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May 2019 · 121
What else?
Alaska Young May 2019
They asked me why I’m sad.
And I tell them,
if you’re not happy,
what else could you be?
May 2019 · 106
Liar
Alaska Young May 2019
He tells me, he wouldn’t.
Yet he ******* did.
Alaska Young May 2019
I told myself I will forget you.
I didn't say I would do it.
Alaska Young May 2019
You can see different souls
in different perspectives
and sync with them
May 2019 · 95
happy enough
Alaska Young May 2019
i knew some who
stopped writing
perhaps
they were happy enough

i share in your joy
May 2019 · 109
...
Alaska Young May 2019
...
what's meant to be will always find a way
like a trapped water finding its way out
May 2019 · 519
A little less
Alaska Young May 2019
Everyone wanted to be happy.

Me, I just want to be a little less sad.
Alaska Young May 2019
People who are very cautious of
who can walk in and out
of their lives
experience pain in extreme way

You can't blame their hearts.
May 2019 · 281
Writing
Alaska Young May 2019
Perhaps that's the thing about writing
It demands sadness.
May 2019 · 142
Untitled
Alaska Young May 2019
my heart goes
to those
suffering
in depression and anxiety
sadness takes too much sometimes
May 2019 · 20.7k
Why
Alaska Young May 2019
Why
Why do you push people away?

"I want them to be happy."
Jan 2019 · 381
Untitled
Alaska Young Jan 2019
why do we become so much of what we're afraid to be?
Jan 2019 · 110
Home
Alaska Young Jan 2019
your smell is the closest
I've been to home
Jul 2018 · 149
Memories
Alaska Young Jul 2018
moments you shouldn't be visiting
quit tripping over them darling
i'm telling you, it's dangerous
it's like intentionally tripping again over the same rock
to willingly fall on the same spot you've been
it hurts
you already knew that
and it's ridiculous to be hurt by choice
it's crazy to made a mistake twice
so stop doing autopsies on memories
that died long ago
it's not worth it
Jul 2018 · 140
Untitled
Alaska Young Jul 2018
stop bringing me to cloud 9
stop flying me to the moon
stop keeping my hopes high
i'm acrophobic
Apr 2018 · 102
Untitled
Alaska Young Apr 2018
maybe that moment holds a little hope for us
roughly, maybe
Mar 2018 · 99
Teach Me
Alaska Young Mar 2018
Teach me how to mock a laugh
when you tell me you're in love
but not with me
Mar 2018 · 110
Untitled
Alaska Young Mar 2018
we dip ourselves on *****
played it cool
and tried so hard to pretend
that it's ok
Feb 2018 · 169
SHE
Alaska Young Feb 2018
SHE
She will be turning 22...

She is a girl of sad soul and broken poetries
She doesn't want to be found but always leave traces
She craves attention yet let it slip when it comes on her way
She is a collection of dismantled almost, of chaos and troubles, of nonsense paradoxes
She said she can yet she cried every single night
She sought solitude but tripped over loneliness
She looked for love and found it on wrong places
She tried so hard but life always tried harder than she

But she will be turning 22...

She will be a woman of contented soul and lifeful poetries
She will be everywhere leaving traces of love and happiness
She will be independent of other's opinion and mentality
She will be a collection of adventures, beers and wolves
She will believe in herself and no amount of doubt will surface
She will still seek solitude but never mistook it again as loneliness
She will no longer look for love; for now she knows that love will find her eventually
And she will try a little harder everyday than life could ever did

She turned 22.
02.19.18
9:21pm
Feb 2018 · 139
Word's Dearth
Alaska Young Feb 2018
We talk like we're always
running out of words.
I wish the alphabet could weave
more words,
and phrases
and sentences
that would be enough to tell you
how do I feel
I just hope
we're not missing
something really wonderful.
Jan 2018 · 149
Lesson #1
Alaska Young Jan 2018
grieve only for what you can't control
Jan 2018 · 116
The Infinite Moment
Alaska Young Jan 2018
That one second when you feel limitless and forget the world
When the lights are glaring at you
Waving every pain and truth
Echoing the tunnel song that lets you danced on the ledge
Tiptoeing every beat of your heart
-I wish I had one.
Jan 2018 · 144
A Reminder
Alaska Young Jan 2018
One day you may lose all the ways on
how to fix a broken trust
But always remember
that you are blessed with a beautiful heart
forgiveness will overflow
and mend all your broken parts.
Sep 2017 · 177
ANX
Alaska Young Sep 2017
ANX
I wanna scream so loud that no one will dare to listen on everything I had in my mind.
*******.
*******.
*******.
****.
Sep 2017 · 136
Strings Unattached
Alaska Young Sep 2017
We're not okay and that's okay.
We are all a little ****** up sometimes.
We'll figure it out later.
But for now, cut all the ties.
Unattached all the strings
because i'm a bit tired and broken
i'm not fiiiiiiiiine, *******
Sep 2017 · 252
The End Begins Here
Alaska Young Sep 2017
This is it.
The final end.
The finish line.
The destination.
Call it whatever you want.
But this is it.
This is where the ending begins.
This is when I decided to stop.
I don't wanna fool myself again.
This time this is real.
It'll be a slow fade.
No traces of pain.
No amount of rancor.
No turning back.
I will end it here.
Here, where I became happy.
Where I learn how to look forward on mornings.
Where you told me all those pretty lies.
And where I was fooled to believe
It was a great stay here.
magical to be honest
But pretty lies are for kids who believe on fairy tales
on prince and princess
on happily ever after
And I realized I'm all grown-up.
Old enough for bedtime stories and fairy tales.
I know ours wasn't an enchanted one
No fairy godmothers who will grant my wishes
No frogs that will turn into prince
No knight in shining armor who'll save me

