Today., I realized something about myself, it seems that-- I am always giving into the life's of the people around me. I go out of my way to help others and to truly be there for friends and family.I seem to always be pouring into someone  else..... emotionally, financially, spiritually, physically, mentally, it's like I'm a natural care-giver and I love it.... that's kinda who I am but today it hit me. The one person that, I never seem to go out of my way for or pour into--- is the only person who has really been there for me... no matter-what without judgment, wholeheartedly, through all of my madness, good as well bad times; through the joys and every pain.... has been and is myself.I somehow forgot to take care of me---I guess that, I've gotten so use to putting others before myself, helping  others get to their place of healing.... that I didn't think about myself and my needing to be healed. I've poured out so much ...now I feel as though my storage is empty; and now in what seems to be my dawn.... I will learn to pour into me---for once I will put me first.... for once I will be down -- with me, for-better-or-for-worse.... I will put me first..... Starting Today.

No.... please take these empty boxes and leave me alone....I'm cool-with-it! You've never been real with me...and now I'm over you so please leave---and take your empty boxes of : love that you have for me, your I got your back and I'll never leave, I want you more than words can express, I'm giving my all and nothing less, you-know, that I love you and I'll never cheat: I promise I'll make it up to you, I'll never do it again, I told you--- we are only friends. I didn't mean to...that was the last one--- now I'm over you.... so gather all of these empty boxes and leave. Just Leave

I've been through hell and back. I've been abused, misused, neglected, rejected, torn,and served by those who said, that they loved me.... and had my back. I've been talked about, put down and kicked out, dehumanized, and despised by those I loved the most. I've been lied on and lied to, I've been hurt so bad--- I didn't know what to do; but through it all I survived. I forgave all those who hurt me...not because they deserved it but because, I needed to be free; and forgiving them saved and freed me. I survived..... through it all.... Still I Rise.

The song we all sing.... forget and sing again,  Body... Flesh-N-Bone... Natural our own.... We sing--- Love me... .make me your own. It's natural , Flesh-N-Bone.... Please... Love Me--- I promise I'll be strong... Truth-Is, We be natural.... Flesh-N-Bone... From-- Creator--- Til, we be back home.... We all sing... lets be natural-- Flesh-N-Bone.

You melt me like wax.... I'm prey for you.... I'm caught in your web of passion and I don't want to be free. All that you want.... I'm willing to be.... All that you need--- you'll fine in me. I'll be prey for you.... come devour me! I'll be prey for you anytime you need. I'll Be Prey!

She: I love you--- Heaven knows that I do.... but--- I'm not in love with you! He: I was right.... I was hearing--- everything that wasn't being said! Thanks, for finally coming clean. She: We can always be friends.... I truly care about you. He: Thanks, but know-thanks: I could never be--- just your friend. War of The Heart.

To him that is pure all things are pure. Beyond the chaos, brokenness, dark shadows, pain, loneliness, lies, disappointments, and shame. In the midst of the uncared for garden...... there's innocence of some kind. Close the door to judgement .....and open the eyes of your mind.