She was an angel
But I turned her into the devil
With my lies
With my carelessness
With my anger
With my hate

I set fire to a flower
And was shocked
When the flower
Fell in my lap
And set me on fire

All the flower needed
Was attention
And love
And effort
And everything I wasn't ready
To give

the graveyard is in her mind

taking up space, next to broken memories

of better times and happiness

when she felt alive and hoped for the best

but now, her thoughts are buried

six feet below her nightmares

and ideas about what love is, and what it might do

if it finds her again

the heart
wants it wants
there is nothing you can do
but give it what it wants
or make it suffer

the heart
is so fragile
handle it with care
don't give it away blindly

the heart
is a vessel filled with love
that love can soon turn into hate
if you let it

the heart
will forever be your best friend
or your worst enemy
but then again, it's all about perspective

I think we are all *******
******* from the moment we are born
We are not prepared for life
We do not come into life with directions
We come into this world with a name
A naked body
And most of us
Enter this world with tears in our eyes
The irony

i am not ready for my grave
i haven't married
the girl of my dreams yet
she is studying
and she is thinking about me
while she should be thinking
about calculus or chemistry
and she is not ready for her grave
because she hasn't married
the boy of her dreams yet
he is here
writing a poem about how
he isn't ready to die yet
because he hasn't checked the last thing
off of his bucket list yet

this song reminds me
of the day i left her
all the same emotions pour out of me
when the beat comes alive
i hold back tears
though they are fighting to be free
the last time i left her
i almost cried
but i couldn't let he see me like that
no, no, no, no
i couldn't let her see me break down
i had to be strong for her
even though my heart stopped beating
and i forgot how to breathe

her mind is a black hole
void of positive thoughts
she overthinks every decision
replays memories over and over
until she breaks down
and gasps for air
like there's none left in her bedroom

this happens once a night, every night
this madness, this episode, this panic, this destruction
but when the sun comes up
she looks for the mask
kept under her pillow like quarters for the tooth fairy
she puts on the mask, after she puts on makeup

the mask comes complete with a smile
comes with the happiest ****** expression imaginable
but under the mask is a frown
that would make the saddest clown shed tears
but she doesn't want her family to know
doesn't want her friends to know
how broken she is deep down inside

so she puts on the mask every morning
so no one asks questions
so no one knows

we both said
that we loved each other
the only difference
between you and i
is that i meant it
and never would have left you
like you left me

she is just as crazy as i am
our relationship
is the perfect storm
the perfect balance
between calm and chaos
some days
we are waves that hit the shore
other days
we are shooting stars
but we don't give up on each other
we want to be together that badly

The same old story
Girl loved boy, boy loved girl
Boy did not appreciate girl
Boy found someone new
Girl was destroyed by the weight of her world
As it came crashing down on top of her
Boy left for good
Boy never looked back
Girl never recovered
The same old story

the world only stops
when she is the right one
it only dances
when she will steal your heart
the world only cries
when you are about to lose her
the world only smiles
when she is smiling
the world only laughs
when she embarrasses herself
the world only screams
when you two are fighting
but the world loves her
so so much
the world appreciates her
you should too
before the world cries forever

Communication is everything
In a relationship
Knowing when to talk
Knowing when to stay quiet
Even when you are not saying anything
You are still saying something
Communication is vital
Do not hide things from your lover
No matter how bad it is
Tell them what happened
Communicate the truth
Do not lie to your lover
No matter how much you may want to
The truth will always be greater than a lie
Tell them your thoughts
Tell them your feelings
Tell them your dreams
Tell them your fears
Tell them your corny jokes
Tell them your childhood stories
Tell them your addictions
Tell them your heart is in their possession
Do not forget to TELL them how much you love them
Do not forget to SHOW them how much you love them
You must communicate your love for them by showing AND telling
Communication is everything
If something is bothering you
Or if your lover does something that bothers you
And you do not say anything
How do you expect them to know something is wrong?
As amazing as they might be
They
Cannot
Read
Your
Mind
Communicate, communicate, communicate
And then communicate some more

When I was young
My parents introduced me to a man
They said
He would help me do wonderful things in life
They said
He would always be there for me
They said
I could always talk to him if no one else was around
They said
I could ask him questions and he would always have an answer
Or I could just tell him how my day went
As I got older
I realized he would never answer my questions
Even when no one else was there for me
He was never there either
Do you know the man I am talking about?

