Doves Flying,
Crying,
Dying,
In City Smog,
White Feathers Stained From Human Garbage,
Stained From Society's Words,
White Angels Turned Into Common Rock Doves,
Tears Rolling Down Their Cheeks,
Because They Know They're Lossing Themselves,
Doves Crying,
On The Statue Of Liberty,
Because They Know Freedom Isn't Free,
And They Know,
No One Is Truly Accepted,
Humans Ruthless,
Society Clueless,
Doves Released At Weddings Cry,
Because They Understand That,
The Bride And The Groom Will Both Be,
Heartbroken,
Doves Cry In The Streets,
And In The Sky's,
Wondering Why,
The World Took A Turn For The Worst

Scars Masking My Flesh,
Fate's Talons Are Sharp And Ruthless,
They Aren't Afraid To Make You Bleed

My Heart Deflated,
Dreams Sedated,
I Thought I Made It,
But It Was Just Hallucinated,
Thought I Made It Past The Guns,
But When I Came Up To You, You Held One,
I Started To Run,
But You Shot Me Down,
You Cut My Lips Making A Permanent Frown,  
Now There Is A Surreal Pounding In My Crown,
As You Try To Make Me Accept Your Apology,
You Yelled And Abused,
You Left A Me With Some Bruses,
And A Permanent **** On My Heart,
You Hungry Ghost,
In Ways You Were Crueler Than Most,
You've Added To My Collection If Battle Scars

Hope Slashed My Wrists,
And Sliced My Shoulders,
I Sit Here And Wonder,
When Will This War Ever End*

I'm Terrified,
But I'm Not Leaving,
I'll Fight In This Warful World,
Until I'm No Longer Breathing,
While My Heart Is Lethargically Beating,
I Will Clean The Wound Where I'm Bleeding,
So Don't You Dare,
Try To Defeat Me.....

My Forehead On Fire,
Fate Destroying Pieces Of The Puzzle,
Fiddling With A Broken Heart,
Shhh Don't Speak You Slithering Serpent,
I Found You Already,
Feeding On My Misery,
You Cowardly Caressed My Courage,
Picking It Up You Ripped It,
Trying Rebind It,
You Dropped My Dusty Glass Of Dreams,
Trying To Sweep Up The Mess,
You Knocked Over My Knowledge,
Which Was Kindle To Your Open Flame,
Of Dwindling Depression,
Whenever I Try To Make Things Right,
You Have To Sprinkle A Little Wrong Onto Our Cake Of Caring,
And Now I Feel Like You Don't Care About Who Or What I Am....
I Am An Enigma To You,
But Instead Of Trying To Understand You Criticize,
You Chase Away The Creativity,
You Indulge In The Pain Of Uncertainty,
Sometimes I Feel You Carefree Hands Ripping At My Well Being,
And I Always Ask Myself,
Why Do I Still Love You When Sometimes You Make Me Miserable...

Sunflower,
Don't Die From My Soul,
Sunlight Still Lurks In My Veins,
Imagination Quenches Your Thirst,
Though Your Roots Are Exposed,
I Kiss Every Petal,
To Keep You Alive

Rose,
Don't Die,
You Are The Passion In My Garden Of Me,
Don't Let The Frost Over Take You,
Snowflakes Dance Around You,
Enjoy The Cold

Sunflower,
Oh Sunflower,
It's Always Summer In My Garden,
Let The Showers Of Enlightenment,
Keep Your Petals Smooth And Age Free

*Rose,
Oh Rose,
Rose With Green Eyes,
Stay Strong,
Don't Let The Weeds Overtake You,
You Are Beautiful,
You Are The Pacemaker,
To Anyone Without A Heart,
If You Fail To Survive,
So Will I

I'm A Lab Rat
                        You Heard Me Right
I Am An Experiment Of The Divine
                        Everything Simulated
Same Smiling Faces And The Scowl Of Enemies
           The Same Endless Loop Of Activities
Work Everyday Of Your Life
To Find Whats At The End Of The Maze Is Paper
Vials Constantly Puncture My Skin
                            Injecting Emotions
The Divines Hands Constantly Working
   No No No You Will NeverFinish This Maze
How Much Depression Does It Take
                 To Crush The Human Spirit
One Of 7 Billion Mice
  Our Lives Composed To Have Ups And Downs
So Close Yet So Far
                Dont Let Her Finish The Maze!
Make Her Loved One Crush Her Soul
                     That'll Slow Her Down
I Am A Test Tube Baby
              Born From Experimental Parents
I'm Tired Of Being Torn In Half
                   Trying To Create A Future
C'mon It's Only About 80 More Years
                 Its The American Dream Baby
It's The Divines Dream
To Understand Us As We Try To Find Our Way
So I Sit Here With Straight Lined Lips
               And Eyes That Can Peirce Flesh
As They Decided To Play
               A Little Devotion Will Never Hurt
Lets Test Some Chemicals
Greenhouse Gases Inhaled Through Tiny Lungs
I Want To Believe There Is Good In The World
              Now Those Beliefs Are Crushed Too
But From The Concrete
               Who Knew A Flower Would Grow
    *I Always Have Hope Of A Better Tomorrow

The Snow Lazily Falls To Earth,
As I Clutch My Elbows And Clench My Teeth,
As Goosebumps Rise Along My Spine,
I Love The Snow,
I Love The Feeling Of Cold Piercing My Skin,
The Snowflakes Melting,
Freezing Water Running Down My Temples,
I Breathe In The Frigid Wind,
Frozen Air Swelling In My Lungs,
It's Just Like My Dreams,
The Cold Robbing Me Of My Human Mind,
Taking Away My Troubles,
Helping Me Walk Along,
The Path Of My Brothers And Sisters,
Now I Ask You Frosty Wonder,
Could You Make A Dream Come True?

