he was my preview
of what heaven is
on earth

i keep stressing over things
that only time has control of

come on time do your thing
because you have been
surely letting me down lately

i hope you do not think
that i am writing this
in the occurrence of you
resting beautifully on my mind

truth be told
i am no longer writing
with your name being
the dictionary reason
to my scripted words

i truly am i not
thinking about you
i promise i have
forgotten about you

here it goes again
me with the lying

i lied because truth be told
this has everything
to do with you
dictionary defines it too

why do i always allow myself
to experience heartbreak
knowing that i enter the same situations
that will give me the exact outcomes
i have encountered many times in the past
for i keep disrespecting myself
in hopes that people who have never cared
will one day care for a girl like me

i want to say that i am in love
but i know that love does not hurt

a feeling like this is not true
if you have little care about my place

they say love should be easy
but why do you make it so hard

silly am i to be
to think you did love me
because if you truly did
i would not be standing
in a puddle of my tears

i watch the days slowly pass
with our love hanging on the line
for you have not cared to change
the unconfirmed status of you & i

i wonder if it is time to call quits
& bow for my perfect solo performed
because i have presented a love
greater than you will ever live to know

i am nothing but a fool
who is crazy over you

my phone rests quietly
by my side as i wait
checking for a notification
that i have missed a call
or am receiving a loud ring
from the boy that is on my mind
man i cannot forget your face

i wait each day & night
it has been quite a while
since you have called my name

i wonder if you have forgotten
or misplaced my information
because to this day i am still
waiting for just one ring

i can spend the entire day
creating lasting memories
just to have them see me
smile greatly upon them
only to be heartbroken
when they decide that
i am easily forgettable
after giving them everything
from my heart to my soul