...... ! ,

I love him
I didn't know much things ; My life, it was not pleasant
So I let him come
I had patience to listen to him
I know he is a play boy, Only he is little anxious
He provoked me in no time
He touched my Libido just with little words
I felt him, He is honest for the moment he live
He need to see all the world make love
That is his wish bigger than life
He act like a beast ; but
I know he is emotional
If you hurt him - his reaction is unpredictable
He talks what the silence taught him
That silence make me
I was naked - I don't know
I only listening to him
He is dangerous but not to me
He is mad, cynical
Damaged and lusted ; Desperate hedonist he is
But I know he is a minimalist
He walks towards steady ******
Inside of him he is only spiritual
World has taken his very own definition
He is the one lay me on cloud bed
Penetrate me deep into my soul
He is the universe that he see
That I see ; now
I love him - so I let him come
And he ;
He made me come !

Today I am a single atom
Like most the other of unsounded life
All around us - look happy

When I see the filtered sunlight
In the dawn coming through the cloud
I feel the life and the hope
For a new beginning

What I see as life and what I live
As life, surly not the samething
Like the sun getting exuberant
As it climb right above to your head
My very own life burn it self
And make both my life and the skin
Dark

When I see the moonlight
Mild and soothing beams of it
I look upward and say to the moon
How the day light tortured my mind

Moon - She knows all my dark secrets
To my prayers she only say one thing

" Darling you are the sun,
       you are my light, even though you didn't know
  Darling you are not bad, you are power
       of the life, yours and all the others "

Today I am an atom
I don't understand what she says
But I am stubborn
I want to believe, And I will keep believe
What moon says and keep saying
With her kind and nice smile
And mystic gesture of love

Indeed she became the light
To the darkness I see as dark

you are the muse
you are the sun
you are the God
the impeccable 'Him'
of the universe
boundaries never seen

© shanikayrs

Sometimes.
It all comes as you know it all
Meantimes
It all goes as you are all blind
If not smile what else to do
High standards or
Despair of sight
Nothing will fix
All by itself
I mean
I keep falling, hence
I wish this is to be an abyss
Or your love

shanikayrs

One day I will go mad
I will cry to music or will sing out loud
from top of my lungs
- -
I want you to be there behind me then

Some time I like to grow beard
Wet my beard with drips of beers
I will talk about vintage and surrealism
--
I want you to be there behind me then

I will imagine to see you
In a old fashion denim , top button gone
Dancing to the music of Eagles
--
I want you to be the women I dream then

One day I 'll be ready to die
Hope I will embrace the death with that smile
I will say I am alive
--
I want you to be the women say 'yes darling you are very alive'
then ...

Cold
expanded
molding the way
I see the gray

Sun is far away
Stars are also
Moon - too
Yet all of them
Keep the world bright
Beautiful and vibrant
Most of all those all
Keep the world
Alive

My sweetheart
Big eyes of love
You are not that far

Nasty science of life
Wow you and I
Us
Our phantom of the beautiful
The brutal
Surreal , undiscovered
Eroticism ,
That glamorous hedonist art
It is no Karma
We are about to float
[ah - a --- --- yeah]

Grab my hand
I don't know the depth of this abyss
Ready to jump?

I wanted to undress you

I wanted you to crawl like a tigress
I wanted you to show me the danger

I wanted to *******
I wanted to see you dance in strawberry orchard

I wanted to here you moan
I wanted to see a red strawberry griped to your lips

I wanted to exchange vow of silence
I wanted to see you become buoyant

I wanted you to say '**** me more'
I wanted you to fill what words can not fill

I wanted to you be amoral over the codes
I wanted you to flourish like a red poppy

I wanted you to walk with me side by side
I wanted to teach you green, red and blue, black and white

I wanted the strawberry to remark our day
I wanted to see your smile and **** walk

