Most things take time
Trust
Love
But not affection
You can build trust and with trust follows love
Affection is wild and crazy not following anything
Just burning hot and never taking the time to ask why

So many beautiful stars in the sky tonight
But none of them mean a **** thing
Cause you aren't here with me

Pushed to a breaking point
Everyone has one
I just never thought I would find mine
My breaking point
Held promises that would mislead me
Hurt far more than anything expected
Pain
Time
Pain
Longer waits
Hesitation
Broken promises that got me nowhere but behind
Battles wage until it ends
The end is close yet far
Unreachable but able to be tasted

Your legs gave out on you
Just as I thought my tear ducts had
Given up on me
But at the sight of you dragging your
Skeletal carcass across the floor
Once again Tears sprung to my eyes
Dampening the cloth of my shirt
As you tumble trying to get to your feet
I try to help
To reason with you
This is not the end
Why won't you listen?

You feel so wrong for me
But I can't stop my heart from making my decisions for me

My innocence is nowhere to be found
Lost in a sea of raging emotions
Tears, hate, confusion
Bitter I have become
Testing with my tongue to see if situations are safe
Where I used to barge in and not give a ****

Our family is stretched over four individuals
So far apart
The stretch is unbearable if you look too Long
We try to fix this; talk, laugh, stay together
We forget for awhile why it's so hard to communicate
Then we each remember
Go off into our corner of this big empty house
You could hear a pen drop
In this deafening silence that we all ignore
So we don't feel bad  about it.
What can we do to stop the stretch from breaking
When she left we were done
And now we have next to nothing

The dust covered lane in which you lie
Is untouched, pure, majestic
The blue of your eyes
So like the blue of the open sky
Are covered
Unknowing of all you could be seeing
The pale skin of your smooth body
Breathtakingly similar to the pale of the snow
If I had not know better I would say
You are dead
You are Unchanged by seasons
Not withered by time
Perfect in the sense of the word
Yet catastrophe rages
Underlying pain behind  
Still eyelids
Stiff joints
Porcelain
Thoughts we will never know
Scream within their boundaries
Pushing you over the edge
Casting you far away
With no need to return
Wrapped up in all you now know
Uncaring for the rest
You are in pain but
Finally
At peace

He wasn't used to this type of person
She was ****** and unamused
Always catching him at his lowest to bring him high again
Throughout it all he knew
He would fall in love but he couldn't keep her

Your stomach is 10 ft underground and you feel like throwing up
You notice your palms are clammy and a drop of sweat slowly slips down your arm
You’ve already bitten at 8 of your 10 nails that you were immensely proud of growing out
And three of your fingertips have dried blood following the curvature of your fingers
You start tapping your feet, tapping your hands in an effort to remain calm
Waiting for the answer you slowly unravel and lose the twine

Death is all around me
So much that
It's soaking into my skin
Permeating my rash existence
Crushing what hope I had
Replacing it with
A helpless feeling
That takes over
Leaving me empty

Open up my head and pour out the contents
Rearrange me
Fix me
Drag out the madness  
With a clear shot
I hope you take it
I'm tired of the madness

You shock me
With your caring demeanor
That no one has any more
You clear everything
In my eyes when I look at you
The fog goes away and I rememeber
Everything I need too when I'm with you
You take everything
That doesn't make sense
So you can figure it out and share
To make sure I know it too
Your crazy vocabulary
Is what I live for
You and I
We need each other
More than anyone realizes

The Jolteon

After the love  
I held with different hands
Kissed with unknown lips
I tasted the difference on my tongue
Disgustingly sweet torture I endured for you

I already gave up on you
I can't betrey myself enough to look at your face
You didn't want me
But I gave you my all
In hopes of acceptance not rejection
You made everything real and alive
Now the world seems bland and dead
Just like the love I've finally
Washed off my skin

I just want the burn I feel
When your fingers scratch my back
And your body hovering over mine
While your eyes search me
With a wink
I scream

It's perfectly okay
To
feel out of place
To
Want to change yourself
To
Feel alone
And be misjudged
To
Get your heart broken
And break someone else's
To
Have bad luck sometimes
But please don't
Act upon these feelings
In terrible way
Don't hurt yourself
Don't throw yourself away
And make mistakes you could've avoided
Always know someone cares
Even if you're sure that no one does