I Wish I Could Erase Memories,
So You Wouldn't Know Who I Am,
I Wish I Could Erase Memories,
So This Hell Wouldnt Have Began,
I Wish I Could Erase Memories,
So Tears Will Never Come,
I Wish I Could Erase Memories,
So You And I Are Never Be Bummed,
I Wish I Could Erase The Past,
So I Could Stop All The Rumors,
I Wish I Could Erase The Past,
So A Mistake Didnt Come Out Of Humor,
I Wish I Could Erase You,
Because Then I'd Never Have Been Sad,
I Wish I Could Erase You,
So I Did Never Hurt My Dad,
I Wish I Could Erase You,
And Many Others Who Have Made Me Mad,
I Wish I Could Erase Them All,
Every Heartless Person Who Made Me Crumble,
I Wish I Could Erase Them All,
Every Person Who Made Me Struggle,
I Wish I Could Erase All The Nightmares,
The Nightmares That Were Real,
I Wish I Could Erase The Nightmares,
The Thoughts So Surreal,
I Wish I Could Erase The Scars,
The Scars On Skin,
I Wish I Could Erase The Scars,
The Ones Gained From Way Back When,
I Wish I Could Erase Every Tear,
Every Coat Of Eyeliner That's Been Smeared,
I Wish I Could Erase Every Stammered Word,
Every Scar From Evil Mans Sword,
Every Breath Ive Taken To Block Back Anger,
And Erase Every Anchor,
That Holds Me To Earth

Dawn Returns To A Land Of Darkness,
Shadows Long,
Lights Blinking Quietly,
The Clicking Of Feet On Concrete,
Are Covered By The Roar Of A Giant,
Green Leaves With Flecks Of Yellow,
Surround A Sun Bleached Road,
Last Night's Rain,
Left Marks On Chilled Pavement,
Sunlight Hits Strait On,
Allowing You To See Your Reflection,
Then It Slowly Slips Off Your Face,
Leaving You In Darkness,
A Melody Buzzes In Your Ear,
But You Are To Disoriented,
To Listen To The Words,
A Field Glistens With Waterdroplets,
Dancing In The Suns Returnimg Light,
As A Yellow Monster,
Prowls Along The Road,
Clouds Whispy And Smooth,
Covered By A Bright Blue Sky,
Look Over You Below,
You Pass The Road Of Memories,
The Road Of Old New Beginnings,
And You Keep Going,
With Out Even Turning Your Head,
And As The Sun Slips Behind The,
Dark Whispy Clouds,
You Are Left In The Darkness,
Once Again

Sinking Silently,
Crossing The Tracks,
A Complexion,
Blending Like Complimentary Colors,
Caged Like An Animal,
Attacked Like A Victim,
Batting My Wings Like A Moth,
But Grounded Like A Penguin,
Spreading Out Beautifully As Peacock,
But Ugly As An Armadillo,
Breaking Inside,
But Already Broken,
Like Shards Of Glass,
Forced To Be Writing In Class,
No Home That Is Safe,
No Feeling Of Peace Walking Down The Hallways Of Hell,
Surrounded By Meaningless Faces,
Wishing To Be Free,
As A Caged Bird Does,
Singing Until My Lungs Burst,
Feeling I Will Never Lift This Curse

A Reflection In The Mirror,
Can Bring You So Much Nearer,
To Insanity,
Watching As Red Pools Collect On The Vanity,
Music Sad And Slow,
Listening To It To Regain Your Glow,
Just One More Emotional Blow,
Can End You Up In A Place You Don't Wanna Be,
In A Place You Can't See,
Other Lives Are Falling Apart Next To Your Own,
You Feel Like You've Grown,
But Have You Really?
Do You Really Believe That?
You Are Roaming The Streets Like An Ally Cat,
And With The Removal Of Another's Hat,
And With A Sudden Splat,
You Know You Messed Up In The Past,
And Now The Way That You Came,
Is Now Open For You To Go

There Is Only One Race,
The Race Of Reality
There Is Only One Race,
The Race Of Humanity,
Someone's Color Does Not Bother Me,
It Is There Heart That Matters,
They Could Have Skin White As Can Be,
But A Heart That Is Black And Battered

Race Does Not Exsist,
It Was Made By Humans To Create Control,
I Could Be Racist,
But The Only I Color I Judge Is That Of Ones Soul,
I Don't Mind A Headdress,
It's Simply Just Clothes,
Im Tired Of Peoples Heartlessness,
Over What Someome Else Chose,
If Someone Speaks Another Language,
That Is Fine With Me,
English Is Average,
With Words I Don't Know All I Hear Is Beauty

