned
and i am no longer desperately
a fool that is in love with you

you never finished the story

what happens when the prince & princess
carry on with their love they greatly found

is it an everlasting love that they gossip of
or it is a false rumor to give us high hopes

because lately my fairytales
have been brutal nightmares

poetry
why are you haunting me
i am trying to live in peace
but the words bursting in my mind
are too strong to ignore
i must write down each one
until the sun has risen again

i thought about the times
we once spent endlessly
married hand & hand
but the calendar only
marked our forever
as just a few hours

i thought about the times
we once spent endlessly
separated heart & heart
& the calendar only
marked our isolation
as countless hours

i thought about the times
we once spent endlessly
thoughts mind & mind
as the calendar only
marked our shyness
as just a forever

how can i try to say hello and start a new life with new beginnings and opportunities when saying goodbye to you is the most difficult word to speak off the tongue of my yearning mouth for your sweet lips?

in this exact moment
you are placed perfectly
where you are supposed to be

everything you did
everything you said
everything you thought
was exactly perfect
because you are here now
as they planned for you to be

eyes forever locked
heartbeats forever engaged
yet her past caused a blocked
heart stolen and caged

such innocence she wore
nothing less, nothing more
a beast tried to tore
risk was the price paid for

day by day
night by night
one’s heart became less gray
something like love, only to despite

eyes forever locked
on just one human
cage unbroken, finally unlocked
a beautiful love now blooming  

four hours
two hundred forty minutes
uncontrollable powers
connecting two souls, no limits

you talk endlessly about a pure love
to behold among the perfect person
but
tell me why do you settle for less
when you know what you truly want
do you believe you are worth silver
when your body is dressed in gold

i know i am not the only one
who has been bitten by english bug
can anyone out there prescribe me
with medication to get me through
the late nights
because i am tired of trying to sleep
when my mind is dancing with
endless stanzas & rhymes

i think it hurts to be me
searching for the girl
who used to be
before used was she

teenage years haunt a falsehood of reality
but i think it hurts me most
becoming someone i shall disappoint

i want to say that i am in love
but i know that love does not hurt

a feeling like this is not true
if you have little care about my place

they say love should be easy
but why do you make it so hard

silly am i to be
to think you did love me
because if you truly did
i would not be standing
in a puddle of my tears

i watch the days slowly pass
with our love hanging on the line
for you have not cared to change
the unconfirmed status of you & i

i wonder if it is time to call quits
& bow for my perfect solo performed
because i have presented a love
greater than you will ever live to know

i am nothing but a fool
who is crazy over you

he told me to hold him
in the palms of his hands
interlock our fingers played

yet his makeup felt similar
of one who dealt heartbreak
upon my endless loving  

wanting to speak independently
feelings of unsecured danger
i do not like to be touched

run away as far as you can
eventually time will lead
back into our tired hands

come back to me
as you promise

make the future now
let the past be forgotten

put me to sleep easily
settle pains in abundance

tell me a beautiful lie
make me feel okay

let me be the chase
desire me for once

send me off gracefully
seek private adventure

grant me an early start
let me run far away
just to come back to you

i think i am falling in love
with someone who has forgotten my soul

because i have neglected their existence
as i praised another

and my words of lipgloss stained lies
will not bring them back this time

i am falling in love
with just the idea of you
living inside of my mind
beautifully as imagery

i see the truth & ignore it every time
making up excuses for avoidance
so i can just feel alright & fantasize more

you are not obligated
to be attached
to the root
of any flower
in your garden

if it was not for heartbreak
& late nights of crying tears
i would be the weak girl
to stay in bad situations

& you know what hurts the most
that you were not the person
there for me anymore
to kiss me goodnight
comfort me during nightmares
& still be there in the morning
after going through it all
& eventually it got lonely
without your presence in my life
i kept waiting for you to come
& part of me knew you were not
but a small part of me still held on
because that is what i do
i keep a small fracture of hope
hope for you & i
if you were not going to
i was
& you still never came around
so i had to become that person
to kiss myself goodnight
comfort myself during nightmares
because it was still i
who was there in the morning
after going through it all
but this time
it was without you
& if you ever decide to return
i will be strong enough
to leave beautifully like you did
because i am now able to play both roles
since you decided to turn your script in

and as i lay myself to sleep
my dreams remind me
you are only here
to hurt me

how treacherous would it be
for me to give up my virginity
to a beautiful destroyer like you

my sweet, innocent love and heart
cannot be given away so purely
to be ripped apart in the hands of the devil

yet i love dancing with the devil
his mere intentions are evil
but i love him evermore

it is funny how
i see myself inside of you

it is funny
because i am saddened with the girl i have become

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