i am mine before i am yours
but i cannot hold myself up the way you hold me
my knees buckle and i fall without your arms to support my fragile being
but you will not always be there to hold me up
so i must, learn how to stop my buckling knees collapsing underneath me

I fall asleep and my mind wanders back to you

it wanders to places I've never been and things I ave never done, but every dream involves you

It's as if something inside is foreshadowing an adjacent future, but my mind tends to turn lies into truths, my mind thrives on false hope and fantasy.

My mind tries to make everything alright in the depths of the night, but as soon as my eyes are wide, all of the sadness creeps back inside.

and then it all repeats, the white lies start to play in  my mind, as soon as i close my eyes.

every word is like a petal
every sentence a flower
so i must say
you arrange the most beautiful bouquets

s.s

i would hug you
but i’m afraid it will hurt more
to let go
and walk away
then it would
to never hold you in the first place

s.s

i will probably still think of you
with my brains across the wall

s.s

his mind is my favorite place to be

i can feel the weight of the world
cracking my bones
as it rest upon my shoulders
causing floorboards to moan
pressing down on my being
suffocating as so
as i struggle to stand
but the weight just won't go

s.s