Almond Shaped Green Eyes,
Soon To Turn,
A Chest Heaving Sighs,
It's Almost Time For Her To Burn,
Burn Through Life's Pages,
Lift The Door From All These Cages,
Her Words The Outcome Of Pain,
Standing Proud In The Rain,
Her Strength A Silhouette,
In Societies Prized,
Time To Play Russian Roulette,
There Are To Many Things To Hide,
Lipstick On The Glass,
The Gun Ready To Blast,
Spines Of Books Watch,
And A Million Unspokwn Words Hang In The Air,
A Bullet Strikes The Clock,
Her Skin Still Fair,
Though Now It Is Covered,
In Intricate Red Lace,
A Light Burning Bright Is Now Smuthered,
Which Lays On The Floor,
Is The Rose's Shattered Vase,
Russian Roulette,
Played Fate,
That Silhouette,
Tried To Vanquish Hate,
Don't You Forget,
*The Sound Of The Trigger

Everything Was Stiil,
Silence Limgered In The Air,
Soppy Cement Was A Barren Path,
One Star Poked Through Dawn's Misty Sky,
I Was A Shadow,
Completed With Red Pouty Lips,
And Red Lace Running Along My Fair Skin,
My Eyes Strained To See 20 Feet Ahead,
In The Smuthering Darkness,
And I Couldn't Help Thinking,
About *You

You Held Me Tight In Your Arms,
The Night Air Nipping At Our Skin,
Our Breath Clouds Of Warmth,
Mixing Underneath The Stars
"I Love You," You Said, Your Hands Meandering,
Up And Down My Spine,
Trying To Keep Me Warm,
In The Frosty Octobor Night
Corn Stalks Gently Grazed Our Jeans,
You Held Me Close,
Perplexing The Lurking Demons,
Warming My Blood,
With Your Lips*
"I Love You Too," I Said Holding Your Shoulders
You Wrapped Me In Your Arms,
Folding Our Souls Together,
Like An Ormagami Crane,
And You Kissed My Cheek,
Our Frozen Fingers Entwined
"Don't Ever Leave Me," You Said Lovingly,
As You Burried Your Face Into My Neck,
And Kissed It Lightly
I Lay My Head On Your Shoulder,
And The Goosebumps On My Skin Faded,
As My Body Enjoyed The Cold
"I Won't" I Murmered,
You Stared Into My Eyes,
And Pulled Me Closer,
Our Lips A Millimeter Away,
You Know What I Like
I Felt Your Breath As You Asked,"What Would You Say If I Asked You To Marry Me?"
Even Though It Was Only 2 Seconds,
The Space Imbetween That Question,
Felt Like Two Hours,
Honestly I Never Wanted That Moment To End
"I Would Say Yes, Why?"
I Could Feel Your Pulse Rise,
And Your Skin Start To Warm
"Because Someday I'm Going To Ask You, And Give You A Diamond Ring, Almost As Beautiful As You"
I Smiled
A Reflection To Yours
As We Sat Under
The Yellowish Cresent Moon
"Then It's A Yes"
I Laughed
My Annoying Kackly Laugh
The One You Love
"Can I Kiss You?"
My Eyebrows Lowered
In Sarcastic Annoyence
But I Giggled
"Fine"
As You Kissed Me
I Smiled
"Please Take My Sweatshirt," You Begged Me
I Noticed My Shivering Body
The Hairs On My Arms Rose
And My Fingers Felt
As If They Belonged To A Dead Person
"Okay" I Reluctantly Said
*You Put Your Sweatshirt Over My Shoulders
And As You Cuddled Me Closer
And Kissed My Lips One Last Time
I Opened My Eyes
The Light From The Moon
Streaked Across My Face
Suddenly I Heard You Whisper
Goodnight
As We Stood On My Doorstep
Goodnight I Replied

Flames Slowly Start To Engulf My Hatred
And Quickly Rekindles My Love
Two Pairs Of Amber Orbs
Stare Into Eachother
Reading A Cryptic Script
Ingredients To Concoct A Brew Of Passion
To Beautifully Stain Life's Pages
                                                My Hand Lies In Yours
                            And You Tentatively Kiss My Lips
                                               Your Greyish Blue Eyes
                    Stare Into My Pine Needle Green Irises
                                        And You Don't Look Away
                              When You Tell Me You Love Me
The Sun Hides Underneath The Horizion
The Only Light Is From Our Flame
Which Burns On The Forest Floor
But Is Too Gentle To Destroy The Thickets
The Stars Above
Guard Our Wishes
And We Both Know
Every Wish Is About Eachother
                                    A Star Dangles From My Neck
                     Your Promise To Me I'm Forever Yours                My Wish That Your Promise Will Never Be Broken
                              As You Softly Whisper In My Ear
                                  I Feel Your Breath On My Skin
                             You Hold Me Tight In Your Arms
        Which Is The Nicest Home I Could Ever Own
The Crickets Are Now Dead In Falls Grasp
But The Music Of Our Love
A Silent Beat In The Night
Is Music To Our Fire
Which Warms The Night
Tree Branches Are Our Ceiling
And The Ground Is Our Chairs
The Sky Is Our Blanket
And Our Heartbeat Is Our Furnace
                                                 A Dream Of True Love
                                                               Is Finally Real
                        You Were The One For All This Time
                                       That Really Helped Me Heal        And As You Come Show Me Who You Really Are
                       I Have To Say I Love You Even More
As Our Flame Grows As Bright As The Sun
We Burn Down To The Mantle Of The Earth
Sniging Away All Of Our Past Sins
It's Just You And I
And Our Heats Beat As One

