still a kid
with one more year to go
to be considered almost an adult
by all the pretentious human beings
who acts as if they know what's better
for me who is
still a kid

it's 3am right now
and I can't stop thinking
of all the things I should be doing
or should've done so that I won't be suffering

introduce yourself
as I do not know who you are
we've never talked
or seen each other
which makes it confusing
because you think you know how I'm feeling

have you noticed this one huge hole in your life
that gap in your being that makes you want to fill it

it's him
it's her

that one person you wished to have  looked at you
more than just a friend

it's him
it's her

that one person you always want to please
the one you want to acknowledge you

it's him
it's her

the person you don't ever want to see sad,
melancholic or full of anxiety

it's him
it's her

giving it all never works out
turning around for a second
and someone can just easily
sweep her off her feet

coming out of my shell
and all of the perseverance
I tried being there but
it's wasted because I'm irrelevant

trying to be happy
it never works out
because reality wants you to suffer
and makes you wish you're not alive

I give up on reality
society and it's hypocrisy
using your life as a thread
to control you as their puppet

17 years alive
and I can't bear living
in this world
any longer

17 years alive
and I can't even wait a few months
to be 18
and **** myself then

17 years alive
and I can't handle the pressure
******* nonsense spoken
makes me want to chop off my head

17 years alive
and I did nothing to be proud of
wasted 17 year
full of suffering
and the thought of being dead

if only these pills would do the trick
end my life in just a blink
deep into the darkness i want to sink
for now I am no longer considered sick