It's clear to me that I can't depend on myself.
When I make my own plans they always fall through.
I get the wrong kind of Idea and the colors turn blue.
And it consumes me until nothing else is true.

I need to be patient and not to rush things.
For the devil is always seeking to destroy it.
But I'm on the right path and there's no turning back.
To fill my heart with love and grace and never to lack.

I'm now learning not to live with a heavy heart.
To nail it to the cross and make a new start.
It's only the beginning no need to fall apart.
To take a new step in the quest of my heart.

My feelings for you have never changed.
After all these years they remain the same.
When we met I was in the midst of my storm.
But I will be patient in this time of reform.

I have to be strong because my heart is at stake.
I will hold my hand out as long as it takes.
To have you back one day I will always stay true.
In this whole wide world there is only one you.

I will survive the loneliness in my heart.
If it were up to me I'd make a new start.
But there is purpose in all of this pain.
For some unknown reason I cannot explain.

But I feel a peace coming over the horizon.
And it will no longer leave me frightened.
As I keep pushing on and moving with grace.
And in the right time I will find my place.

Regrets, griefs, sorrows
Heartbreaks that persist heartaches
The bitterness of past failures
Dissatisfaction of performances
Uneasiness recalling memories
Faults without apologies
Concerns about misgivings
Self-condemnation of disappointments

All like flames from memories
Burn All today's happiness
Future will be without joys
No pleasure of cheerfulness
Nor enjoyments or delights
Even no content in paradises
Or satisfaction of blessedness
Until one frees all minds

From all past regrets.

Saturday, March 2, 2019

As the evening blues
Makes its presence known
With calling attention,
Undeniably you’re my therapy
And my favorite pain
I could always feel the magic
In your seductive smile ,
When the night takes flight
On dreams painted with love
With strokes of desire
Lust ,love regardless
As the heat rising
Adrenaline in my veins
I Forever and more crave
For your soft sweet torture
Like a kiss from a Rose
Your sweet and sour kind of love
My desperate kind of love
That has me torn in pieces
Soft sarcastic kiss
Soft spoken lies
Soft magical moments
Soft sweet fragrance of love
Soft lips Stem with thorns
Makes my poetry bleed
Flowers and rain
Laughter and pain
I may fall, I may fly
Still, Forevermore Long for the touch of your sweet lips
Breathing against my flesh as we dance the evening blues
Into the promise of the morning, joy….
Lust , love regardless
You’re independently mine as I am yours ……...