Love is just love.....
it can't be explained by anyone...
it has just feelings.....
wrap with deep emotions...
Love is nothing more than feelings
special thoughts
in the most loving and tender way
you have for someone
There are People Whom You Love,
Then there are People who Love's YOU,
Very few People have this Privilege to be Loved  ,
If you have someone ...
then You are Lucky one,
Make them feel special every single day...
and make them know
they are your ONLY ONE

The moment
My lung stops to breathe
My soul leaves my body
I still do hope
I hope
my brain will keep its space
the memory of you
I can't erase
to be safe and sound...
I just hope...
wish I could...

The moment
My eyes are closed
My heart stops to beat
My body is lifeless
I still do hope
my heart hears my pledge
and has its mercy...
dear heart...
do keep a place
just in your tiny little corner
so I can still see my precious
with the eyes in my heart ..

In my heart
the wonderful memories
I want to keep it safe...

Forgive yourself
For the things you've done
For the things you would do
For the things you have not done..
Things that you were not so proud of...

If only by forgiving yourself
by forgiving others
You'd find your inner peace again
help you release your deep rooted pain
bitterness and your worries all the same

Then Forgive...
free your cluttering heart and mind
Forgive and let go..
Forgive your darkest past
and move on...

Try to Forgive..
sit still and enjoy this moment..
the stillness of your soul..
cleansed and rejuvenated
Forgiven soul..

would you give him your nicest room?

would you serve him your signature meal?

Would you hide some magazines and put
The Quran where it should be?

Would you still watch those movies,Or your T.V. set?
Or would you switch it off?

Would you turn off the radio,And hope he had not heard?

And wish that you did not utter your last loud hasty word?

Would you hide your worldly music, And instead take out Hadith books?

Would you keep up each and every prayer?
Without putting on a frown?

And would you always jump up early, For Fajr at dawn?

And I wonder…if the Prophet (saw) spent, a day or two with you,
Would you go on doing the things you always do?
Would you go right on and say the things You always say?
Would life for you continue As it does from day to day?
Would you pretend to be somebody else...
Just because prophet Muhammad comes...?

Why do I need to seek you?
You are there always
Never leaving me
Never forgetting me
Never once you desert me

Do I deserve your love?
I am ashamed to reflect
Looking down inside me...
The faith I am holding on to...

God is loving
God is forgiving
Even if you don't seek him
Even if you don't love him..
He never deny your quests or thirst...

Have faith...
Keep believing in god...
Never will he let you down...

Seek god...

Take me to paradise with you
Live forever among the chosen angels
Countless blessings by god..
Eternal life in paradise...
Only you
who will hold my hand
stand tall beside me
protect me from hates and evils
prevent the hell fire...
The burning heat
beneath my feet...
Only you
who will make sure
I won't stumble and fall...
drown in a river of fire...
boiling in hell
Only you...
who will let me cross
that path.. that bridge
making sure I am safe..
while you wait
at the other end..
with a smile...
I have faith in you
I believe its only you
Who will walk with me..
in paradise...

You wrote with ink,
what my heart bleeds
You loved with life
what my heart sings
You kissed with passion
what my heart thinks
Your Bleeding love
Your obsession...
My heart screams
It scares me sometimes...
not about me losing you..
what ifs you lose me?

4 o'clock in the morning
tossing and turning
the old bed is screaming
every movements made, its creaking...
it's whining...
simply so boring...

4 o'clock in the morning
neighbours are snoring
no one listening
conversations getting dull and boring
smoking... drinking... yawning..
jumping back to bed, 123 again snoring...

Have you ever met someone
All of a sudden...
things were no longer important
your brain froze for a while
Your laziness grew..
Your mood unpredictable...
Your coffee became bitter
Your dress seemed less attractive
Your bread stale and hard... tasteless
Your life upside down... colorless
All of a sudden
you lacked focus...
this person was magnet
grew closer so fast
be the most important
The centre of your thoughts...
between night and day..
and he became the radar
of your life...
He owned the remote control
pulling your life away for a second
putting you back where it was
so you could breathe...
so you could sleep
so you could die
Your life was solely his...
You became a thing...
a posession..
Have you ever met..
someone like that?

