how is it possible

to easily forget my name

the flowers that grow in the dark
standing shyly alone
are the beautiful ones
that will blossom unexpectedly

tell me how is it easy
for you put yourself to rest
each & every cold night
knowing that i am home
crying tears of you in the dark
cradling myself as a baby
in my bed of depressed moisture
as you once did comfortingly
when you were committedly mine

you talk so proudly about her
i wonder what makes her not me
tell me everything you love
so i imitate her every aspect

there is no need to explain
when your actions said enough

maybe the cliche saying we live by
is the one i am currently dying in

perhaps you are very wrong for me
while my precious timing is just right

but i am too naive to accept
our truly false romantic affairs
because i do not want to let go
and i believe i never will in life

bring me a star
shooting through the sky
to dream for me a chance
to be me for me
instead of the girl for them

your ears were shut
when i sung to the world
poetic words that made
everyone fall in love

what hurts the most
is that i loved you
when i was meant
to love him instead

being with the person you deserve
will never compare or fulfill the heart of
being with the person you want

she cried to me

there is no one for me

& i snapped to reply

honey
do not have the mindset of
the one does not exist for you
in your beautiful lifetime
because before you existed
a partner was set for you
just & only you honey

i believe everyone has a soulmate
the one & only living suitable
for your beautiful existence

blessed whoever they may be
you will fall in love within time
& all the emotions that once
made your beautiful life depressed
will be nonexistent as if they
were not ever once present

because this existing soulmate
is out there searching for you
as you wait for their presence
to be one in your existence

& if that soulmate never comes
into your beautiful existence
or is not to your pleasing

i
me myself & i
will be your soulmate
in a loving way to make
the bright smile stay on
your face everyday for
until the end of time

and as i watch the smiles
shine bright across my sight
i still remember yours
as you brightened my life
and now i must do the same
alone

i am starting to come to terms
that i cannot have everything in life

i just wish i knew earlier
that included you

i wish i knew that
the day we met
we would not last a lifetime
so i could cherish the present
instead of reminiscing now
everything that could have been
through the ghost of you

i wish not to patiently wait
to the days my life is over
for sudden recognization
feelings are still the same

three precious words vowed
i am his yet he is not mine
devoted passionately to he
prayers above for love to be

if i let you know the truth
will you confess it all to me
tell me you still love me
as the past has proved

stay for once never leave
bless me with one chance
to prove it is meant to be
our love is made to succeed

times are slowly changing
my love for you is endless
you always stay for little
going without my control

it is seen that i am i
and simply he is he
yet time can only tell
what is meant to be

i wish people knew everything
about me
so they can consider their actions
before applying them towards me
because
lately i have not been getting treated
the way i deserve to be

was you. all of you.

i think i am falling in love
with someone who has forgotten my soul

because i have neglected their existence
as i praised another

and my words of lipgloss stained lies
will not bring them back this time

it is starting to feel painful
being the only one
to still have love
for you & i

he shall return to your sweet soul
after every existence has denied
the love he has been searching for
exactly as the one you gave to him
since the day he has left your life

we knew other
but not well enough
to shed a tear or two
when it was over

                       - acceptance

i believe poetry is one of the many
reasons i am still here living life

my blood and bones cannot rest
until i have the chance to present

every detail i need to pronounce
greatly to crowds of great masses

i fell in love with the soul of your’s
because
you gave me every reason to do so

i'm falling in love with everyone & everything.
but everyone & everything isn't you.

i feel as if my life is falling apart
& i am doing nothing to stop it
watching each piece of me
slowly tear away for rotting

my heart breaks in shatters

as you knew it was
always me
but you
always been
for her

it is still true as time comes
i am still serving you
my master
i am still loving you

i have put my life on hold
for i am sired to you
but you do not recognize
my worth is greater than
the one you hold

but i am still serving you

do not ask me why
for i do not have the answer

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i wish there was something more
i could do
to be more perfect like her

i wish there was something more
i could do
to have you love me like her

i wish there was something more
i could do
to have never seen you & her

i wish there was something more
i could do
to have never given you to her

i wish there was something more
i could do
to be her

i gave a million *****
yet
you could not give one

having so much on my mind
dying to tell you my secrets
but
it would be the death of us
forgive me for i cannot say

i sat down in the tub
with the shower head
crying all over my body
reminding me
that i was not over you
i allowed hot steam
to wake my skin
only to realize
i must live another day
without you
in love with me

if you loved me

then

why was there a her?

i was scared of the commitment
you were begging for me to give
because i could never commit to myself

i only want him
to talk endlessly
about him to him

                  - what a girl wants

drinking the heartbreak away
will not solve the problems
you bury yourself in as habit

with alcohol sipping on your lips
allowing dry unspoken words to be
the only chapstick you immerse the lips
you once saturated upon your love with

making stains on your wrinkled shirt
that has been reserved longly from
the month's old ***** laundry pile
because of denial to sober yourself
with no views of bettering the life
you suffer greatly continuous in

as you take each sip to another shelf
of empty bottles & intoxicated remorse
you will not embrace the empowerment
of the unawareness of your environment

yet instead the awareness of who
caused you to sip to another
emplacement of an empty shelf

your heart did not
match your actions
and that is when
i decided to
say goodbye

what hurts the most
is that
i can never get back
what you have taken
from me

you

i am getting restless
for those who have neglected my love
shame on them
i will not be there for your next call

i am falling in love
with just the idea of you
living inside of my mind
beautifully as imagery

for you know
i am not meant to
stay in one place

because rose petals
are meant to blow away

what hurts the most

is that

i always knew

you’d be the one to hurt me

first

my heart is beating fastly
because it is not over you
but time is passing slowly
without your presence

i prefer gold over diamonds
because at the end of the day
even the prettiest
can be artificial

any kind of fool could see
that there was nothing great
in the deepest purity of my love

it is hard to stay devoted to one
when the devil grants me many
of temptations that look like him
but
you will always be in my heart
the only boy that i have wanted
despite those of many portraying
elements that exemplify you

what if you were the one

for me

and i let you go
but then again
if you were the one
this situation
wouldn’t be
the one

to think if you were the one

for me

take precious time
to love everything
not once but twice
because sadly
loving it just once
may only be the offer
given to you in life