Somewhere in a deserted land
Shivering in white velvety winter jacket..
Resembling the snow
Stands a kind hearted angel
A wonderful gift that god sent
Looking like a lovely snow queen

Her skin pink and white…
Amazingly sparkle while the sun hides  
Walking miles in silky white landscape
Surrounds
**.. **.. **.. Santa Rina is around…

Her heart so true and pure
Genuinely protecting all
From the evil eyes, dreadful creatures
and dark demons
With her presence I know

I'm never alone.
I open her present..
A glass horse miniature..
Thank you Santa Rina…
You have beautiful soul inside....

Love is like the wild rose-briar,
Friendship like the holly-tree—
The holly is dark when the rose-briar blooms
But which will bloom most constantly?

The wild rose-briar is sweet in spring,
Its summer blossoms scent the air;
Yet wait till winter comes again
And who will call the wild-briar fair?

Then scorn the silly rose-wreath now
And deck thee with the holly’s sheen,
That when December blights thy brow
He still may leave thy garland green.

I have words
Thousands of them
Dancing on my head
Bumping into one another
Clashing while they spin
Making fantastic rhythms
Composing splendid puns
and poems and songs

Wonderfully,
Rich alphabets created
great lines, proverbs, metaphors and imagery
storing them neatly in my brain...
waiting to explode...

Why then...
  Am I still hiding my golden pen?
Hoping one day..
The chapters will start penning...
Wishing one day ...
We'd read from INTRO till THE END....
Holding satin handkerchief in one hand
Disguising big smile with tiny tears falling...
Gone the hot burning light of the oil lamp....

By Rina...

Shall I blame my eyes?
For each blink it makes
it tries to change my fate
Upon a blink of my eyes
You are right before me...
You don't look charming
but you look fine to me
Upon another blink...
You suddenly disappear
Are you hiding?
Are you leaving again?
Shall I decide to stop blinking?
Shall I take another chance to blink?
A risk taker, am I not?
Now I see you, next I don't
to change another fate of mine
I'd rather not blink again...

Standing strong...
a white candle...
slowly ...bending and falling..
It melts as it burns

With tears and sweats
Painful... but tireless...
countless efforts
to light others
so they'll shine bright
and make someone proud
so they'll live to shine
another life .. and lift them up
and make them shine
and be strong again..

Live to shine others
"A candle loses nothing
by lighting another candle"

By Rina..

Drowning in the world of lies
Truth hurts they say
Sweet are the lies told...
Pretending to be safe and sound
Hiding, disguising in the world of hypocrisy
When truth always hurt..
Lies can be sweet...
When is a lie ever so sweet?

By Rina

In a castle of dream everybody dreams
of  diamonds and pearls
of sheer happiness....
tears are shed and hidden within...
a silent scream... shout and cry...

Everything looks real in a castle of dream...
we only wake up the next day
to find out the ugliness of reality...
and to decide whether to believe in golds...
and we choose whats best
to suit our life...
do we really have to choose after all?
..Still we go far away from the reality..
and become inauthentic in life ..
for a second.. lets live in our luxurious dream
in the comfort of the  satin smooth linen
and feel the dazzling excitement..
even if it is only
just for a moment of ecstasy...

By Rina..

If I needed you
Would you come to me,
And hug me?
And say you'd always be here for me?

If I needed you
Would you come to me,
And ease my pain?
And whisper words of love again?

If I needed you
Would you ever try to come at all?
And risk your life?
For ever loving me?

If you needed me
I would come to you
Would never hesitate...
Would never contemplate..

I'd swim the seas
I'd cross the rivers
I'd climb the mountains
I'd sail the ships
I'd travel the miles
Just to make sure you are allright..
Just to make sure I'd ease your pain
Just to make sure we'd survive..
this risky love once again...

By Rina...

Do you still remember?
The lovely fragrance from this garden of mine...
Have you forgotten?
That I always...
keep the doors of my garden ever open for you..

You never came and caressed a flower
These colorful flowers I saved for you...
You must be afraid of my shadows falling on you
Still my love does not hinder me...
from planting another rose...
...and another rose...
the red, the yellow and the blue...
all fresh in the morning dew..
and waiting for you...

By Rina

Been searching high
Been searching low
Where is the light?
Will there be an end ?
Been crawling in sheer darkness
an agony... bleeding hard in every steps
an endless journey
of a painful life struggle...
yesterdays... today... tomorrows..
Does it really matter anymore?
You lost yourself in the middle
You lost yourself in between..
You are lost...

