we knew other
but not well enough
to shed a tear or two
when it was over

                       - acceptance

good morning roses. my second book 'seventeen petals on my rose' is now available on amazon. it is a poetry book composed of seventeen chapters, relating to the seventeen most important aspects of my life. it would mean the world to me if you would purchase the book. an ebook for 'seventeen petals on my rose' will be released in the next few days. thank you.

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what would you do if you had one last chance?

& if there is only one thing i want. it is to hear his voice on repeat in my mind. not telling me that he does not love me. but having him tell me that he does. like he used to everyday in the past. but if there is only one thing we both want. that is for me to forget him. & i wish that for me. but for my future self. & i have not come into an encountering with her. she is too hung up on the future that could have been with him. & i think that is what hurts the most. not everything that we lost. but what could have been greatly together. we benefited each other. & it happened too quick. him being taken away from me. i was not expecting it. i feel like it has not happened. i lay awake each night in hopes he will ring my phone to put me to sleep like he did every night by telling me stories. to eliminate the chances of me having nightmares because he knew how much they haunted me. & i try to find a piece of him in others. sadly i have failed to find that in the man who is currently loving me more than his own life. i have taken for granted someone who sees me as the sun. his own sun in his life. yet i am still in love with someone who views me as a sunrise. a beautiful viewing only paid attention to when wished. & when it is appreciated it is beautiful. but long forgotten as time goes by. & at this point all i can do is laugh because of the failure i have continuously put in my life. waiting for someone to realize my worth & come back. after times of being told no by not only him. but everyone. & yet i am the only one holding onto the breaking rope. because i foolishly believe that he was the best of my life & i have already lost the one thing that made me a little more of me.

hello

i hope all is well. did not mean to bother. you just happened to appear on my mind during the late hours. i wonder if you remember me. the smell of roses on my chest. the way i did my hair up real nice. & the cold touch of my fingers gliding down your back. i moved out west. i had to escape the haunting memories of you. you were my best mistake. & i still refuse to admit our love was not real.

i hope you found the girl. the one who treats you like a garden. full of all my roses. i know it is not easy to forget. you may love her more than me. of course you do. because your mind tells you to. but if that was not the case then tell me why are you still reading my letter. falling deeper in love with me as i continue. perhaps you should dial my number. there is just a chance i may answer. but with the world we live in second chances are the last of our matters.

i wish you a life of love. heartbreak. & endless thoughts of what if. for i am with the wind. breezing like the yellow petals on my jetting stem of thorns. do not be alarmed by this writing. you will not be able to see me again. we were not paired for eternity in our lifetime. for i am only a young girl. not yet discovered as a woman.

as i place this letter in the ivory envelope & seal it with a kiss. i will not think of your sweet honey dripping lips upon mine but the bitter taste of the way you kissed me goodbye.

my hair blows in the wind as i send this letter off. gray clouds slowly welcome me to the next. a quiet thunderstorm is coming to end me. only to revive me to a new beginning.


- farewell almost lover

why is that my heart
cannot correspond
with my mind
when it comes to love

she cried to me

there is no one for me

& i snapped to reply

honey
do not have the mindset of
the one does not exist for you
in your beautiful lifetime
because before you existed
a partner was set for you
just & only you honey

i believe everyone has a soulmate
the one & only living suitable
for your beautiful existence

blessed whoever they may be
you will fall in love within time
& all the emotions that once
made your beautiful life depressed
will be nonexistent as if they
were not ever once present

because this existing soulmate
is out there searching for you
as you wait for their presence
to be one in your existence

& if that soulmate never comes
into your beautiful existence
or is not to your pleasing

i
me myself & i
will be your soulmate
in a loving way to make
the bright smile stay on
your face everyday for
until the end of time

thank you for taking a fraction of my life
only to waste it with heartbreak
& leaving me alone to my thoughts
of countless memories of what ifs 

only for me to dedicate time to
pick up my broken pieces to mend my pain 
by rediscovering myself
& inventing a stronger me
that no longer sees you as a necessity in my life