i can spend the entire day
creating lasting memories
just to have them see me
smile greatly upon them
only to be heartbroken
when they decide that
i am easily forgettable
after giving them everything
from my heart to my soul

you were the perfect being
created for my special kind
i am convinced we are meant
but there is only one thing
stopping us from being together
which is sadly time

for i will see you again in life
after i have grown from my youth
to greet you with a loving smile
as i stand next to my husband
watching you two shake hands
with your wife on the side observing
as she rests her hand on her stomach

& that is when we look at each other
& accept that we were both
the ones that got away
because we were only teenagers

my mom left me last night
by choice
same for my father
by choice

bright flames lit them up
as they had time
to save themselves
but they did not wish to
it was as if
they were okay with dying

i was not okay with staying
i had to leave them
by choice
i performed my solo sadly
as life danced on
without my parents

it was a nightmare
of personal choices
made by those i love
giving me horrors

i woke up at the stroke
of three in the morning
sweat dances on my back
heat rising like the flames
that took my parents away

it was the worst of them all
for i meant nothing to them
but it was only just a dream

i am starting to forget
the simple things about you

the way your hands felt
when you touched my cold body

the smile you gave me
when i presented emotions

your hair against the wind
in my car as you drove it fast

my doctor is slowly increasing
my prescription of medication
so i can no longer remember you

perhaps you were the man for me
that was meant to be that very one
that was destined to get away

i feel as if i am like the sunrise
a beautiful thing always being missed

you birth love
in places
love has
never existed

we knew other
but not well enough
to shed a tear or two
when it was over

                       - acceptance