                *And As We Resume Our Lives Apart
                    We Are Closer Than Ever Before
             And As You Gently Kiss Me Goodnight
                    I Realize I Met You For A Reason

Finally I Am At 100%
                      100% Myself
Finally I Can Have That Smile
            The One That Can Make Hearts Melt
Finally I Was Able To Rub How Amazing I Am
                     In Your Two Faces
In Life
          There Is Mysterys That Are Unsolved
Finally I Can See Past
                            All The Lies
Finally
                       Now I Can See The Truth
Finally
                      Now I Am At Full Strength
Finally
                             *I Am 100% Myself

Dawn Is Still Dusk As
  I Walk From Security
Into A Dark World

         Evil Lurks In
            My Presence And It Is Ruthless  
                   A Cold Wind Nips Skin
  
                                            The Scent Of Blood Hangs
                                        In The Atmospheless Air    
                                  Trees Gaze Past The Twinge
  
                      Cry If You Need To
                         Stars Will Take Away The Tears
                              The Moon Will Kiss You

Remember The Chills?
   The Sun Starts Slowly Rising
            To See Our Faces

                             Nails On A Chalkboard
                     Claws On The Frosty Pavements
                               Grass Dying Below

                                               One Last Kiss From Me
                                   One Last Goodbye From Hate
                                                    The Veil Is Lifted

                      You Can Regret All
                               The Misery And Pain
                                         But What About Love

                  The Cold Onyx Pavement                                                               Will Someday Lead Us To Clouds
                 And We Will Forget

                                 A Deal With Demons
                            Withdrawn From Eternity
                                 Drawn From Forever

                                                        ­Tonight It's Just Me
                           But In My Dreams It's Me And You
                                              And Tonight We Dance

                       *On A Dance Floor Of Pavement

Why Should I Believe,
In A Better
                                                          ­            Tomorrow
When All I See Is
                                                              ­           Misery
                           *Why Should I Love,

When All I Feel
                                                            ­                  Is
                                       Hate,
Where Am I
                                                                ­          Going
Where Am I Going
                                                                ­            To
Be In This Paraless Universe
        
                       Let Me Just Leave From This,

Just Trust Me And It'll
  
                                                                ­            Be
Okay

Allow Me To Be
                                                              ­     Vanquished
From This
                            Dream Killing World,

Let Me Spread My Wings,
                                                          ­                If

I Decide
                                                          ­     I Can Fly From
I Shall Feel No More

                                                           ­           Pain

                                       If I Can

                                                          ­   I Will Finally Be
And It Will *All Be
                                                              ­       Okay

Poison Running Through My Veins,
Broken Glass On The Window Pain,
Dreams Dead,
And I Am Blamed,
What Did I Do,
To Be Stuck In The Rain,
Romance Growing,
And Trust Fading,
The Ref Blows The Whistle,
It's Time For Some Hating,
Let Me Tell You,
By Procrastinating,
You Can Be Negitave,
And I Can Be Ashamed,
But We Both Know If I Leave,
You'll Never Be The Same

Do You Want Me To Leave,
Are You Pushing Me Away,
We Are Both Of The Leash,
And Starting To Stray,
Don't Try Hurting Me,
I'm Already Broken,
Don't Ask My Opinion,
I Have Already Spoken,
And You Can Go Out,
And Cheat And Smoke And,
I May Never Know,
But I'll Keep Provoking,
If It's True,
I Want To Know,
Do You Want Me To Leave,
Because If You Do,
I Can Go

I Dont Know What To Do,
Deciding The Fate Of Me And You,
I Don't Want Love To Turn To Hate,
I Don't Want Misery To Be Put On Our Plates,
But Honestly I'm Confused,
About This Love Of Me And You

This Sky Above Our Heads,
Has Seen Death,
Pain,
Blood,
Scars,
Misery,
Destruction,
Frowning Faces,
Tears,
And War,
And Has Lost So Many Friends,
Over Millions Of Years

This Sky Has Seen Hunter's Orange,
And Death's Charcoal,
Has Seen Crimson Red Rain,
And Blue Faces,
This Sky,
Has Seen Misery's Rainbow

This Sky Has Seen Happiness,
Love,
Hate,
Heard Laughter,
And Screams,
Has Housed The People Who Gave Up,
And Housed The People Who Dreamed

This Sky,
Is Tough,
And Cold,
Yet Warm,
And Soft,
Wraped In A Blanket Of Clouds,
Watching Our Microscopic Problems,
Under The Rays Of The Sun And Moon

This Sky Has Been Beaten And Battered,
Until Black And Blue,
Has Seen The Stars,
And Watched Oceans Turned To Deserts

This Sky Has Been Gazed Upon,
Wished Upon,
Studied,
And Cut Through,
Has Been Yelled At,
And Has Heard The Murmers Of Praying People,
Yet,
This Sky,
Has Never Said A Word...