You Should See The Beams Of Hatred,
Towards Anyone Of A Differnet Color,
Good Friendships Wasted,
Or Maybe Even A Lover,
I Don't See Myself As White,
I Don't See Myself A Caucasian,
I Don't See My Self As Light,
I Dont See Myself As American,
All I See Is Who I Am Inside,
I Wish Other People Could See It Too,
I Wish People Could Confinde,
In The Person Inside Of You,
Behind All The Clothes,
Behind All The Skin,
Or Whatever Comes And Goes,
Just The Person With In,
I'm Not A Hippie I'm Just Saying,
People Should Ignore The Faces,
And See What's So Amazing,
Ignore The Races,
And Stop All This Creating

Black And White Tiles,
Lay Out A Room's Floor,
It Seems To Stretch For Miles,
A Single Red Rose Lay By The Door,
A Key Is Stuck In A Broken Lock,
Different Colored Brush Strokes Are Plastered,
On Every Wall Surrounding 13,000 Clocks,
It Was A Disaster,
But It Was Organized Choas,
One Wall Was Missing,
Then All At Once More Lights Than Las Vegas,
Ripped Through The Emptiness Kissing,
Each Glass Face Of The Clocks,
Making A Starry Reflection,
Wind Was Rushing In As Loud As The Screeching Of Hawk,
It Was A Fantasy As If It Were From An Enjection,
Galaxies Swirl Around The Room,
Making Dark Crimson Hair Fly,
The Light From A Soul Blooms,
I Now Know I'm Far Away From Any Sky,
Purple Rain Falls From The Ceiling-Less Dwelling,
There Is No Oxygen But None Is Needed,
A Heart Starts Swelling,
But No Words Were Pleaded,
It Was A Reason To Smile,
But A Reason To Cry Yourself To Sleep At Night,
But It Was Worthwhile,
For What I Saw After All That Light...

At One Point In My Life,
I Could Look Down Pitch Black Hallway,
And See It As Clearly As I Had With The Light On,
I Use To Be Able To See People,
And Animals,
That Have Been Gone For Years,
I Used To Be Able To Be One With The Forest,
Now I Am Just A Trespasser,
I Was Broken Off From Society,
But I Hated It,
I Was Colorblind,
Because The Otherside Looked Greener,
Now I've Changed,
I Am Right In The Center Of Concrete And Chaos,
And Deep Down Inside,
I Wish I Was That Person I Used To Be,
The One Who Sat Off In The Distance,
Unreconized,
The One Who Could Sit Up In A Tree For Hours,
And No One Would Even Notice I Was Gone,
I Wish I Could Write Like I Used To,
I Wish I Was Someone Who Didn't Have A Phone,
Going Off Every Second Of The Day,
I Wish I Could Just Sit In The Peace In Quiet,
Listening To The Music Of Birds Chirping,
The Person Before All The Hatred And Anger Entered Her Territory,
I Wish I Could Hear The Things I Can't Anymore,
See The Things That Are Now Invisible..
I Wish I Was The Person I Used To Be

You Used To Tell Those Little Stories,
To Help Me Smile When I Cried,
Once You Told Me The Story Of Aries,
Because He Was My Zodiac Sign,
You Called Me On My Birthdays,
Telling Me How Much I've Grown,
But Still You Said I'd Always Be,
As Precious As An Emerald Stone,
One Time You Gave Me A Jewelry Box,
I Put It On A Shelf,
Next To A Broken Wrist Clock,
I Put A Necklace In It But Really Nothing Else,
And When I Found Out The News,
I Sat In My Bathroom And Listened To The Box's Music,
It Was My Own Record Of The Blues,
I Tried To Listen To For Your Voice Pretending I Was Physic,
But That Did Not Work,
And I Felt My Heart Drop,
I Felt Like I ****,
Because I Hadn't Cried Nonstop,
I Can Still See All Those Pictures Of Me,
Hanging On Your Fridge,
I Wonder Where All Those Pictrues Went,
Now That You Are Gone

When I'm With You,
You Stitch A Smile Onto My Face,
And When You Do,
Everything Falls Into Place,
When I'm With You,
The World Spins 8x Faster,
You Are My Saving Grace,
You Make Me Feel Beautiful,
As A Apple Red Aster
But It Always Makes Me Greave,
When You Have To Go,
But Someday Maybe You'll Never Have To Leave,
We'll Be Way Older Though,
People Say We Won't Last,
But If We Don't,
I'll Never Let Go Of This Prestent Which,
Will Be Our Past

Whenever I See You,
I Always Ask What's Wrong,
You Say I Don't Have A Clue,
I Know You're Strong,
But I'm Afraid I'll Lose You,
Of That One Dark Temptation,
I've Stopped You Before,
But How Long Will It Be,
Before You Do It Once More?

