dear best friend:
do you ever think of
what might've been?

Can’t you see
You’re too wrapped up in your safety web to ever take a second to look around you
Vulnerability is your enemy
Which is it, judgement? Rejection?
You’re so defensive about your truths yet so defenseless from your Chaos
(crickets)..
Then word *****: spilling dark humor and unsettling remarks from your lips
What an ugly image you paint for such a beautiful being.
I’m not convinced
I see it in your eyes
I see it all
your love, your loss, your fears, your hurt, your regrets, Your PAIN.. and for once
I get it. I get you.

You say you won't cry
(and you know I know why),
But you will.
When memory reminds you
Of our life and thrills,
Our talks of love
In the park on the hill.
Our fear for our children,
Our love for each one,
Our love for each other
Before our love was gone.
You say you won't cry,
But you know you will.

tears in eyes
laughter behind closed doors
and realizing
you'll never laugh like that with me