Golden Silverware,
Sits Ontop Of Broken Shards Of Fine China,
A Candle Stick Lays On The Floor,
The Wood Stained With Misery,
Because She Passed,
War Broke Out,
Hearts Being Punctured With Stakes,
The String Of Sanity Starting To Break,
A Rose Picked From The Universe's Garden,
Then Set In A Vase With No Water,
A Watch Ticked Like A Metronome,
Conducting Life's Organized Chaos,
Every Heart Break Orchestrated,
And Every Death A Crescendo,
The Subjects Attacked Without Looking Back,
Taking The Shapeshifter's Life,
Because They Needed To Have An Excuse,
Other Than Being Misuderstood,
To Distroy Her,
More And More Innocent Lives Were Taken,
Just Out Of Fear,
In Daft Decision,
Most Of The Village Was Whiped Out,
And One Of The 13 Left Out Of 350,
Was The Queen's Killer

The Darkness,
Cups The World,
In Frigid Palms,
Clouds Cover A Starless Sky,
The Season's First Snowfall,
Lands In Dark Crimson Hair,
The Season's Last Birds,
Fly Away,
From The Freezing North,
Leaving Feathers At Fidgeting Feet,
The Season's Last Leaves,
Fall From Their Perches,
Down To Their Frosty Graves

Laughter,
Rib Punching,
Bone Popping,
Innocent Laughter,
The Purest Form Of Happiness,
Jarred Inside My Soul,
Packed For A The Trip I'll Make Someday,
As I Go Up A Yonder,
I Will Release This Music,
Like A Million Balloons,
Sound Made From The Cello Of Love


Smiling,
Eye Squinting,
Cheek Bursting,
Perfect Smiles,
The Purest Form Of Any Type Of Love,
Slow Motion,
The Strings On The Violin Of Life,
Strum A Steady Heartbeat

Thinking,
Head Grasping,
Stinging Thoughts,
Swarm My Mind,
Our Future,
Our Path On This Ever Stretching Road,
The Bass,
The Harmony Of Our Actions,
The Layout Of Our Life

Words,
Peacemaking,
Heartbreaking,
My Drug,
My Addiction,
I Love Hearing Your Voice Responding To Mine,
I Can Pick Your Voice From A Crowd,
If You Are Afraid To Be Loud,
Whisper,
I Can Still Hear The Viola,
The Viola Of Life's Orchestra,
Each Word,
Each Note,
Deciding The Fate Of Our Song

You Are My Companion,
My Family,
You Are The Music Of My Life,
And I Never Want To Hear,
The Silence,
Ever Again

A White Wolf Stands Strong,
A Black Buck Stands So Valiant,
Tension Swarms The Air

A Rose Slowly Blooms,
Then It Slowly Starts To Die,
A Soul Is Then Born

Two Golden Orbs Scan,
Our Forever Changing World,
The Pupils Contract

Wings Spread Greatfully,
Giving Way To Sweet Protection,
Then Resurrection

A Black Wolf Stands Calm,
A White Tailed Deer Panicing,
Green Eyes Batt Quiet

Patient Is The Sun,
The Stars Have Their Own Heartbeat,
Very Few Hear It

Je Suis Le Lóbo,
Ne Vois-Tu Pas Mes Cicatrices?
J'ai La Mentalitè

The Moon A Spotlight,
Hugging Me In Its Rays,
Sometimes I Prefer The Darkness,
More Than The Sunlight,
The Tree Branches Sway,
Giving Life To An Abyss,
A Passage For Dreams,
Dreaming About What Life Really Means

Do I Really Belong Here On Earth?
If All I Do Is Put Up A Fake Wall,
Do I Really Have A Light?
Which People Say Glow Inside Of Me,
Do I Really Have Enough Strength Left?
To Make It Another 80+ Years,
I Feel So Fake,
I Feel Like Plastic,
A Tree Trying To Reach The Stars,
But Being Held Back By The Ground

And As Dawn Slowly Approaches,
Dreams Recide With The Dying Moon,
And I Reflect,
As I Stand In The Freezing Breeze,
And As Colors Peak Over The Trees,
I Finally Know,
What Life Means

In The Universe's Palm Lays A Rose,
With An Inviting Door Closed,
Black On White,
Dark To Light,
Words Slipped Through The Fence,
Penetrating Resistance,
Like A Grape Vine,
Forces Lost And New Ones Combined,
An Eagle Holds My Hand Through The Pain,
Warms Me With Wings In The Freezing Rain,
Kisses The Crown Of My Cranium,
Tells Me It'll Be Okay,
His Words Verbatim,
Then Flies Away,
Forges A Path Leading Me Past The Flames,
A Silly Game Played,
Millions Of Mirrors Showing My Reflection,
Oh The Curse Of Visual Preception,
Green Eyes A Watery Mess,
The Labored Heaving Of My Chest,
My Soul Speeding Past Life's Stop Sign,
My Heart Broken But Rebind,
Maybe The Meaning Of Life Would Be Clearer,
If My Vision Was Not Blurred With Endless Tears,
Red Nails Aren't Even Painted,
My Meals Poisioned And Tainted,
Smiling To Myself,
Everyone Jarred And Set On The Top Shelf,
My Gardian Eagle,
Sits By Me So Regal,
My Celestial Hero,
Blocking Every Arrow,
Which Try's To Knock Those Shelves Down,
Who Try's To Make Me Frown,
He Will Never Let Me,
Lose My Crown

