The fire is dying and i no
Longer know the face in mirror.
Drained and exhausted batteries its
Day three and i feel nothing.

You might have stood by my side but
You never wanted the best for me.
I should have seen the signs.
The more i wrote and shared my work
You grew more jealous.
You took my words and twisted them for your own benefit.
Whenever i pointed out the wrong you did you would turn it back to me.
Trying to use guilt to make me do what you wanted.
You would turn the tears on when
i wouldn't back down.
The i am going to **** my self calls
Started so i changed my number.
Save all the tears.
I am happy this controlling friendship
Is dead.

I've been trying for hours to write
But i am not feeling it.
My mind is full of words images and colours but nothing fits together.
I can't turn words into a poem even
My heart is empty.
My inner ink has become dry and
I have no feelings to search.
Nothing in my poetry journal jumps
Out at me.
Maybe my pen and my emotions need
A rest today because i can't write.

Whenever someone takes an
Interest in my work.
I watch as the anger rolls across
Your face.
Then the bullying starts my poems
Are stupid no one likes them.
You can always write better than me
Asking me if i am listening.
i can see the jealously turning you
Very green.
You told me if i don't stop writing
You make my life hell.
You bully me day and night but i will
Never stop writing.

To some i am nothing more than
A cold heart demon.
To others i am an angel with a heart
Thats as deep as the ocean.

I'll never forget the day.
When we left our phones and thoughts behind.
Lost in the woods we knew so well
Tents up a fire ready to be lit.
Rabbits hoping brids singing the gentle breeze dancing with the trees.
Night falls the stars are out hot chocolate made marshmallows roasted.
Singing songs round the camp fire falling asleep under the stars.
A summers night i will never forget.

He looked me in the eyes and said
My only fault, was i created a lie
That you believed.
In that moment something died
In the deepest part of my heart.