The world is a mess
And your feelings have come to depressed
How can you see the side of no corners
When you're looking at the darkness of it?

Touch the rough bristles of the paint brush
Come seek where the leaves quiver in the breeze
Filling your mind with the music of your playlist
As your heart beats to the melody of its rhythm

Embrace your trembling body
And feel the warmth of your soul
Take a deep breath of relief
And lead your blues into the light of life

You, a survivor of broken vows and arrows
In a chaos of fear you're living in,
Is a beauty from the beast
And the light in the dark

Why does the idea of it seem so nice?
so calming,
so relieving.

I think about it everyday.
slicing the skin,
letting everything spill out
with the dark red fluid.

To sit back and breathe,
finally,
at last.

Letting my thoughts slowly slip away,
until the moment i last have to worry,
the moment I can be peaceful,
the moment everything stops.

Turning towards the other wrist,
gripping the handle as tightly
as my wounded body allows.

Allowing the adrenaline to course through my veins,
forcing me to wince,
making me forget,
for an instant,
why this must be done.

I wonder, though,
would i regret it as soon as the
flesh splits open,
or just before my troubles are passed on,
or maybe, hopefully,
not at all.

May the butterflies of this world return to us once more
when the spring provides her heat we will no longer hide
Eastern winds of far away lands flying in unknown shores
their cellophane wings of light need to return and chide  
Once they adorned our many flowers here in Canada
now they are a memory of yesterday's summer gaze
I cling to the hope that tomorrow I won't need algebra
to count the flutter of their wings, like yonder days
I'll know them by the colors of their flight and groove
that April has arrived with her rainy cascade  
all the trees will suspire as they soften their moves  
garnished once again, with butterflies of every shade
I know that when the season wakes we are going to see
Monarchs, European skippers, and frosted elfin too
as the warmer shades and colors meld into the sea
we will begin to spot the pupas, and butterflies anew.