Flames Of Time Start To Burn,
Through The Days,
Through The Hours,
Throughout The Minutes,
Until It Boils Down To That Very Second,
That Second Where You Have To,
Fight For Your Well Being,
Tell The Truth,
The Whole Truth,
And Nothing But The Truth,
Let Me Take My Yesterday,
And Just Walk Away,
There Are A Million Endings Of This Story,
I Hope It Ends The Way I Wish It To End,
And Fate Goes With My Favor,
Fate Has Sided With You For To Long,
Its My Turn,
If You Say Life's Not Fair,
That's Bull,
Karma Will Get You Back,
I Just Hope,
My Torturers Will Have To Pay They're Debt,
Real Soon

Humans Are More Barbaric Than Any Animal,
Ever Could Be,
We Lie,
We Cheat,
We Harass,
We Play Little Mind Games,
We ****,
Practically Every Form Of Intelligent Life,
Including Our Own,
Nothing Is Ever Good Enough,
Nothing Is Ever Clean Enough,
Nobody Is Ever Talented Enough,
Nobody Is Acknowledged,
For Their Gifts,
Only Brought Down By Others Saying We Aren't,
Good Enough,
I Envy Animals Because,
Animals Are Straight To Eachother,
If They Dont Like One Another,
They Fight,
They Bite Eachother's Throats Out,
They Tell The Other To Leave,
And Never Come Back,
And They Listen,
But In Human Society,
You Have To Be Nice,
And People Put On That Fake Smile,
Tell You How Beautiful You Are,
Turn Around,
And Talk About What A Mess You Are,
You Have To Share With Them,
Invite Them Into Your Homes,
Pretend You Think They're The Most Amazing,
Person In The World,
Sometimes You Have To Be Nicer To The People,
You Despise,
Then The People You Love,
I'm Not Saying I Wish To ****** Anyone,
I'm Just Venting,
Because I Am Sick And Tired,
Of People Lying To Me,
Just Shut Your Mouth Already,
If You Don't Like Me Tell Me!
I Couldnt Care Less,
About Your Opinion,
Human Society,
Is A Mess,
Human Society,
Has Many Jewels,
But They Are Dusted Over,
From The Dirt Of The Morons,
Human Society,
Has No Natural Selection,
To Pluck Out The Idiots,
If You Ask Me,
I'm Tired Of These People Dimming My Sparkle,
And I'm Sure,
Many Of You,
Feel The Same Exact Way

Rusty Gates Close Slowly,
Licking Water's Clear Surface,
A Salt Water Lake,
One Made From Tears,
Another Sleepless Night,
Or One Filled With Nightmares,
Falling Stars Kiss The Atmosphere's Surface,
And Then Rebound Back Into The Dark,
Make A Wish,
Every One Counts,
A Fist Clenched,
Knuckles White,
Lips Soft As Rose Petals,
Pout Permentally,
And Eyes Green As Seaweed,
Are Read As An Open Book,
Medicine Is Out Of Reach When
It Is Most Needed,
And One Little Trip Up,
Will Make Her Go Insane,
And As The Rusty Gates Close Completely,
She Knows They Will Never Open Again

Every Move I Made Was Bionic,
I Was Lost In My Thoughts,
It Was Like I Was Hypmotized,
Sitting Back And Eating Popcorn,
As Someone Else,
Was Working My Controls,
Me The Great And Powerful Oz,
Sits Behind A Green Curtain,
Mortal As The Rest,
Disconnected From The Electricity,
Leaving The Bombastic Sydney Behind,
I Haven't Felt More Useless In My Life,
I Felt Like I Got Punched In The Gut,
****** And Battered I Retreated,
And Let Autopilot Take Over,
Every Word Said Was White Noise,
And Every Word Whispered Was Grasped,
And Clenched,
And Torn,
And Sobbed Over,
*Me The One Working All The Magic,
Sat In Shock And,
Watched As Autopilot Got Shot Down

These Red And Black Walls,
Have Seen My Tears To Many Times,
This Out Of Tune Piano,
Has Felt My Shaking Fingers,
Grasping Onto Its Keys For Comfort,
For So Many Months,
My Eyes Are Strained,
Bloodshot And Stinging,
For The Millionth Time,
This Ceiling Has Looked Down Upon,
My Sleepless Slumber,
For Hours,
This Air Has Inhabited My Heaving Lungs,
For To Many Meangless Lives,
A Lesson Learned,
But Not Rewarded,
Returning To The Material Plain,
This Night Sky,
Has Wrapped Me In The Darkness,
For So Many Breathless Seconds,
Why Does This Paint Brush Sit In My Palm,
When The Canvas Is Already Onyx,
Lament,
Lugubrious,
Loved,
Lost,
Why Do Thesw Feelings Spin,
In A Continous Loop,
Why Does History,
Repeat,
Over And Over And Over,
Why Does The Pain Repeat,
Over And Over And Over,
Why Must There Be This Orchestrated,
Cycle Of Falling Down,
Getting Back On Your Feet,
Then Falling Down Again,
Why Must These Faces,
See My Paled Face,
The One Sick,
Of The Circulation Of Secrets,
The One Sick Of The Lies,
The One Who Is So Broken,
Because Everything Good That Comes,
Is Ripped Out Of My Hands