my soul has been screaming
since you left
and closed a chapter
in the book of my life
which i go back to  
and read from time to time

those pages seem endless
filled with anger, love, jealousy, poison
filled with sadness, naiveté, fights, memories

i read those pages again and again
they feel like home, and feel so close
though you are faraway
and i may never see you again

when the moon goes up
i revisit those pages
to see if they seem any different
than the night before
but they never do
and never will

love ate us both up
and spit us out
with no remorse
with no sympathy at all

I would rather do something I am afraid of doing
Than never do it and always wonder what could have happened
That is what we are here for, right?
That is what we are put on this earth for, right?
To do as much as we can while we can, right?
So throw away your fears
Light them on fire if you must
Or keep them on display in your bedroom
So you can laugh at them every single day
As you go out into the world
Fearlessly

on this day
i don't know what to do
it is a day i spend thinking
about my life thus far
the mistakes i have made
the people i have pushed away
the nightmares i still see at night
wondering if there is anything more to life
at this point
i am numb to the people around me
and numb to myself
i don't look in the mirror for too long anymore
i am content just knowing i don't know anything
content knowing i have a heart keeping me alive
and content knowing one day it will stop beating
until that day comes
i hope my numbness goes away sometime
before they put me in the ground
with the bugs and the berries

i have no bridges
left to burn
around here
i torched them all
ashes flew across campus
trust left town
friendships fell in fire
bridges built from wood
had no chance at all

i push her away
not on purpose
it just happens
sometimes i think she will leave
sometimes i think she should
she doesn't know me well
what i go through every day
how broken i am
how torn my organs are
but i love her
i love her like the moon loves the sky
like the sun love setting after a long day of work
i will always love her
even though i push her away sometimes

the stone in my stomach
is filled with words i never said
whether out of fear, or anger
or other emotions which grasp my sanity

they remained unspoken
whether for my sake or yours

now they sit in silence
comfortably next to my dinner
keeping me heavy
keeping me down

i should have said everything
that was on my mind
while it was still there
and fresh, alive, and well

it is the little wars that destroy our minds
the words we don't say that haunt us

I knew this day would find us

The day when it feels like we are at the end of our rope

And we would rather use the rope to strangle each other

Than work out our problems

When you stay quiet, I lose my mind

If I could read your mind, I wouldn't lose mine

But I can't, and you aren't speaking

So I begin to resemble the Incredible Hulk

And rage sets in while you have made the decision to ignore me

We have our ups and downs, good days and bad days

Our ups are cloud level, star level, sun level

Our downs are abyss level, hell level

Our good days are unforgettable, wish they would last forever

But our bad days are Hiroshima and Nagasaki

We should not teach women how not to get *****
We should teach men to not ****
We should teach men to respect all women
Women do not ask to get *****
It does not matter
How they are dressed
How they are acting
Or how they interact with you
We need to start teaching men not to **** women
We should not have to teach women how not to get *****

Petrified of losing you
Never seeing you again
Living a day on Earth without you by my side
You showed me what love is
Which made me a better lover
Nothing like my last relationship which still haunts me
We fight for each other
Not with eachother
And that is what I live for
Knowing you want me as bad as I want you
So please be my rock, be my spine
Hold me down but lift me up
While we chase our dreams
And hopefully catch them someday

spread your wings and fly, beautiful girl
i will shout directions from the balcony
no, no, no, i will be the wind
that guides you to your dreams
and pushes you when your wings falter
because i know you may get weak
and you may get weary
even though you are a fighter
just know this, beautiful girl
that you might not see me
but i will always be here
always pushing you forward
like wild winds

It took me
A long time to realize
Looks are not everything
They mean very little
Looks should attract us
But they should not
Be the only reason why we stick around
Their personality
Is everything
Their character
Is everything
Their morals
Are everything
How they act towards you
How they act towards others
How they act when they are alone
Whether or not they say
“please” and “thank you”
Whether or not they sacrifice for you
Compromise with you
Whether or not they would move a million mountains
Just for you
Those should be
The reasons why you stay
Not whether or not their face
Should be plastered on the cover of a magazine

I promise
To love you
With all of my heart
Until I collapse
Until the world goes dark
I promise
To love you
With all of my soul
Until my bones break down
And death is all I know

You never
Get over someone
You learn to live
Without them
And accept the fact
That they are never coming back

you can make me high
when i am oh so low
you can bring me back to life
when i am feeling dead
you can make me smile
when i am in the frowning mood
you can make the pain go away
when it demands to be felt