Just laugh it off
Pscychologically....
...  much healthier in the inside
Just laugh it off
No one can hurt you
Unless you allow them to...

When I look into my daughter's eyes
I imagine looking into the skies
When I look into my daughter's eyes
I see purity reflected in her rounded eyes
When I look into my daughter's eyes
Her tantrums, some sadness as she cries
When I look into my daughter's eyes
No matter what there will be no goodbyes
When I look into my daughter's eyes...
Her curiosity , her wonders that will last..
When I look into my daughter's eyes
Her magnificent stories stay in those eyes..
When I look into my daughter's eyes
Have I ever been deceived by her sweet lies?
Will there be some white lies
hidden In those pretty eyes..?

Countless teardrops
fill the river of tears
and the river flows
endlessly...
carries all the pain away...
How deep is the hurt
How much is the grief
Only the river knows
all the mysteries in it...
If only it can tell
you with words...

It was only a dream
Empty promises of
diamonds and golds
Words were made in dreams
Sinful tongue,
Crooked teeth.
Witnessed the lies..
Lasted for few seconds
Then... suddenly...
He Vanished in the thin air
Meaningless Words broken into alphabets
The glittering diamonds and golds
Disappeared!!!  
Wake up PRINCESS!!
A dream it was

Did I hypnotize you
with some magical words I wrote?
Did I lull you to sleep
with some sweet phrases
called lullabies?
Did I fascinate you
with my whispers
every time you sit next to me..
you seem to stay there longer
than you should.....
Was it my diction
Was it my articulation
Was it my melodious script
Was it my captivating lyrics..
Was it my MANTRA that charms
the most ...
Put you in magical spell
sweet poisonous mantra
that ties you to the ground...
forever...

Like a zombie I walk
All in a different direction
Lifting my bleeding feet...
A heavy walk
Heading to a ****** den
awful corpses and bones
which one do I belong to
My body was ripped
My skeleton unknown
My soul Hears the howls
from anywhere,
from nowhere,
should it blends
with other zombies
in the den...

She doesn't say a thing
She lurks around in silence
Constantly watching you
Sometimes observing you closely
Stalking each stories you share
Digesting your words each day
Analysing, inferring, drawing conclusions
on a daily basis...
You don't even know she exist...
Weird.. but she is here..
and she knows everything about you
even if you don't tell..
even if you are being discreet...
Beware of this scary thing...
you wouldn't imagine could happen...
she is not anybody you know
She has no face...
She has no name...
She is in FACEBOOK...
and breathing your name...

I wish I could do everything
to please everybody
I wish I could play all the roles
To fulfill everybody's needs..
the domestic chores
the career demands
the perfect angelic mom
the adorable lover
the friedly neighbour
and the loyal friend..
I wish I could do them all
even if it means
I have no time to breathe
but i only have two hands
But I only have 24 hours
but I only have two feet
but If only I could do them all
I would break myself apart
I would never be the same again..
For I care too much for others
than I should...
I cant do them all..
I'd die..

freezing cold
in a selfless hug
wide awake
recollecting memories
dried tears
dying in between
frozen sheets
memories never fade
let me die a thousand times...
I'm breaking free
from these haunting memories
Lemme go...
Gotta let it go...

How often do you tell
the demon inside of you
to hide well...
to behave good
to pretend god...
How often do you feel
letting the demon out
no more hiding
no more behaving
no more pretending
no more faking...
where your demon hides
does it matter
if you let it go?
your soul could be free...
just let the demon out
from where it hides...

I am in despair
Couldn't find you anywhere
Aren't you goin to say something?

I am searching for direction
Been lost ... need some motivation
Aren't you goin to say something?

I am so confused
Feeling so abused and used
Aren't you goin to say something?

I am so depressed
Must have been so stressed..
Aren't you goin to say something?

How she used to bloom
Turned your garden into heaven
How she used to shine
Became your pride and your joy
Lifted your life
Her lively presence no more
She is just a fading flower
in a colorless garden
Gasping for fresh air
Suffocating...
slowly fading...
silently dying...

