Words meant to express  , I repress
better to say less or nothing at all.

You say you love me  and then you hate me ,
your confusing me darling .
You want me to stay and yell at me to leave ,
your confusing me darling.
and then you wonder why ?

Of course I am  leaving !
why stick around ? To  be put down?
I stood up as you stood back
I showed no reaction  , no confrontation
and walked away

It killed my dog
And it killed me
      

It killed it
Still killing it
And forever will ****

I thought of you today , your on mind all the time
Why ?
When you treated me mean , yelled and screamed
Pushed me away to where I am at today
no on else to blame
But Me.

Where are you?
And are you okay?
I haven't seen you
I haven't heard your voice
I don't even know you anymore.
It's not okay
I think about you everyday.
I've had many daddy's after you
The worst one was
YOU!
P.s I love you

Once again I put my self thru heart break and pain
Not complaining
I'm just saying
Aye,  is love meant for me ?
If it was love would I know?  Love has  been the same, a wicked game
Till then ....

No one called
WHO is no  one anyway?
I've  done the same by
not picking up the phone to dial
people that live miles away
just to say hello and miss you , miss me?
I'm sure they know!
Besides I dislike the phone  ,
privacy invaded
placed on hold,  disconnected  
bad reception  
Telepathically  pick up
I am calling .

A raging bull
Red fiery eyes
Smoked out
Charging at me
It Went for my throat
Silencing my screams.
Punctured my skin
Blood shed, blood clot

I want to go
I stay
Straying further away
We dont speak for days
I dont want it to be this way
Forgive me
Forget me not