Losing hopes is easy...
Giving up... bury yourself ... disappear at once..
but... have you forgotten his existence?
HE... who is the most kind...
HE who listens to all your grievances
and HE sees... your pain
even when you are not thinking of him...
even when you are no longer believing...

and HE gives his hands...
and HE gives you the light..
and ends your misery...
SMILE...
there is the brightest light after all...
at the end of this painful crawls
in a complete darkness of this tunnel...
You've finally found yourself...

by Rina...

It was her graduation day
It was my busiest day
It was her important day
It was my DEADLINES day
But I promised her...
I did...

My maternal instinct urged to react..
I threw my files away
I drove like crazy...
Almost hit a pregnant cow..
It stopped in the middle of the road...
Staring at me... You are late MOMMY!!!
ahh cynical cow...

I rushed to the school hall
I came darling... I came...
There she stood sobbing...
I came Ali... I hugged my daughter
She was mad.. She had tears on her cheeks
She had tears brimming in her innocent eyes

I did not apologize… selfish I was
I wanted her to understand instead...
Mommy is late but Mommy is here…
I put my hand on her chest
Mommy is always here...
Doesn’t matter how late…
She smiled a little
She smiled a bit more
She hugged me tight
And laughed and giggled…
My sweet daughter…
I LOVE YOU MORE..

If I am not old
I must be gold..
I may not be nice
But I am wise
Every now and then ... I  need to spell check
please read my poems with due respect...

It's a speech I am giving...
To honor the guests
To welcome the participants
To appreciate them all

It's a speech I am giving..
Words from the bottom of my heart
My heartfelt gratitude
For all the hard work
finally fulfilled...

It's a speech I am giving
To honor great people
Talented people...
Awesome colleagues..
Whose supports and efforts
created magic!!

It's a speech I am giving..
To thank my amazing friends...
and HIM who is watching
and listening...
and continuously guiding...
and making things happen..

Standing on that extravaganza stage
Fidgeting ...
as I was rehearsing my speech that night
and thinking............
This is it....... CoLT 2013
We've made it possible...

To tarnish an image
To break a heart
To tear a soul
To put a shame
Just a split second..
To bounce back and breathe
Confidence
Perseverance
Believe
A strong will inside...
The winning power
in you...

Is this love
an adrenaline rush
my heart beats and pounds so hard
every time our eyes meet...

Is this love
a deep longing heart
an endless despair
every time we are apart...

Is this love
a beaming smile on your face
upon seeing me....
my lip hurts, for it yearns
to taste your sweetness...
LOVE....makes a smile complete....

If the love we cherish
should fall
on the wayside,
forget-me-not
If the ship we build
should sink
in deep blue
drown me with you
If the tree we grow
should tumble
plant me a new seed
And if all else
don't matter
between us anymore
don't despair
for life goes on
over hills and dales
over love cherished
over love lost
over love remembered
in a grain of sand.

midnight
silent and lonely
a glimpse in a shimmering light
Dance a Tooth Fairy...
a new mission ,she finds a road map...
a girl to kidnap...
she who just had a scrumptious dinner....
a pizza, a pasta and a muffin blueberry!!!

Once and for all
Shall I call it a quit ? say " Thanks to all"
Life is not permanent after all
Let me sit and stare at my wall

What do I want, have I achieved?
Sticking my tongue out, I laugh in mischief
Can't just sit and stare at my wall
Help me please...once and for all...

Being in someone's heart …
Is it an Art ..?!
Or may be lucky .. or just being smart..!!!
No one can live without Love , kindness apart
We are all looking for it before we depart .
We are all lucky if we can find a home called heart .
So precious .. in our body part ..

Is it love
the racing of a heart beat
when she's around
then out of breath
and slumber in thoughts
of what might have been said
but a little late
in the sweltering heat
of a midday rush hour
missing her starting gun
and yearning for her finishing line.

A lonely poet
writes a lonely poem
what a gloom... lonely..
some lonely people reading alone
this lonely poem...
reading the title Alone...
feeling the poem alone...
sitting on a chair all alone...
being all alone...
staring at one lonely poem..
drowning in the sea of loneliness...
all alone...

You come and go as you wish...
Like the whispering sound of the wind...
No  stopping again
No  going again
No  staying again
No Hello again..
No goodbye again..
Will I ever see you coming around again?
Just a heartless shrug...
Feeling so Annoyed...
Intimidated... As you wish....

I remember those pretty marbles
Cousin Ted gave me to keep
Off to Europe ... he went to travel...
Agreed.. thought I ‘d  do him good deed...

