My mind is so full of scrumbled
Thoughts and mixed emotions,
That I can't explain.
I am not happy or sad I am
Not up or down.
I just feel so mixed up today

Everytime I find the light
You turn it out and,
The pain all starts again.

I am trying hard to fight
The darkness inside.
Because I can't keep feeling like this
Anymore it's killing me.

I remember the first times and all
The beautiful times,
Every emotion felt every tear cried.
The smile on my lips the butterflies
In my stomach.
Its not the first moment that hurts
Its the last moment that hurt.

Does goodbye mean letting go?
Does letting go mean forever?.
Because either way a heart breaks.

I saw the face of my bully sitting
In the street cup in hand,
Arms full of needles marks begging
For spare change.
Karma gets everyone in the end.

I haven't done much healing
Looking in the mirror,
I don't know the person who is
Looking back at me.