I sit upon a risen bank
with golden white grains below
in between my toes it flows
a soft singing breeze does blow

I gaze upon the stars so high
like fairy dust in the sky
the beauty of a moonlit night
a vibrant night, just Paradise

These days I have more flashbacks
Than I do reality
I wish the past would just sit back
And leave this poor boy be

But the past it holds more flavor
Than a stick of chewing gum
When it comes to what I savor
Babe your still the one

All I dream is you and me
Heart struck that youre gone
Forever my love I hoped you see
You are my transcendent song

The places we used to visit
A time when our hearts flourished
When the skies were our only limit
Beautiful times we cherished

Never knowing where we will end
Just a bunch of mysteries
For time to us we thought would bend
And now I have just memories

But as they say all things come to an end
And come to an end they must
For what we once held together
Are now ashes to ashes, dust to dust

Stolen Heart, Forever To Be Never

What the **** is wrong with me?
I'm too madly in love to see
the pain and confusion I cause
my emotions and thoughts I force

All I want is you to be happy
but all I'm doing is making it ******.
I don't care the pain I have to take
but I never thought my love for you was a massive intake.

My heart too big, my soul to open,
everyday my love will heighten.
I'm causing more pain then love.
I've pushed my feelings to hard, caused it to be rough.

I'm sorry for any pain or confusion,
my total love intrusion.
I don't know what to do
all I want is the best for you.

Maybe what's best has got nothing to do with me
has my love turned from a gift to a fee?
I'm lost for you Angel, what do I do
I've been blinded by my love, I have no clue

Fear
What do I fear

I have a fear of height
but deep down its nothing
I would love to just take flight
but that's just a dream of something

I have a fear of spiders
creep me out far beyond my heartbeat
these fears are nothing just minors
my true fear lies deep, I can't defeat

I'm so afraid that I will just wake
from my visual reality
the life I have to just disappear, heartbreak
that it could be just a dreaming insanity

to lose all I have, experiences and all
would destroy me as deep as the core
finding out that my head created this wall
nothing I have done means anything, thrown out the door

my fear is to lose all that I love
all that I've experienced, aches and pains.
I don't want to lose anything, I don't want to leave
I love every last one of these stains

my soul is imprinted
my heart is engraved
my eyes can't be tinted
my being never enslaved

If I'm just dreaming
I'll shall never awake
this is a reality worth sleeping
I will not make the mistake

this is my biggest fear
unable to forever stay here.

Thank you dear Lord
for what you have given
I do not know what allowed me this reward
But now I have been granted vision

You have given me the chance
to meet an angel of great faith
I was in a downward spiralling trance
now I enjoy every beat and every last breath

I pray that you take great care
of your angel on the path she may follow
To find someone so empowering, so rare
guide her through, for with her there is a better tomorrow.

To the beautiful angel of my light
thank you for waking me
you have given me greater sight
I see a greater perspective, I'm free

In return for what you gave and I receive
I will be there for you in your time of need
any pain I'll do my best to relieve
just tell me when for your heart I can't read

I thank you dear angel
my heart and soul shall protect
at its very best, no matter how painful
for you I have immense respect

Here is my story
of meeting you, a glory.

The day we first met
a day I shall regret
don't read that wrong
for you I truly long
I regret not taking a chance
being so scared at first glance

When my eyes rested upon you
I truly did not have a clue
I was a lost soul, living day by day
I would let every day pass away
there was nothing for me here in life
I truly could have just picked up knife.

We met down the beach
but my heart was still out of reach
I looked in your eyes, Click
it was like I no longer feel sick
I wasn't sick though, I did not understand
but for once in my life I felt grand.

Even with this great feeling
The lock on my heart is still rusted
but I could feel the lock peeling
it still could not be busted
we floated and talked
once you left this lock exploded

Now I became annoyed
my heart was ready to be deployed
"Why", I kept asking myself this
Had no confidence, and now you I miss.
who was this Angel who opened me
I knew your name, you were my key.

I was lost in thought
My heart and head now fought
For days I hated
I laid and waited.
But found nothing I did
so instead deep down I hid

Now it had been awhile
I kept wondering if it was some kind of trial
all I could think was maybe I failed
once again falling deep I felt derailed
but by chance
I see you advance

my heart races, pounding
my head started clouding
This time I'll say something
but out comes absolutely nothing
only some small talk
and on you walk

I could see you were interested
but my lips just would not spread
the next day you were gone
I walk I to work that morn, torn
a colleague tells me about an envelope
my heart rose, up comes my hope.

A long beautiful letter
now I feel a whole lot better
as my heart flies, we talk and talk
now my dreams you stalk.
the woman of my dreams you are
the gorgeous shining star

you have opened my heart
and that is just the start
you have opened my soul
and made me feel whole

thank you with all my heart and soul
I miss you and love you, my heart you stole