for my creator took away my askings. not because i am ungrateful. yet instead as punishment. for putting up with the pain of my destructive gifts for too long. he has stolen them from him. in hopes of greatness to come. for am i the one who lost her dangers for better.

he told me to hold him
in the palms of his hands
interlock our fingers played

yet his makeup felt similar
of one who dealt heartbreak
upon my endless loving  

wanting to speak independently
feelings of unsecured danger
i do not like to be touched

the love i lived for you
isn't acknowledgeable
to the present state
you exist contently in

the respect i showed you
is incomprehensible
to the women
of your depressing
future

the game you showed me
is nothing comparable
to the revenge i seek
to play horrendously
on your deceiving soul

the betrayal you gifted me
is nowhere near the blessing
i am given from above
to end your successful
falsely uphold life

for i am the game
you played the best

it was the only thing i ever wanted
she
was the only thing i ever wanted

and i was the only thing
me
the only thing she never wanted

you are
the one thing

i have always wanted
and never gotten

and that simply is
the one endowment

i will strive to achieve
for the rest of my life

i loved you too much
more than the earth
had to simply offer

he might have been the one
the perfect bonding given
to accommodate my life

but i willingly let him go
for another beautiful lifestyle
that i believe is better than any

nothing will change my mind
yet he is the best one for me
foolishly i let the right one go

and one day
this person
will enter
the life
existing
and think
of this soul
captivating
an incomprehensible
form of being
and think of it
not once
not twice
but all the time
and this
will be
an everlasting
love