There Are So Many Things I Can Say To You,
To Try To Make It Right,
But Nothing Really Can,
I'm Sorry I Hurt You,
But I Can't Erase The Past,
I'm Sorry You Didn't Hear It From Me,
But This Wound Was Made,
Long Before I Was In Love With You,
It Was A Mistake,
It Really Was,
I Believed A Lie,
And The Outcome Still Haunts Me Today...

I'm Sorry That You Are Mad At Me,
I'll Try To Give You Some Space,
I'm Sorry That I Cant Take Away,
The Heartbreak Which I Gave To You,
If I Could I Would,
Because I Have Never Loved Anyone More,
I Am So So Sorry I Let You Down...

I'm Sorry Because I Saw Those Tears In Your Eyes,
I Knew You Didn't Want To Believe,
I Know,
I'm So Sorry I Let Your Hope Down,
I'm So Sorry,
I Crushed Your Loyal Heart....

I Have Never Been Unfaithful To You,
Please Believe That,
I Never Intended To Hurt You,
I Didnt Try To Keep It A Secret,
Because I Was A Liar,
I Kept It From You Because I Didn't Want,
To Talk About It,
I Didn't Want To Feel That Pain Again,
To See The Hurt I Have Inflected On You,
I Wanted To Move On,
Because He Was My Yesterday,
And You Are My Today,
And I Really Hope,
With All My Heart,
You Will Choose To Be My Tomorrow....

Call Me Wh#re,
Call Me A Sl#t,
Call Me A B#tch,
And A Tw#t But,
I've Said I'm Sorry,
You Don't Know The Whole Story,
I'm Tired Of You,
And I'm Done With Me,
I'm Tired Of Being Caged Inside,
This Skinned Ceiled Body,
I'm Tired Of The World,
Trying To Torture Me,
I'm Locked In A Cell,
And I Wish You Well,
On Your Way To Hell,
Listen For The Bell,
Don't You Dare Tell,
The World How I Fell.....

People Say They Respect,
The Stength That I Own,
People Say They Respect Me,
Because It's So Easy For Me To Put Up A Smile,
Respect Is Something You Earn,
Not Something That You Automatically Get,
I've Busted My **** To Be Respected,
But I Am Slowly Crumbling,
From The Alliance's Change In Wind,
I Hate Pretending I'm Perfect,
I'm Human,
You Gotta Respect That,
Do You Respect The Pain?
Do You Respect My Name?
Who Ever Respects Me,
I Respect Them Back,
You Can't Be Respected,
If You Don't Respect,
Let Be Your Teacher,
I'll Teach You The Ways,
The Ways Of Getting Through The Rough Days,
I'll Teach You,
If You Don't Have A Clue,
How To Respect

Snow Knee Deep,
Footprints Indent The Sheer Surface,
Hoarforst Coats The Trees,
Don't Run Away From,
My Poor Human Body,
The Fraile Mess That Runs After You,
Is Not The One I Wish To Be,
Don't Run Away From Me,
I'm Still One Of You

Consciousness Regained,
Wiping Watery Eyes With Blood Stained Palms,
Dreading These Long,
17 Hour Days,
Unplugged From The Material Plain,
All I Hear,
Is Their Voices Slamming,
Against Innocent Lockers,
All I Smell Is Poisoned Berry Perfume,
All I Say,
Is One Scream,
All I Can Feel,
Is My Book Slamming On The Ground,
All I See,
Is Blurry Brick Walls,
White As The Snow I Lost My Family Upon

All I Can Feel Are Peoples Arms Around Me,
Asking If I'm Okay,
No,
Incase You Are Wondering,
All I Can Tell Myself Is,
Stop Running Away

Don't Runaway From Me Again,
I Feel All Alone,
Don't Runaway From Me Lobo,
You Are The Only True Thing I Know

Leave Me Alone,
I Don't Want To Play,
My Eyes Are Hard As Stone,
Because There So Many Things I Want To Say....

Dear S1
You Can Say It's All My Fault,
Which It Mostly Is,
But I'm Not The Only One To Blame,
Why Do You Look At My Crying Face,
And Look Away,
Looking For The One Who Made My Tears,
Fall Across My Face,
To Take Them Home,
To Drive Away,
But Drop Her Off Again,
To See Me The Next Day,
I Know,
You Love Both More Than Anything In The World,
But Let Me Tell You,
She Is No Perfect Girl,
You Digest Her Lies So Fast,
It's Like You Haven't Eaten For Days,
Just All Of You Leave Me Alone,
And I'll Be On My Way...

