how treacherous would it be
for me to give up my virginity
to a beautiful destroyer like you

my sweet, innocent love and heart
cannot be given away so purely
to be ripped apart in the hands of the devil

yet i love dancing with the devil
his mere intentions are evil
but i love him evermore

i cry.
i weep.
i shed tears.
endless flows of water that produce my heartbroken reflection.

i exist.
not live.
i belong to this world full of sweet melancholy opportunities.

i hurt.
i ache.
i struggle.
i bleed saltless tears in hopes i will save myself one day.

how can i try to say hello and start a new life with new beginnings and opportunities when saying goodbye to you is the most difficult word to speak off the tongue of my yearning mouth for your sweet lips?

he promised me a future. of him and i “one day.” yet explain to me the estimate, of exactly the meaning of “one day.” shall we cross paths simply in the next twenty four hours of breath? or shall we wait a week’s worth to a month? or simply is “one day” an excuse for never, to make my heart throbbing pain ease slowly away? if “one day” does not exist in our lifetime, please explain why.

d is for do not
contact me ever again 
wishing to seek freedom 
no consideration of amends

d is for die
never come back to me
travel across the country
left me painfully hopeless 
strong beliefs of your return

d is for dumb
how you treated me
wrong and disrespectful
crying long and endlessly 

d is for dangerous
deadly love between two
rebellious teenage emotions
modern day romeo and juliet
stabbed my heart touchless

d is for do-over
a new life for myself 
self-love and progression 
no more second chances

i wish not to patiently wait
to the days my life is over
for sudden recognization
feelings are still the same

three precious words vowed
i am his yet he is not mine
devoted passionately to he
prayers above for love to be

if i let you know the truth
will you confess it all to me
tell me you still love me
as the past has proved

stay for once never leave
bless me with one chance
to prove it is meant to be
our love is made to succeed

times are slowly changing
my love for you is endless
you always stay for little
going without my control

it is seen that i am i
and simply he is he
yet time can only tell
what is meant to be

run away as far as you can
eventually time will lead
back into our tired hands

come back to me
as you promise

make the future now
let the past be forgotten

put me to sleep easily
settle pains in abundance

tell me a beautiful lie
make me feel okay

let me be the chase
desire me for once

send me off gracefully
seek private adventure

grant me an early start
let me run far away
just to come back to you