you tell me not to rush
time is slowly for perfection
but time is ticking too fast
& i have no other choice
but to fall in love with you

my pillow lays me to peace
to remind me of everything
i never had to be a possession

soft fantasies leave me at dawn
for it is time to return to reality

the sun rises to kiss my face
to grasp the sense of my fears

because what could should & would
are stored away within my pillow
constant daydream of false words

i think what hurts the most
is knowing i have the ability
to voice my expodable mind
but cannot because inability
to recieve desired expectations

maybe the cliche saying we live by
is the one i am currently dying in

perhaps you are very wrong for me
while my precious timing is just right

but i am too naive to accept
our truly false romantic affairs
because i do not want to let go
and i believe i never will in life

i believe poetry is one of the many
reasons i am still here living life

my blood and bones cannot rest
until i have the chance to present

every detail i need to pronounce
greatly to crowds of great masses

i loved you
and you loved everyone but me
because so i will never gain
that love back again i gave
therefore i release my living for you

want you need in life. love. lust.
will never compare to
what you deserve in life. love. lust.

being with the person you deserve
will never compare or fulfill the heart of
being with the person you want

i am getting restless
for those who have neglected my love
shame on them
i will not be there for your next call

bring me a star
shooting through the sky
to dream for me a chance
to be me for me
instead of the girl for them

i never wanted to be more dependent
on the reflection staring at me in the mirror

until

i understood that this would be the only
staring back at me with the tears falling

everyone has something to talk about
whether those who speak
are with you or not
they will always have their mouth
better must to make it a story
they can endlessly tell decades about

i never knew that silence can be rupted this loud

i am stuck here praying in the perking dawn
that not only mine but those who are deprived
are granted their teenage what ifs on their mind

my prayers are sent endlessly through angels
that their nightmares are turnt to dreams
of realities containing fantasies of romance

tears of pain turnt to golden lust glitter shining
eyes awaken from the sleepless nights of sorrow
brightening suns of morning of new beginnings

to cast their eternities of teenage hopes
as i lay close to my future with doubts of lost
due to results of youth taking majority

prayers of wings sent to my hopeless romantics
because teenage thoughts are on the minds

maybe one day
we can pick up where we left

forget the heartbreak we both left
with scars from our pain healed
patching the past with our present

lead me your hand to kiss softly
just like the many times in the past
let one beginning spark an eternity

let me be the fault you knew
and forgive my mistakes of dawn

so that maybe one day
we can be that reality
you always dreamt of

i never wanted to leave a person so greatly
as the one who had every part of me
beautifully immersed within their life

let me break free from this trapped living

& now that you have broken me
i feel even more strung with stupidity
when i listen to your tasteful truths
rather than your tongue twisted lies

promises mean nothing
when the person you love
breaks them so easily

i always disliked
how you knew when to come back around
when my life was finally back in place
after each time you broke my heart

it’s not a *******. & her. & her. & all the other girls you decided to spend the night with instead of a sober one with me. it’s just simply a *******. because when i was the one to hold it down for you it couldn’t be reciprocated with your nonreligious morals that call you to be an average teenage boy portrayed in society.

you will never see the worth of a female. until one treats you the same way you did to me.

the lust inside of your body rages of addiction. forcing the potential love your mother raised you to show to the world to be rotten deep inside of your wasted body.

so this is my finger & i point it out to you.

how do i show you my favorite view
when it is standing right in front of me

perfect height
big brown eyes
unforgettable smile
gorgeous laugh

stand right here & wait for me
i will be coming back with a mirror

the dusty blush roses
that grew in my garden
were always seeds of love
for your beating heart

and the petals that fell off
slowly crying weak stems
ate the pain of your absence
with forgiveness of myself

i am starting to realize
that i have the power
to shut & lock the door
before they even leave

i am dying to feel those butterflies inside of me
that explode wings of romance all because of you

& suddenly everything became about you.

i feel as if i can never win
even if i am in first place

i feel as if my life is falling apart
& i am doing nothing to stop it
watching each piece of me
slowly tear away for rotting

there is no need to explain
when your actions said enough

they shall have no confidence
to sing lips on stage to a crowd
of single furious eyes of rage
as they once did backstage
rehearsing successfully to thee

there is not much left to say
when they have already
turned their bodies to walk

you are waiting for the right time
instead of creating it on your own

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no one has ever been there for me
when i needed them at my worst
now i am that person who is there
at my highest & lowest points
because they have proven otherwise

waiting for the right timing
when it is not even present

praying for a shooting star
when it is not even present

hoping for a miracle
when is it not even present

staying loyal to everything
when they are not even present

i never fully understood
the meaning behind cheating
until one of my own did it to me

that night you left i could not sleep
but you were able to
because you had her by your side

any kind of fool could see
that there was nothing great
in the deepest purity of my love

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there will be people you encounter in life
who are willing to wait for you
and others who are not
& both parties are okay to deal with
once you determine your worth

i can make myself feel prettier
than the way you did for me

i crave a love so pure
that romeo & juliet
would die for

my heart is beating fastly
because it is not over you
but time is passing slowly
without your presence

it is so difficult to say no
to those i have been
dying to say yes to

the flowers that grow in the dark
standing shyly alone
are the beautiful ones
that will blossom unexpectedly

i am counting stars in someone else’s sky
when theirs do not glow as bright as mine
for i wish for a life different from now
where i am too blind to notice
all of my blessings that have not been counted

i learned to save the hard way
by not wasting millions on those
who would not spare a penny for me

you are waiting for love
from someone
who has never noticed
your worth
from the beginning

i wish people knew everything
about me
so they can consider their actions
before applying them towards me
because
lately i have not been getting treated
the way i deserve to be

i am starting to understand
that what makes me happy
is not always what i deserve

i do not know how to explain it
but it must be because
i am in love
& my heart assures me
with strong beats of symphony
that he is the one meant for me