Counted each one just before I went to bed
Counted them again everytime I was out of bed
These precious marbles would remind me of Ted
He was gone... missed him...thought I’d rather be dead...

Ten colorful marbles in my pocket
In the left pocket of my pink purple polkadot skirt
Lost my balance I fell into a pool of dirt...
I went blind my glasses was covered with dirt
Ruined my shirt...  dirtied my newest skirt...
I’ve lost my marbles... Oh ****!
...... that was even hurt...

Again...I missed the school bus
Easy...I blamed my dad
He ran too slow
Failed to chase the bus for me
Disgusted... I refused to speak
Annoyed...Sitting in the living...
Staring at the window..
Outside a heavy downpour...
Silently blaming the rain
If it wasn’t too cold that morning..
I wouldn’t have pulled my blanket ...
And closed my eyes too tight...
A ROARING rain in my heart...

I heard dad was shouting at mom
He blamed mom for waking up late
An expected storm ... mom bursts in the kitchen...
No blaming me she said... extremely loud
The alarm clock... went silent you know!!
A chocked in her throat...
A tiny tear at the corner of her eyes...
Steamy Air of tension surrounded the house...

It was easy to blame the alarm clock
For a moment I thought...
It wouldn’t shout back to defend itself
It went dead... it wasn’t anybody’s fault...
I missed the bus, dad missed his work...
Mom missed her "morning good bye" kiss...
The cute alarm clock ... a gift from my aunty
Stood by the bed so timidly... so innocently...

Unexpectedly...
My Furious-ed dad... threw the alarm clock out the window
Surprisingly... it was screaming in the rain
Perhaps...Tired of our blaming game..
Funny...As it fell to the ground..
Kring!! Kring!! Kring!! So loud so clear was the sound..
Instead of getting mad...
Dad, Mom and me... giggled...
We were all laughing like mad...
A damaged machine in the heavy rain...
Tickled our hearts...

A secret it must stay
Sad blue eyes
if only to reveal
the fleeting moment
of unspoken thoughts
of unbridled love
all too soon to disappear
in a sip of an afternoon tea
and the lingering after taste
of a secret affair.

Tried to ROAR back
Louder... Nastier... Hungrier..
Swallowed the voice in my throat
Thought I'd be fierce enough
Like I used to be...
When I simply snapped
and screamed and shouted
on Things I disagreed most
on Things I hated most
Mellowed down with the number of years
added to my age...
Common senses and maturity
Wiser and thoughtful..
To roar yes I can
But with great diligence
I roar...

The pair of sad eyes
I remember so well
as she leaves the room
leaving behind her hopes

A real life mannequin
dressed to ****
in expensive outfits
bought for... what a darling..
day in and out
struts up and down
in five star hotels
drowning in her hard earn dollars
that only last for a day or two...

I remember her hands shaking
as she holds a glass of whiskey
taking quick puffs at her cigarette
you can tell...  she isn't a beginner
so what with that pair of sad eyes?

but her body violently trembles
she fidgets, panting nervously
another greedy hands wraps her waist
a knowing nod, mutual agreement
another ride .... another night...
she walks with him....
leaving behind her dreams...
her eyes are sad .... you can tell
another journey awaits her
on this wild hungry night
no one bothers of her pair of sad blue eyes eyes...
only the heat of her naked flesh....

Between us silence is the enemy
breaking the silence is victory
years that passed by
silence seems too good
sometimes i wish for waves
in between this surrounded wall
the walls we built
bottled us up...
the feelings we hid
the words we kept
the love we buried
plastered in this wall
this silence wrecks me
this silence burns you
between this brick wall
the funeral of love..

I smile a sunny smile...
Good morning love...
and You smile back...
whispers I LOVE YOU...
all of a sudden...
Your ****** language
discovers love...
warm love...
written all over
your handsome face
sweet love...
like peanut butter jelly
spread all over your cheeks
and nose too
our laughter fills the room...
sweet love....

"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye."

She then began to cry and walked away.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person.
An hour to appreciate them.
A day to love them.
And an entire life to forget them

Your sweetest Hello...
Has always been great
You Hello... that..
sends shivers down my spine..
Your sweetest Hello
calms the soul of mine...
A morning wish, a small chat and a kiss
What else should I ask for?
In love.... Should I not be the happiest?

My life , my time was  exclusively yours.
My dream, my thoughts was  truly yours
You could read me like chapters in a book
Imagine... My whole life you took

You were my other half,
You were rising graph.
My breath, my beat, my everything.
Short of breaths couldn't utter a million things.