We don't exist in reality.
And I lived happily never after.
Aug 2017 · 146
You're Beautiful
Alaska Young Aug 2017
words that water dead plants
Please stop.
Aug 2017 · 156
Fuckworthy
Alaska Young Aug 2017
What do I learn in life so far?
Go, give **** with this one.

"don't throw ***** like confetti
choose only the fuckworthy ones"
Jul 2017 · 159
We Decide to Die
Alaska Young Jul 2017
"What's keeping you sane?"
She asked.
And I looked to her with all honesty inside me
I replied.
"The same thing that keeps you crazy."
In three seconds, we die.
Jul 2017 · 214
Stars, Flowers and Rain
Alaska Young Jul 2017
We could have been.
We could be the most beautiful collision.
But we are stars from different galaxies.
We don't collide.
We are flowers.
Wild and beautiful.
We are virga rain.
But some flowers are not meant to bloom.
And some rain are not meant to fall.
Our infinities are limited.
And some love are unrequited.
#akire
Jun 2017 · 378
Her Horcrux
Alaska Young Jun 2017
I love your stories.
Happy. Sad. Confusing.
Secrets. Fairy tales. Tell-all.
Drunk or not.
Truth or lies.
I don't care.
I love hearing your stories.
I love looking into your eyes and sees the fire slowly burning.
With a flame that ignites the moment your mouth started to utter.
I love how you look for my gasps when your words fall.
I love hearing your stories.
It's like being your horcrux.
Like some part of your soul is hidden on me.
Dark maybe, but something treasured.

-E.T.E-
Feel free to tell me everything. I'm more than be willing to listen.
Jun 2017 · 187
I'm Afraid
Alaska Young Jun 2017
If I'm gonna pray for you, I'm afraid you would not be given.
If I'm gonna take the risk, I'm afraid I will lose.
If I'm gonna be honest, I'm afraid I'll messed up.
If I'm gonna take the slightest courage of telling you about how I love everything about you, I'm afraid you'd hate me.
So I'm taking the step back.
I'm giving up.

We will end here.
And our story will never be told.
Just one request:
STOP giving me ******* reasons to hold on.
May 2017 · 225
Dear You
Alaska Young May 2017
My thoughts were corrupted and all I can sense were the inkling of some vividly fresh memories I kept from the days I've known you. These fresh memories that reminds me that somehow for the first time in the longest time I could actually fall in love into someone. I can feel the butterflies flutter in my stomach. I can managed a flirty gasps when your message popped up. I can feel the reddening of my ear when your name resounds somewhere else. It's a good beginning for a fresh love. Isn't it?
But darling, I choose to end this beginning sooner than I thought. I didn't want to, I HAVE TO. This madness I think is too beautiful that it should end up sooner than it begins. Sooner before I drown myself on my own-self made pool. As they say, all good things must come to an end. It's just ours ended sooner than I expected. Better than I expected, I guessed. This is the end and I can't still figure it out if it ended too tragic or too beautiful. I hope it's the latter. Dear, I want you to know that it was never my intent to fall as much as getting hurt. I was lured by false hopes and forget that possibility don't exist in a world like ours. But don't worry I'm on my way to renounce all the love I have for you. Again, I didn't want to, I HAVE TO. It's for myself. For me to begin again. Half-hoping that I will never meet you again halfway. If I do I might trip off again and fall. So please honey, I'm letting you go now hoping that this is the best for both of us. And if we will meet again at some point, I'm begging you choose the other way. The way that will lead you somewhere else, not on me. I guess I have the right on that favor knowing that I do the sacrifice now. At least do me that favor. Thank you. I know you will. And if someday time permits me to tell all this, I will be brave enough to tell you that yes, I do fall in love with you in the shortest span of time.