Dear S2
You Are Foul,
Wicked,
Twisted,
Stop Popping Into My Brain,
Stop Lingering In My Thoughts,
You've Already Caused Me Enough Pain,
I Hate You,
Because You Hate Me,
I Know Hate Is Indecent,
But I'm Slowly Embracing It,
Because You,
Are The Definition Of Evil....
Stop Prancing In My Dreams,
Stop Tresspassing In My Soul,
I Am Still Really Broken,
I Hope You Know,
But All I'm Asking You,
Is To Leave Me Alone

Dear S3
I Love Your Initals,
That Should Be Your Name,
Because That's All You Ever Say,
Your Real Name Is Poison,
Which Sits Upon My Tounge,
Honestly You Make Me Feel Degraded...
You Make Me Feel Unwanted,
The Way You Can Manipulate People,
Is A Real Gift,
Congradulations,
Well You Still Have The Upper Hand,
I Really Hope Someday,
You Can Just Leave Me Alone

*Am I Really The Only Thing You Have To Talk About? Am I Really Worth All Your Time? Maybe I'm Over Reacting, But I'm Sick Of You And This Is Why... I Might Not Be Perfect, But Niether Are You, So Stop Acting Like It, Your Words Are Making Me Blue, At First I Didn't Really Care, But Now I Do, And This Is What I Want To Say, Leave Me Alone And ***** You

I Won't Let You Wreck My Future,
You Destroyed My Past,
I Wont Let You Torture Me,
I'm Done With You At Last,
I Was Ready To Get My Bags And Pack,
To Runaway And Never Come Back,
But Now I'm Switching Into My Mode Of Attack,
You Better Be Taken Aback,
You Brat,
I'm Finally Done,
Don't You Get It?
You Are Just Stuck Aren't You,
Stuck With My Mistakes,
Look In Front Of Your Face!
I'm Done,
Don't Try To Apologize,
I Will Never Forgive You

My Breath Suspended In The Air,,
The Chilled Autumn Breeze Kisses My Cheeks,
Brushing Up Against My Body Like A House Cat,
These Are The Moments I Love,
Solitude In The Strawberry Sunrise,
One Little Star Telling Me Good Morning,
Where A Leaf Falling To The Ground,
Is A Loud As Gun Shot,
In Dawn's Silence,
I Prowl The Pavement,
Like A Purple Irirsed,
Black Panther,
Cloaked In A Cape Of Secrecy,
I Am An Enigma,
Which No One Can Understand,
But As The Goosebumps Rise Along My Spine,
From The Cold Biting At My Flesh,
I Know Someday,
Every Moment Will Be Mine,
I Don't Want Sunlight,
I Want Moonshine,
I Love My Solitude,
Underneath The Starlight

The Hardest Thing About Being An Adolescent,
Is Living In This Uncertain Present,
Kids Start Smoking **** In 5th Grade,
And Every Word Is Turned Into A Grenade,
Waiting To Blow,
Waiting To Show,
How Horrible Person You Are,
For Every Little Mistake,
So As I Wish Upon Every Falling Star,
Let Me Retake,
The Test Of Life,
Let Me Strife,
Through The Night,
The Moon Glowing Bright,
So I Can See My Way Down This Desolate,
Path Of Being An Adolescent

I Really Hate School,
I Feel Like Such A Fool,
I'm Not What You Consider Cool,
Apparently The People Who,
Are People Who Are Too Clueless To Spell Drool,
Are The Ones Who Rule,
There's No Chlorine In This Social Pool,
No Sifters To Take Out The Toddler Pooh,
That's Right Your Toddler Stool,
You're Just Fuel,
To My Fire Which Is Burning So Cruel,
Come Walk In & I'll Make You Shine Like A Jewel

I Have Issues,
I'll Admit,
I Have Issues,
Im Trying Not To Get Split,
In Two,
I Love You,
And You,
And You Too,
But That Doesnt Mean I Don't Have Trust Issues

I Am Green Eyed Monster,
No Not Jealousy,
I'm Running On A Wheel Like A Hamster,
I Have Empathy,
But Im A Little Bit Of A Disaster,
I Don't Trust Anyone I Meet,
No Matter What Our Chemistry,
I'm Sorry But I Can't Compete,
Because I Wander Around Hopelessly,
Around The World,
Feeling I Don't Belong,
But I'm Only One Of 3 Billion Girls,
So Maybe I Do Belong

I Was Trusting Before,
I Got Slammed In The Face By An Opened Door,
I Thought I Was Able To Stand By Keeping Busy,
But Honestly I'm Still Dizzy,
I Was Welcomed In,
But My Acceptance Was A Sin,
My Thoughs Fly Like The Speed Of Sound,
I'm No Longer On The Ground,
Oh Poetry,
Let Me Feel Your Therapy,
I'm Sorry For My Issues,
If Your Upset Grab A Tissue,
But Inside I'm Just Afraid I'll Lose You

I've Realized,
I've Slowly Grown To Have A Permanent Scoul,
Which Sits Upon My Face,
Ive Realized,
Every Play Is A Foul,
My Happiness Coming Unlaced,
I'm Tired Of Pep Talks,
I'm Tired Of Encouragement,
Im Tired Of Getting Pelted With Emotional Rocks,
Energy Thinned From No Supply Of Nourishment,
I'm Sorry To Everyone,
Because I Have Grown To Be Bitter,
I'm Angered Because I Feel I Have No Freedom,
I'm Sorry I Am So Bitter