Wish I could listen to you more and break your wall
That you've silently built within you
This sweet love of mine would make me fall
How could I breathe again without you?

Took for granted of your sweet Hello
Been selfish too much,
It has always been me not you..
Ask a million questions.
Tell a million stories.
But the time has gone and so have you.

Dark blue, purple and grey... and lonely is the heart
What has happened to your sweetest Hello?
I am numb, what do I do with my bruising heart?
Should I reminisce  those days when I lived life
to the whole?
Should I force you to stay and break you?
Your  good bye is sad ..
Where is your sweet HELLO?

Its your smile...
That tickles my heart
and makes me smile too
Its your eyes..
That gazes too long
and makes me blush
my cheeks pink and red
Its your stare
That kills me
my heart stops to breathe
for a moment or two
Its your voice
That whispers I hear
Every waking hour
Your voice sounds so near
Its your jokes
That I remember most
Every time I remember us..
spending time together
Its your touch
That lingers too long
The fingerprints I can't erase
Its your lies..
That sweet lies I couldn't bear
Your disguises and your lies
Tore my heart in two...
Its the memories
That sweetest moments
That bitterness and pain
The knowledge that life has to go on...
Its the strength... I need
to move on....

Behind the purple mountains
Is where my sunset shows
Bringing deep tranquillity
When the last sunshine glows

Slowly the sky will darken
The sun is shying away
Soon its midnight blue
Remember...
In that place where I find you

A change in the atmosphere
The world now serene and peaceful
Like it usually should be
And there beyond the sunset
Lies a home for you and me

Walking along the scenic beach
At sunset...
Spectacular! What a beautiful panorama
Set the romantic atmosphere
Sweet melodious mood,
as the waves hit the shore
This sunset boulevard walk
We kiss and holding hands
While watching the sun goes down..
Good bye lovers
Enjoy your walk while you still can...

KNOCK! KNOCK!
Madam we are at your door
No worries... of the body odor
We took your advice we went outdoor
At the mall  bought a bottle of Jadour..
Fresh smell we are Paris Hilton, Britney Spears and Miss Taylor
Do increase consultation time by 15 minutes or more...
Okay now open the door...
Take your turn but stand at the door...
Hey! now don't you cheat
Fresh looking nice and neat
but still I smell... your smelly feet...
Out you go and wash your feet!!

Blind...
Are we not..
Upon our bare eyes
The killings and shootings
People die on the streets
like nobody cares...
Blind..
Are we not..
Upon our naked eyes
Kids crying on the streets
Fall flat on their knees
Starved and abused...

in between my eyes
my pointed nose
sniffs nothing but you...
alcoholic unpleasant breaths...

Alcoholic visions
sigh across screens
as language blurs
Talking nothing but nonsense

***** vision violently
soaks rough atmosphere,
heads explode, chaotic manners

Alcoholic dreams
travels around the globe
in similar destinations..
the filthy old bars...

The sweetest red wine
soon sours and rot
under an icy glare.

a shot of *****
allows sanity to sharpen
it's dainty claws
feasting on thoughts

How is alcohol good?

Everything is still unclear
Why did you leave me here?
Where am I? I can't see in the dark
Need my car ... where is the car park?

I heard you cry so loud..
Tell me why? and how... I can avoid
Being isolated in here.. what place is this?
Explanation.. I need that please...

I heard the kids sobbing
worried... their sobs is so disturbing
get me out from here dear darling..
You need not to worry about anything...
Let me take care of you and the kids and everything...

I heard the sound of your footsteps
and the kids footsteps
and many other  footsteps above me..
Is it earthquake? Why is the earth shattering?
I am scared... help me ..
Why are you leaving .. walking away

and then there is complete silent
all alone, I screamed the loudest...
I called your name, the kids names, my mom's and dad's name..
I am buried here covered only with a piece of white cloth
can't even turn to the left or right...
can't even peep outside..
Where am I... Where am I?

Tears of the seven dwarfs
Drowned the casket made of glass
Where Snow White lies lifeless...

Prayers of the seven dwarfs
Ordered god to stop the time
Be it a hundred years
They'd wait for Snow to open her eyes..

Patience of the seven dwarfs
endless prayers, tears, wishes and hopes
In a  casket made of glass
lies the most beautiful princess
who gently moves her fingers
her hand slowly touches a dwarf...

Tears, Prayers and Patience of the seven dwarfs
Snow White comes back to life...

I wish I could show you
When you are lonely
and feeling a little lost
When you are grieving
or in sheer  darkness
Look deep inside you
There is a little light
hidden somewhere between your heart
the light of your own being...

have faith in yourself
keep believing..
loneliness is not definite
and darkness will never stay too long
knock the door of heaven once more
see the brightest light...
shining.. it shines so bright..

