Many times i’ve paced around
Yeah I’ve had my finger on the trigger
Sat in my room and cried
Shattering on the inside
The times I’ve asked what is there now
There’s no more lows
I’m at the bottom
Where do I go from here
They all say we need you
It’ll all be fine
But how can that be
I can’t get out of bed
I’m stuck in my head
I’m in pain can’t you see
The times I’ve told you
I’m okay don’t worry about me
Was all a lie to save you from me
I lied like a coward hides
I’ve sat with a smile on my face
while thinking about the pills back at my place
I’m not happy
I’ve died on the inside
My body is empty
Can’t you see how my eyes look when you tell me it’ll be alright
My eyes well with tears
I want to believe you
The voice in my head saying no can do
Go home and take the whole box
It’ll let you sleep alot
I’ve been to my shrink
But I can’t seem to tell how my mind constantly thinks
I’m ashamed of myself
I can’t look in the mirror
The face that constantly betrays
Yeah you coward
The one with the bright eyes
Come out and tell the truth
Tell the world what its inside
The pain and anguish
The hatred and sadness
Or else you’ll die being a lie
Atleast before that triggers clicks
Tell the audience what made you tick
Put down the weapon okay
Just for today
Tomorrow is coming
Yeah we’re cowards
cowards with a bit of pain
but the pills still wait
the gun doesn’t click
and we get up again
to see another day

My body was an empty canvas
waiting for the touch of a gentle hand
To slowly fill up the spaces
To soothe my body’s desire for the crimson colors
That seeped from your paintbrush

As your hand touched my skin
And I gave into the gentle caress of your brush
You slowly filled my canvas with your lies
I became tainted with the ugliness that your words held

As I believed I was your masterpiece
But became a ruined canvas
From the lies that you told
From the holes you tore in my body and soul
My canvas was tainted
With your spilled ink

The moment our eyes met
I knew you were it
With the way you silenced
My deafening mind with just
A look at your face
The way your smile lit up the empty space
And your eyes had shown me the sky
When our hands first intertwined
I felt the
That I had never felt before
When you first said
I love you
Your eyes watered with tears
My heart warmed at the sight
I could not describe
The love I felt for you
That night
When we laid in our bed
Your hair would fall
And I would brush it away
As I memorized your beauty
And I knew that I never wanted to forget
Such a breathtaking face
The moment our eyes met
My mind was a disturbing mess
You were wearing a yellow dress
And I knew you were
My quiet in a loud world