I am a beacon
For chaos and disorder.
Tempests and storms
Seem to gravitate towards me
And lost souls
Treading solemn paths
Always manage to find themselves
In my company
Ruin and carnage surround me,
Shattered parts of abandoned dreams
And the wreckage of sorrow
All head towards my light.
I do not want to be a beacon
I do not want to bring hurricanes
Into the lives of people I love
But this chaos, this waste,
Clings closer to me
Than my shadow.

How many times did I  not learn
From a lesson taught before

How many mistakes repeated
100 times or more

How many chances
Did I ignore  - to forgive ?
Then make amends

How many people
Have I  led to believe
To trust in me their friend ?

No value held in spoken words
Unless we act them out

Reassurance only found within
The heart that holds no doubt

A smile is just a gesture ?
A hug is just a squeeze.?

Manners don't mean nothing
Just words  - Thank you  and please ?

It's true these things are simple
But like a tender loving touch

Without them
Then we realise
They all meant.    ....... so very much........

Now is the time to rearrange
The thoughts of things
We cannot change

To just accept
Then leave behind
Those troubled times
That haunt the mind

Now is the time
To just embrace
Those future years
With a smile
On your face

To plan ahead
With goals in sight
Positive things
That bring delight

Now is the time
For you to shine
Enjoying

Each precious moment .....
Of time..........

I walk alone
I cannot see
There's no one here
Only me
My mind is filled
With thoughts of doubt
I'm trapped
I'm scared
There's no way out
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Then daylight dawns
Another day
I suddenly feel
The urge to pray
If there's a god
And it's true
Let's see what
He plans to do
~~~~~~~~~~~~
I only ask
He'll show a sign
Of this mighty one
So divine
I challenge him but here no sound
Silence echos all around
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Where are you lord
Do you care
I'm filled with loneliness
Despair
Please fill me now with your grace
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(He replies my child)

All you need is
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So many days and years gone by
So many times I wondered why
You went away
No words were said
Didn't know
If you were alive
Or dead
Other People
Played their part
In trying to remove you
From our hearts
They sewed the seeds
Of lies deciet
Hoping to severe
Our desire to meet
But they underestimated
The power of love
That guides my life
From god above
No fear of man
Nor mountain high
Can force us
To say
A last goodbye
Too much time spent
Too much love spread
For us to accept
Your long gone
Dead
We've found you now
We've met today
So much we found
We had to say
We held you close
We took the time
Lovingly placed
Your hand in mine
We've cared for you
From the start
A love that's difficult to part
Held you close
In heart and mind
Remembering this

(All who seek)
(Shall find) , !

She was always trying
To please
Smile, encourage,
Put them at ease
Daftness ensued
Goofy giggles ricocheted.

Her boundless enthusiasm
Though backfired.
It flailed around
And met walls
People got tired of her trying
Like an over eager licking pup
They found her presence trying.

"What do i say to you when my Someday arrives?
Should i speak of my tears, and all the nights i cried?
The world went on, as though you were never gone,
but when Manilow sings, the memories are now only mine.
I will tell you of the days after you passed away.
It left us all crippled, and the pain found it's place to stay.
The weeks, and months flew by, we stopped asking why.
Your spirit now lives on earth. Your soul above the sky's.
And when "My Someday" arrives.
I will speak. I will be their.
I will say only to you. "I love you, my dear."....