You Asked Me,
If I Runaway Would You Come With
I Know How Badly You Wish To Be Free,
But I Said Yes Pretending It Was A Myth,
I Wish I Could Save You,
From The Depths Of Dispare,
If I Did,
What Else Would Be Lurking There?
You Told Me Half The Story,
But What Does That Do?
You Told Me,
If I Told You, You Might Want To Help
The Only One Who Can Help,
Is Yourself

When I First Met Her,
It Wasn't Even Classified As Meeting,
She Was Rude,
Crude,
Was Making Statements That I Could Never Say,
Then The Next Time We Met
It Was At A Crowded Table,
I A Somewhat Shy Girl (Not Really),
Was Invited To Sit Down,
I Was Afraid To Sit With All Those,
Those,
Rough,
Tough People Who Barley Accepted Anyone,
But I Sat And Made Friends,
We Really Didnt Talk All That Much,
And I Moved Away To A Different Table,
But In A Few Months,
I Returned,
And We Became Close,
We Exchanged Numbers,
Had A Few Conversations,
But Then She Told Me,
I Was One Of Her Inspirations,
We Became Close As,
Conjoined Twins,
And Now I Know,
We Will Stick Together Through Thick And Thin

The Humid Air Looms
Underneath A Black Canvas
Littered With White Lights

I Am Ready To Smile Again,
I Am Ready To Revisit All Of The Good Memories In That Place I've Been,
I Am Ready To See Friends I Would Take A Bullet For,
I Am Ready To Feel Good All The Way Down To My Core

But,

I'm Not Ready To Go Back,
I'm Not Ready To Be Attacked,
I'm Not Ready To The Faces,
That Try To Ambush Me In Many Different Places,
I'm Not Ready To Walk Down The Hallways Of Hell,
At The Sound Of A Two Toned Bell

But,

Now I Realized,
I Am Stronger Than Any Of The People They Idolize,
I Have Stuck Through Thick And Thin,
But Still They Critize,
Like They've Never Sinned?
Girls Who Cry On The Stairwell,
Call Me A Suicidal Freak,
And Boys Who Can't Spell,
Say My Words Are Weak

But,

Do I Believe Them?
No
Do I Greave Over The Words They Say?
No
Do I Even Really Care?
No
Do I Respect Them?
No
So Why Should They Even Try To Bring Me Down

A Ghostly Moon Climbed,
Over A Thick Tree Line,
The Ground Was Covered With Mud,
Adreniline Swam Inside Churning Blood,
A Lip Was Being Bitten,
To Block Back A Scream,
A Story Was Being Written,
Even Though It Was A Dream

Green Eyes Turned To Gold,
Ontop Of Wood,
That Was Rotting,
It Was So Old,
Talons Ripped Through The Moss,
Her Heart Was Being Tossed,
Around In Her Chest,
She Wasn't Human Then,
But She Was At Her Best

A Sly Silhouette,
Crossed Her Path,
She Was Playing Russian Roulette,
But She Faced The Wrath,
She Layed On Her Back,
To Ask For Trust,
Piercing Her Neck,
Teeth Felt Like Tacks,
It Was Hard To Stay Calm
But It Was A Must

The Shadow Realeased Thy Grip,
But It Didnt Let Her Leave Without Blood Drip,
A Cut On Her Sholder,
Left A Scar,
One She Gained Underneath The Stars

She Woke With A Fright,
In The Early Morning Light,
Blankets At The End Of Her Bed,
A Red Hot Pounding In Her Head,
She Looked Down,
And What Did She See?
The Wound On Her Shoulder,
She Had Recived

I Stare At A Keyboard,
26 Letters,
Able To Create A Million Words,
There Are So Many Words I Wish To Say,
But I Don't Know How To Say Them

Conflicted Feelings,
Swirl Through The Crevases Of My Mind,
Like A Warm And Cold Wind,
Meeting On A Gloomy April Day

A Storm,
A Rain,
A Waterdroplet,
That Will Allow A Beautiful Flower To Grow,
Growls In The Sky,
Of An Atmosphereless World

A Flower Will Never,
Live Forever,
But More Will Sprout,
In The Spring,
So In This Very Moment,
I Shall Nurture My Garden,
To Keep My Lilies Floushing,
So I Will Trick Myself Into Thinking,
They Are Immortal

A Wave Of Depression,
I Gave The Impression,
That I Did Not Cry

It Was An Obsession,
That Turned To Agression,
You Said That Your "I Love You",
Was A Lie

You Said I Needed Attention,
But You Were An Infection,
That Was Breaking The Last Ties

So I Looked In My Life's Direction,
I Knew I Only Had One Detention,
I Told Myself I Was To Young To Die