A blind Rabbit hops
Life may not be a bed of roses
In heaven
Rabbit lavish itself ...
...in heaven of carrots

Only that last chapter
and I am lost for words
What is the best adjective to describe
the feeling that I feel at this moment
When all the pretty words in the world
I have written to describe you..
You are awesome beyond words..
The word awesome alone isn't the most appropriate..
That last chapter to end
and complete our beautiful story...

You are the meaning of my life
You are the dreams of my thoughts
You are the lyrics of my feelings
You are the literature of my silence
You are the journey of my emotions
You are the translation of my path
You are the definition of my identity
You are everything for me
Just do one thing for me
Allow me to be me....

When your love is a lie
I sigh..
When you sing a lullaby
You lie
When you said good bye
I fly.. so high
When I fly
You die
Bury your lies
and die..

Whenever.. Wherever
You wanna go
I wanna go
Whenever Wherever
You wanna go
I wanna go too

Whenever Wherever
You wanna go
I wanna go
Whenever Wherever
You wanna go
Can I go with you?

You were down
You almost drown
Stop looking down
Smile.. ..
Smile... You are not even a clown
But...
There's a light on your face
You don't need no rescuing
You'll be okay
Have faith..
You'll be okay..

She sings
with tears in her eyes
She dances
her feet bleeds
She speaks
her throat chokes
She glances at me
Puts Her head down
She almost  breaks
Her heart hurts
She kneels
She cries
Rescue her....

Cheeks been complaining
That old chick keeps on whining
Collagen doses she's been consuming
useless... obviously not working
sagging, deteriorating and contaminating....

“when I turn my back
and watch closely..
the ladders of my life, i stepped up..
the queue of incidents .. happened to me
I find myself
weaving dreams
to fly very high
struggling every moment
and yet watching myself
drowning ..
into the deep ocean of tears
and failure ..
It showed a streak of hope..
......"

I walked pass the haunted house
The huge house across the lane
My legs weakened out of a sudden
My throat was dry,
My palm was sweating
Adrenaline rush!
GOOSEBUMPS  all over...

The unusual cold breeze
sent chills down my spine
I peeped inside the house
Strange feelings I had...
Would never allow myself to go inside
For that is where the witches live,
Where ghosts and goblins hide.

The demons there are whirling
And the spirits swirl about.
Everything is spooky...
The unrested souls howls
See the zombies partying
Shoes, umbrellas and hats flying

But I wouldn't want to go there
So I ran with all my might
And oh I wouldn't  go inside
The haunted house tonight.

In the garden of heaven
You bloom...
magnificent..
Your fragrance I adore
Wanted to pluck you
But I became a devotee
In your graceful smile
forbidden you are...
not forgotten...

Loving you
is the hardest thing to do
Loving you
makes me say I do
Loving you
Yes I do
Loving you
still the hardest to do
Yet loving you..
I do.

Stand and stare
Show if you care
Love if you dare
Life isn't always fair

Sit and stare
Blank foolish wide glare
Love if you dare
Silly... pretending you don't care...

Sit, stand and stare...
Love if you dare
Perhaps this time life is fair and square..

In between the white sheets
bitter sweet memories
of love, life and pain
pillows drenched with tears
on cold nights when lovers fight

The cringes of the bed
on hot nights when bodies sweat
when love is made
out of nothing at all...
pretending... faking love

My head is spinning
My vision is blurring
My neck is paining
My whole body is aching
My fingers are numbing
My arteries are clogging
My fate... I am hating
My life is shattering
My suffering is neverending...
Am I dying?
My kidney is teasing...
My blood is aggressively pumping
My glucose is cynically laughing
My heart is still beating...
Death... am I cheating?
Tick.. Tock... Tick... Tock...
Am Still breathing...

What are you scared of?
The monster under your bed?
The skeleton in your closet?
The real monster
never hide or run
They exist..
yes they do..
They only sleep in your head..