If the door is open
Light may enter and invites you in..
The darkness of the world
Stormy days throughout
Believe...
the faintest glimmer of light will appear
and you will see GODS guiding light ,
to relight hope in your heart
Darkness, Loneliness will soon disappear...

There is fire in your eyes
as I hold you tight tonight
There is fire in my heart
as you sway me in the rain
to and fro, back and forth, gently waltzing
hips and legs in circle as our legs touched...
the flame burns the skin... when we touch..
burning hot...

In each drop of diamonds from the sky
We dance till we are soaking wet...
Strange.. we aren't cold..
There is fire burning under the feet
as we strut and turn..
our bodies are burning hot..
I'VE Seen Fire AND I'VE Seen Rain
I see us ...
our love on fire...

Kissed your cold lip
Hugged your fragile body
Touched your lifeless face
Caressed your dry skin
I was hoping your fragrance
is Christine Dior...
I was praying to see you smile..
You were tired and dried out...
Painful to see you go like this..
Slowly ... painfully...
Breathing still  but dying
and the clock is ticking....

I lazily closed my eyes...
My heavy paws on my head..
Stretching my body
Trying to relax and sleep
The world is covered from my view...
Let me dream please...
of my birth place in Africa...
Sick of people coming to see me
I am not a toy for display...
Today I am just a sleeping tiger...

violent waves

hit and run

rage with anger

roar!

everything vanished!

widely dispersed.....

A pin drop silence
An unusual serene calmness
A solemn way to start a day
in an empty classroom

Even the softest moan...
the loudest roar
Sighed...
counting my own breathing
as I was fidgeting to and fro
in an empty classroom...

123 my heart was beating slow
456 my heart was moving faster
789 my heart was thunderous!
blood boiled up to the head...
from cheerful to moody
from pretty to ugly
smiles... yawns.. smirks... temper!
the veins fighting in the face...
dark red with anger burst!

A sudden... gentle knock on the door..
broke the golden silence
a sweet angel walked in
with head held down
"GOOD MORNING TEACHER"
Applause... Applause... Applause...
Thank you to the sweetest soul..
An empty classroom came to live...

a graveyard silent night
tip-toed to my bed
is there a skeleton in the closet?
waiting to scare me...
anytime!
perhaps a freaking monster under the bed?
crawling out in the middle of the night
clawing my face , ******* my blood..
let me stay safe please...
this erie night
I have goosebumps all through the night
Please I need to be safe and sound

Something forbidden is temptation
A challenge to belief
A test of faith
Something forbidden is exciting
Succumb to greed
Fall for the bait of ***** thoughts
Something forbidden is sweet
a question of needs and wants
A greater temptation,
Surrender to cruel evil surrounds
Lured by the power of his temptation
who'll only destroy your faith...
Making you agrees to the forbidden seas...
Tangled in each waves of deceits
in your conscience
guilty still....
but you fail to self-guard your burning heart
and soul...
convinced by greed and crude desires..
this devil called temptation...is never tiring
seducing and tempting...never stopping
caught in the web of forbidden lust...
Tempted...  at last...

Hungry kisses
Gentle touches
Tender love
Laughter was joy
Magnificent were the days
Intimate moments shared
Precious time spent
Sudden Tsunami
Love was torn apart
Silence was goodbye
I understood it well

Emptiness
Beginning and ending
Emptiness
To come and to leave
to heal your troubled soul
What have you kept inside you?
Beside your emptiness?

Emptiness
a body without a soul
a heart without a home
a life without a passion
a love without a tender care

Emptiness
without his love I am broken
without his care I am numb
without his touch I am dead
without his blessing I break, fall and fail

emptiness
return to originality
return to purity
return to the greatness of god's almighty
return to faith ... my losing faith

Empty heart, wounded soul
Cry out loud to you..
a weakened soul healer
God almighty....

She...
as beautiful as a rose
Her love is so sweet
the sweetest fragrance of a rose
I love the scent of this woman..
the sweetest rose
that melts my heart..
She..
who is as beautiful as a rose..
that blooms in a golden sun
She holds a rose in her hand..
with her million dollars worth smile..
her cheek rosy when she smiles..
The rose in her soft hands..
as sweet as her smile...
outstanding as they bloom..
She...
her blooming eyes,
red roses delight in those pair.
I could see her heart in the rose she holds..
In her heart a garden of rose....
What a beautiful rose she is...