Always,
Potato
May 2017 · 844
I Meet the Dead End
Alaska Young May 2017
I turn my back
Without glaring
Heartbroken
Half-crying
Knowing that I will never be called back.
It's painful.
But I know it's the right thing to do.
I meet the end.
The finish line of madness.
I hope I wouldn't meet you again halfway.
Thank you.
May 2017 · 228
How to fix a broken trust?
May 2017 · 235
Don't.
Alaska Young May 2017
You broke my heart
and asked me if I'm fine?
How dare you!
May 2017 · 234
Gravity
Alaska Young May 2017
They say gravity is the sole responsible for everything that falls
But I guess, gravity has nothing to do with
falling in love
Because when I fall for you
You don't pull me towards you
No force was exerted to draw me closer
I willingly fall
I let myself break
I let myself get hurt
Perhaps you're more than gravity.
Apr 2017 · 166
Not Your Everyday Queen
Alaska Young Apr 2017
I'm no princess
Not even a damsel in distress
I don't need saving.
Save yourself instead.
Be your own knight.
Apr 2017 · 170
Rejection
Alaska Young Apr 2017
I've been a second choice for
twice, thrice, i don't know
I'm so used to it that I forgot how many times I became the last option.
Apr 2017 · 1.1k
Toughness
Alaska Young Apr 2017
"You're tough", she said.
And I thought.
Am I tough because I really am
Or I'm tough because I've got no choice but to be one?
I hope I'm the former.
Apr 2017 · 261
How To Fall Out of Love?
Alaska Young Apr 2017
Instead of going with the flow,
why not stop the flow?
Instead of letting it grow,
why not let go?
Instead of drowning in to your feelings,
why not swim out of it?
And most of all,
instead of dreaming,
why not wake up?
Face the reality
Stop the false hopes
Forget the half-wishes
And save your yourself.
That's how I fell out of love.
Apr 2017 · 243
Eyes Don't Lie
Alaska Young Apr 2017
I hate when people  look me in the eyes
I'm afraid
they might know the truth.
#truth
Apr 2017 · 269
Faking It
Alaska Young Apr 2017
They asked me who's the lucky guy.
And I faked a nearly broken laugh.
#FakenessIsReal
Apr 2017 · 524
Why Write?
Alaska Young Apr 2017
Because people ruin trust
and papers don't.
Apr 2017 · 228
Memories
Alaska Young Apr 2017
(noun)
-a place in the past where falling inlove is just as easy as obeying gravity and heartache was never a choice.
#memories
Apr 2017 · 189
The Trouble
Alaska Young Apr 2017
Loving someone incapable of loving you back
is better
than loving someone who can love
but won't ever love you.
Better not love at all.
I'm falling.
Apr 2017 · 236
Dear Abe,
Alaska Young Apr 2017
You left me hanging on a cliff where in any second
I will fall and break
together with my false hopes and half-wishes I made for both of us.
P.S.
Truth already slapped me, hard actually.
Please comfort me with a lie.

Always,
A
Apr 2017 · 249
Awakening
Alaska Young Apr 2017
We gave up
knowing that no amount of courage
will win the fight  we're fighting
We gave up
not because we're  coward
but because we are brave enough to let go of what we're fighting for the longest time
And then we realize
we don't have to fight for somebody
who don't even know the war we're facing.
#bravery
Alaska Young Apr 2017
I'm a willing prey
You can devour anytime
I'm weak and old in love
I got dazzled by glittering promise of it
I'm nowhere
You can easily find
But I'm afraid
Behind my weakness and willingness to give out love were somethings I couldn't keep.
I'm chaotic
A storm a teacup can't contain
A willing prey that prosaic predator won't catch
I'm difficult.
Odd.
Peculiar.
And only peculiar of my same will understood me
People like you won't like the way I think
Perhaps you wouldn't want to know what I'm thinking
I'm telling you if you're going to love me, then prepare yourself to a nightmare
For I'm a collection of it
Of dismantled almost
Of misunderstood histories
Of odds and ends
And on all of those is where my demons hide.
Alaska Young Mar 2017
Read between it.
No answer lies.
Not even a hint could survive.
Madness.
Hit the dead end.
Comfort yourself.
Pain is part of the game.
And you can never win.
Acceptance.
Not even acceptable.
Insanity.
I could wait.
Forever if you want.
Even I hate waiting.
Even if you don't come.
I'll still wait.
For the nth time.
Madness and insanity.
Both at once.
Because when it comes to you,
everything happens at once.
Like being danger and being saved.
Like my favorite almost and my biggest what if.
Like living and dying.
Like loving and hating.
And between those paradoxes,
is a thin line
A thin line that sets the limit.
A stop.
A big NO in my world of yeses.
A boundary in what I thought is a never ending madness.
A wake up call.
And the thin line tries so hard to limit my madness.
But it cannot contain my insanity.
It overflows.
Like diffusion.
So passive that it didn't require any aid to flow.
Like it destined to spill and divulge everything I hid.
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