So As I Look At My Reflection,
I Stare At My Complection,
And Say Why, Oh Why, Oh Why

As The Second Hand Clicks,
On A Scarred Clock's Face,
The Days Become Shorter,
Breaths Become Abrupt And Shallow

Brittle Leaves,
Crumble Under Quiet Feet,
And **** Branches,
Give Intruders A Silent Kiss
Words Not Even Spoken,
Are Hushed By The Wind

The Cold Air,
Soothes The Stars,
Making Them Looked Refreshed,
Allowing Them To Glitter,
In Glassy Green Eyes

The Atmosphere,
Begins To Thin Out,
Comets Dive,
Though The Surface,
Like Dolphins,
But They Hold An Impossible Promise,
A Wish,
A Secret
A Star Dangles From Her Neck,
A Wish,
A Promise

What Does Autumn Hold?
What Does Winter?
Spring?
Summer?
Will I Be Able To Curl Up In Loving Arms?
Or Will I Be Curling Up In The Snow?
As The Seasons Change, Shall I?
As Summer Dwindles Into Autumn,
Shall I Change With The Seasons?
Shall I Become Brittled, And Weak,
Like The Autumn Leaves,
Or The Decreasing Sunlight?
Or Shall I Bloom Like The Stars,
In Winter's Night Sky

One Day I Hope You Feel The Same Pain,
You Brough Upon Me,
One Day I Hope You Can Forgive Yourself,
For Hurting Me,
One Day I Hope,
You Can See You Have No Effect On Me,
I Forgive You,
Because I Feel Bad For You,
I Feel Bad For You,
Because It's Been Months,
I Feel Bad For You,
Because You Still Talk About My Errors,
One Day,
I Hope,
I Sincerly Do,
You Can Find Happiness,
Without Downing Someone Has Made One Less Mistake,
Then You

I Haven't Felt This Way In A Long Time,
I Closed Up All Of My Bad Memories,
In "Boxes",
Tapped Them Shut,
And Kept Them In The Back Of My "Memory Closet"

It's Amazing,
How Old Ghosts,
Can Come Back To Haunt You

It's Amazing How One Word,
One Name,
Can Open Those Boxes,
And Put The Contents,
In Front Of You Again

No Matter How Hard I've Tried,
Tried To Look Away,
They Are There,
And I Can't Throw Them Away

I Feel Weak,
Those Memories,
Took My Strength Away

My Life Feels Like A Rose,
Beautiful Ontop,
Blooming,
Bright Red,
Happy,
Bright,
Nothing To Get In My Way

But The Bottom,
It's Full Of Thorns,
Ugly,
Hidden,
Waiting To Attack The Person Who Dares To Try To Pick Me,
It's Like A Wall

Few Know,
Or Ever Will Know,
Who I Am,
My Roots,
My Thoughts,
What I've Gained,
And What I've Lost

Now I Have To Find The Tape,
Carefully Tape Up Those Boxes,
Put Them Back,
And Hope They Will Never Be Opened Again

Sometimes I'm Afriad,
He'll Leave Me,
Sometimes I'm Afraid,
That He'll Begin To Hate Me,
Sometimes I'm Afraid,
History Will Reapeat Itself

I'm Not Really Afraid Of Anything,
But I Am Afraid Of Being Broken Again,
Sometimes I'm Afraid,
I Won't Be Able To Control Myself,
That It's Only A Matter Of Time,
Before I Make The Same Mistakes,
I've Learned,
I've Grown,
But That Doesn't Mean,
I'll Ever Stop Being Afraid,
Afraid That All Of This Is Fake,
Afraid That He Is Lying To Me,
Like The One's Before,
I Don't Believe He Is,
But You Never Know

I Feel My Judgement Is Good,
And He Is The Begining Of Something New

It's Good Now,
But Will It Be Later?

Lust,
A Broken Promise Of Trust,
Love,
Something You Need To Handle With Gloves,
Tears,
Something That Comes From Every Hateful Word You Hear,
Evil,
The Same Four Letters Of A Name You Gave Your Everything To,
Pain,
When He Treated Me So Inhumane,
Today,
I Really Though I Was Finally Okay,
Yesterday,
I Was Okay,
Tomorrow,
All I See Is Sorrow,
Lies,
Something That Broke All The Last Ties,
Why,
Something I Yelled At The Sky,
Life,
I Stare At A Knife,
Tonight,
Come To Me Light,
No,
I Have To Far To Go,
Smile,
It Will Be Worthwhile,
Okay,
It Will All Be Okay,
See,
Just Believe,
Learn,
From The Burn,
And,
The Pain Will Be Banned

8/29/12