Sombre is the night
The moon is lazy to shine
The stars are hiding the lights
The sky is the darkest
The night is the coldest
Everything looks frozen and cold
Gone are the nights of joy and laughter
Now just nights of sad sombre moods

I'm gonna tell god
You killed my mom
I'm gonna tell god
You slaughtered my dad
I'm gonna tell god
You ***** my sisters
I'm gonna tell god
You tortured my brothers
I'm gonna tell god
You burned down our village
I'm gonna tell god
You bombed the whole Syria..
I'm gonna tell god
You tore our lives apart
I'm gonna tell god
You painted Syria red..
the precious blood of our Muslim brothers
and sisters...
I'm gonna tell god...
You broke my arms and legs
I'm gonna tell god
You made me permanently paralyzed...
but my heart is still alive...
and I 'm gonna tell god everything.....

There is no need...
To try to be a Superhero
Be satisfied by just giving
someone's the light
Be their light in the darkness
So their life is brighter
is livelier
than ever before..
Free someone from their darkest life
The best deed you do indeed...

Zooming in your inner self
Self reflection
a mandatory
Self realization
to know whats best
To realize your weakness
To reveal your mistakes
So you'd be wiser
as you experience
progress in the life journey

a quiet moment for yourself
for once....
the clock ticks slow...
in the wee  hours of  silence
the night is getting cold
You weep yourself
as you put your head down
your forehead touches the praying mat
say your prayers between your breath
asking god to forgive your sins...
hoping god to listen...
begging god to fulfill your wishes
drench with honest tears..
tears is soul purification
tears can cleanse your soul...
to make it as pure as gold..
again..

A sorrowful story to tell
Be strong... Be tough...
Promise... don't break down and cry
Perfect illusion of love
But why... can't you tell
The feelings...
like we are living in hell...
Faking love is a silent crime
An endless silent cry...
Deceived...
A never ending sorrowful story...

If I could cry my heart out
You would  see nothing else
except for rivers
the river of my tears...

If I could cry my heart out
You would hear nothing else
except for the rhythms of my sobs
a sad orchestra all through the night

If I could cry my heart out
You would feel nothing else
except for empathy, compassion...
perhaps a little love
rather than keep wondering...
why and why she ever did cry?

If the best thing to do
is to hide
Why must you stay
any longer
Why must you make
empty promises
It is impossible this year
It may be impossible next year
Impossible...
Perhaps a year later,
and many more years to come...
The impossible remains...
Impossible...

broke it
wrecked it
ignored it
abandoned it
this old scar bleeds..
once again...
it cuts so deep
my bleeding love
my unhealed wound...

The music is...
heart pumping
The movie is
heart wrenching
The love story is
heart breaking
The words are
heartfelt...
Take care of our heart..
so tomorrow and the day after tomorrow
It will still pumps..
It will still wrench
It will still breaks
It will still beat and make you feel...
your precious heart...

Believe me or not
When I was young
I dreamed to be an astronaut

Believe me or not
As the youngest daughter
Mom said I'd better be a female doctor

Believe me or not
When I grew older
I became passionate working as a teacher

Believe me or not
I wanted to be better
so few years later
I studied to be a lecturer..

Believe me or not
Now that I am much much older
All I wanted to do is..
just to become wiser and wiser...

This weird dream
I had last night
keep tormenting me...
How shall I ignore
this strange feelings I have..
Tossing and turning..
My bed is burning..
Staring at him lying next to me
deep in his sleep...
Should have known...
I've been sleeping with the enemy..

Whose tree is the tallest?
Whose tree is the brightest?
Whose tree has the most decorations?
Whose tree is the most impressive?
and the competition is on...
neighbors competing each other...
till the winner is announced...
They all look so aloof...
Hiding behind each back...
bragging about their trees...
sacrificing friendships...
risking relationships...
for Christmas sake...
Forget whose tree ...the best ,
whose decorations... the most stunning
the joy of Christmas is here...
in each and everyone's heart...

Satin smooth clouds
Blue... and grey...
Look up and see..
the clouds are dancing
in slow motions
getting closer each time
the clock ticks..
till it becomes one..
forming into one heavy pregnant cloud...
clouding the blue sky...
turning the color into
dark grey and darker..
almost...BLACK...
too heavy it seems...
cannot stand it any longer..
and down comes the rain..
falling not a drop or two
a heavy downpour..
to the long dried ground...
the farmers cheer
The cattle jump
the crops sway
to and fro
back and forth
in happiness...
rain is the greatest gift from
our creator...
Ameen..