there is no need to explain
when your actions said enough

you talk so proudly about her
i wonder what makes her not me
tell me everything you love
so i imitate her every aspect

i am trying to find
the advantage
in the disadvantage

bring me a star
shooting through the sky
to dream for me a chance
to be me for me
instead of the girl for them

maybe the cliche saying we live by
is the one i am currently dying in

perhaps you are very wrong for me
while my precious timing is just right

but i am too naive to accept
our truly false romantic affairs
because i do not want to let go
and i believe i never will in life

how is it possible

to easily forget my name

the flowers that grow in the dark
standing shyly alone
are the beautiful ones
that will blossom unexpectedly

what hurts the most
is that i loved you
when i was meant
to love him instead

tell me how is it easy
for you put yourself to rest
each & every cold night
knowing that i am home
crying tears of you in the dark
cradling myself as a baby
in my bed of depressed moisture
as you once did comfortingly
when you were committedly mine

i wish people knew everything
about me
so they can consider their actions
before applying them towards me
because
lately i have not been getting treated
the way i deserve to be

i wish i knew that
the day we met
we would not last a lifetime
so i could cherish the present
instead of reminiscing now
everything that could have been
through the ghost of you

and as i watch the smiles
shine bright across my sight
i still remember yours
as you brightened my life
and now i must do the same
alone

we knew other
but not well enough
to shed a tear or two
when it was over

                       - acceptance

she cried to me

there is no one for me

& i snapped to reply

honey
do not have the mindset of
the one does not exist for you
in your beautiful lifetime
because before you existed
a partner was set for you
just & only you honey

i believe everyone has a soulmate
the one & only living suitable
for your beautiful existence

blessed whoever they may be
you will fall in love within time
& all the emotions that once
made your beautiful life depressed
will be nonexistent as if they
were not ever once present

because this existing soulmate
is out there searching for you
as you wait for their presence
to be one in your existence

& if that soulmate never comes
into your beautiful existence
or is not to your pleasing

i
me myself & i
will be your soulmate
in a loving way to make
the bright smile stay on
your face everyday for
until the end of time

i only want him
to talk endlessly
about him to him

                  - what a girl wants

i'm falling in love with everyone & everything.
but everyone & everything isn't you.

being with the person you deserve
will never compare or fulfill the heart of
being with the person you want

i wish not to patiently wait
to the days my life is over
for sudden recognization
feelings are still the same

three precious words vowed
i am his yet he is not mine
devoted passionately to he
prayers above for love to be

if i let you know the truth
will you confess it all to me
tell me you still love me
as the past has proved

stay for once never leave
bless me with one chance
to prove it is meant to be
our love is made to succeed

times are slowly changing
my love for you is endless
you always stay for little
going without my control

it is seen that i am i
and simply he is he
yet time can only tell
what is meant to be

i think i am falling in love
with someone who has forgotten my soul

because i have neglected their existence
as i praised another

and my words of lipgloss stained lies
will not bring them back this time

was you. all of you.

i fell in love with the soul of your’s
because
you gave me every reason to do so

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i am starting to come to terms
that i cannot have everything in life

i just wish i knew earlier
that included you

i am getting restless
for those who have neglected my love
shame on them
i will not be there for your next call

i never wanted to leave a person so greatly
as the one who had every part of me
beautifully immersed within their life

let me break free from this trapped living

moonlight hit my gloomy face.
competition of tears in a race.
the pain you dealt left a place.
permanent mark, cannot be replaced.

tossing and turning.
mistakes felt like a burdening.
ungrateful regret unnoticed.
beautiful words, left unspoken.

like a thief in the night.
took my heart, without a sight.
beautifully killed an innocent soul.
her world left, deadly dull.

trust inbound within a human.
belief and faith there was no wrong doing.
broke my heart within a second.
everything gone, within a millisecond.

tossing and turning.
cries for all of you, yearning.
temptation is satan.
love was mistaken.

took a risk and rolled the dice.
should’ve known i wasn’t the prize.
another girl within his eyes.
laying in a bed, full of lies.

left alone, broken and cold.
heart is dead, pure hard stone.
how he made me feel, specifically.
is how he did her, physically.

three in the morning.
nothing but mourning.
experiences were truly blue.
the first night i slept without you.

i believe poetry is one of the many
reasons i am still here living life

my blood and bones cannot rest
until i have the chance to present

every detail i need to pronounce
greatly to crowds of great masses

i have heard the words of others
whispering behind my back
that you are still in love with me
& it is still i who is the girl
your mouth speaks in the night
when she is laying next to you
crying silently under the covers
because she knows that your songs
are not dedicated to her

if he was truly perfect
meant for your soul
then why was the description
of his actions & love
not accurate to match
the way you portrayed him

any kind of fool could see
that there was nothing great
in the deepest purity of my love

having so much on my mind
dying to tell you my secrets
but
it would be the death of us
forgive me for i cannot say

i gave a million *****
yet
you could not give one

want you need in life. love. lust.
will never compare to
what you deserve in life. love. lust.

what hurts the most
is that
i can never get back
what you have taken
from me

you

my heart breaks in shatters

as you knew it was
always me
but you
always been
for her

he shall return to your sweet soul
after every existence has denied
the love he has been searching for
exactly as the one you gave to him
since the day he has left your life

your heart did not
match your actions
and that is when
i decided to
say goodbye

it is starting to feel painful
being the only one
to still have love
for you & i

i feel as if my life is falling apart
& i am doing nothing to stop it
watching each piece of me
slowly tear away for rotting

i am falling in love
with just the idea of you
living inside of my mind
beautifully as imagery

i know i am not the only one
who has been bitten by english bug
can anyone out there prescribe me
with medication to get me through
the late nights
because i am tired of trying to sleep
when my mind is dancing with
endless stanzas & rhymes

it shall return back to your sweet soul
the moment you have made a vow to
yourself that the lively eyes of devotion
must embark on another adventure
in search for beauty in something else
within the life you are accustomed to
because you are immune to the living
of your original journey of what the eyes
of you possess have longed endlessly for

                                                            - set it free

why is that my heart
cannot correspond
with my mind
when it comes to love

there will be people you encounter in life
who are willing to wait for you
and others who are not
& both parties are okay to deal with
once you determine your worth

you always leave
without me telling you to go

you never are here
when i beg

but you return
when i do not ask

why are you like this to me

take precious time
to love everything
not once but twice
because sadly
loving it just once
may only be the offer
given to you in life

i am dying to feel those butterflies inside of me
that explode wings of romance all because of you

i prefer gold over diamonds
because at the end of the day
even the prettiest
can be artificial