Let Me Be,
I'm Fine With Lying Through My Teeth,
I Don't Care If I'm A Snot,
I'm Tired Of People Pretending They Are Not,
Im Sorry To People Who Accidently Step On Me,
I Yell At You Because I Am Internally Angry,
I'm Sorry For Snapping,
Because I Fantasize About Being In The Woods,
Napping,
I Need To Let It Out,
I Need To Cry,
But You Shout,
If I Even Try,
I'm Sorry To My Friends,
I'm Ready To Burst,
I Promise This Will End,
But I Need To Blow My Fuse First

Let Me Talk To You,
It Will Only Take Me 10 Minutes,
I Need To Scream At You,
I Haven't Forgotten Yet,
I Need To Get Away,
I'm Tired Of These Kinds Of Days,
Pouring Out My Pain On A Blank Page,
I'm Sorry I Am So In Rage,
Its Only Because Every Thorn Wants To Poke,
Where There Is Already A Scrape,
Whenever I Start To Sing I Choke,
I Want To Feel Great,
Just Like The Old Times...

I'm Sorry I'm So Bitter,
I'll Try To Runaway From What I Have Become,
I'm Sorry I'm So Bitter,
I Feel Like Some Kind Of ****,
I'm Sorry Im So Bitter,
I'm Sorry I've Been So Dumb

I Bounced Back,
From Being Attacked,
I've Gotten Letters In My Mailbox,
Evolopes Onyx Black,
I've Cried Myself To Sleep,
I've Lost Sanity,
But I Bounced Back

I Bounced Back,
From Being Hated,
From Being Degraded,
So Close To Being Disintegrated,
It Was ******,
Premeditated,
But I Bouced Back

I Bounced Back,
From Falling On My Face,
From Being Called A Disgrace,
From Being An Outcast Of The Human Race,
Inside My Veins Swims Emence Strength,
Because I Bounced Back

I Bounced Back,
From Blood Which Dripped,
Secrets Which Slipped,
My Heartbeat Tripped,
My Throat Was Being Gripped,
I Jumped Into The Ocean Just For A Dip,
That's When The Sharks Came And I Got Bit,
But Yet, I Bounced Back

I'm Sure If People Knew,
They'd See How Much We Grew,
And As If On Cue,
They'd Have Respect For Me And You,
And If They Had A Clue,
They'd Realize Our Strength 2 Preserver Through,
It's Hard To Paint A Master Peice,
With Our Colorless Hue,
Our Hearts Are Held Together With Super Glue,
Thoughts Askew,
But Me And You,
We're The Strongest Ones They'll Try To Cut Into,
*Because We Bounced Back

Take Me In Your Arms,
I Want To Be Safe,
A Place Of No Harm,
I Need Your Embrace,
Take Me By The Hand,
And Look Into My Eyes,
You're My Man,
I Know You Don't Tell Lies,
I'm Tired Of All These People,
Who Try To Get In Our Way,
I'm Tired Of All The People,
Who Ruin Our Days,
I Want My Dreams To Come True,
Sitting On Hill And Watching The Sunset,
It Would Be Just Me And You,
Neither Of Us Would Ever Be Upset,
Put Your Hand On Mine,
Seal The Last Seconds Of Light With A Kiss,
Our Hearts Would Be Intwined,
Exchange My Worries For Bliss,
And As The World Around Us Gets Dark,
Let Us Enjoy The Natural Light,
Let Our Love Embark,
I Promise I'll Love You,
For The Rest Of My Life

Dont Try To Overthrow Me,
This Is My Territory,

Don't Try To Touch Me,
You Fraile,
Cold Hearted,
Tantrum Throwing Annoyance,
Don't Speak,
About The People Who Are Better Than You,
Dont Speak Lies,
Which Only Some Believe

Dont Try To Crush Me,
You Foul,
Demonic Child,
Don't Glare At Me,
I Have The Strongest Stare,
Don't Say You Want To **** Me,
You Would Never Succseed If You Try,
You Are Simply To Weak

Dont Try To Take Over Because,
You Are The Opposite Of The Human Spirit,
You Are The Flip Side Of Incredible,
Trying To Break Through The Wall,
I've Been Forced To Rebuild,
Over,
And Over,
I'm At Full Strength,
And Yet You Try To Break Me Down,
You Make Me Laugh

You're The Omega,
You Misquito,
Constantly Buzzing Around My Ear,
Telling Me What A ***** I Am,
And You Are An Angel?
You Are Demon
You Reddheaded Brat

Shut Your Mouth,
You Disease,
No One Wants You,
No One Wants To Taste The Hate You Hide,
No One Wants To See The Side I've Seen,
At One Time,
You Were Funny,
Bubbly,
Let Me Pop Those Bubbles,
Just Like You Popped Mine

I Am Indecent?
Because I'm Ugly?,
Only In You Crap Brown Eyes,
Tell It To My Face,
Not My Friends,
I'll Break Your Nose,
How Will You Feel Then?

You Are Nothing To Me,
A Waist Of Space,
I'm Tired Of Getting Pushed Around By You,
I Am Your Alpha,
I Have The Power To Hurt You,
Injure You Permanently,
But I Wont,
Just So You Know,
I'm Strong,
Physically,
Intellectually,
And You Are,
The Frost Who Wishes To **** My Rose,
But  Good Luck
The Climate,
Is Getting Warmer