I wanted you to be me
I wanted you to have big eyes

I wanted you
I wanted the whole you

© shanikayrs

She is the ultimate
To what she takes in

She will be the same
Even after heavenly encounters

What she bring out
Will only heal the world

Love of a world
Await inside of her

Waiting to penetrate
Only with art of passion

God will only gets in
To a ****** like Mother Marry

We all are lonely
It is shame
We have been known to each other
For every word we write
Every thought we think
Even middle of same species
We are crying
For being alone
It is shame
Being alone
Lonely trees
In the jungle
Such a shame
Lame trees

I have been part of love triangles
Or you say
Triangle of common interest

Some times I am the absolute winner
Some other times I am the desperate looser
I don't have anything to offer
To keep the cyclic life running
So all of the time
I am the pathetic victim

Searching for awhile
Nearly half a life
Dream doesn't fade
Even middle of abyss
Word I pick
Felt like wrong
No more search
So I seek  

shanikayrs

It comes in a way loneliness to solitude
And the other way around most the time
Knowledge of life keep longing
In a place of saturate

The gurus I went after
All had cost mines of gold
Which happened to pay from very own life
Here onwards terrifying to look in

Creation and the destination
Bringing so much of mingle
To one another in bitter sweet love
What it feels is only what its capable

What now or the immortality
Where immortality hard to be found
Nothing can be given or give up
When they vouch destiny to be create

If it created why to manifest
Why challenge poor for the union
Hello big tree , green grass on thick soil
Open yourself and teach if you know

Mind where you live I don't know
Soul who you are so strange to me
Who I am I have no clue
So your grace I surrender to you

Dear big tree here I bow to you

shanikayrs

Dance of dark - light and gray
Mist and love gracefully sway
Tangle once to the perfect way
Oneness come not to your pray

Live in the mystery
To all its bits and pieces
Go under sun, get dark a little
Talk to him for a while
You may missing his words
Fall in love with that big tree
Shelter to the fullest he reach
While Keep smiling green
For years and years along
Take one more breath
Deep to your soul and let it heal
Be greatful to the wonder of it
Making a moment of life alive
Though they come invisible to you
Close you eyes for a while
When yourself awake and free
See how much you beautifully see
Love and the meaning of peace

shanikayrs

Just to be embrace with
Elegant sedative love
Exuberance of bliss
Uttering to the days of our lives
Orchards with sweetness
Yellow and purple flowers of truth
Recite the story they 've seen
Of the love indefinite

© shanikayrs

Inward -
Desires at the edge of dimensional shift
Sip of a taste - just before you go there
Betrayed life to
Outward -

Let him rest
Let her cry

© shanikayrs

Stars shine on the wrinkling water
ending a journey of billion years
far across the universe
voids, dusts and many hidden secrets
you are the same
if the yesterday is gone

Stone rocks and tropical trees
made their way to glorify dusk
greeting to birds, wind and our kind kids
beauty isn't what light or the dark
you are the same
if tomorrow is gone

Glorious sun shine for himself
Lighting the Alps blue and green
Even though the lake my breath touch
Caught only to star strikes
you are the same
if you live for now

© shanikayrs

Look into the horizon far far away
From the place where we've lost our pride
Warm new hopes, so much of love
Recite a poem in a melody of it's own
Beyond that line sea touches sky

© shanikayrs

This December
         It is too cold
               More than ever
                        Here in Oymyakon
                              A Wolf howls
                                    It is a wretched mourn
                                          Snow is falling
                                          So am I
                                           My dear love
                                           Sasha Gaze

                                        
                                             shanikayrs

In the days of Autumn
When he walk on roads alone
He stoped by to read that book
' Tale of love brining from fairy land'
Fairy came real and they fell in love
When he just finished
Reading that twenty six'th page
That exotics love and peace inside
Married them for lives after this life
Indeed that was a wedding
All this autumn witnesses
Sadly the book haven't enough pages
As him to read until to the life come next
The fairy he loves - became part of his void
Autumn is this,mix of the happy and sad
He will come to next life and wait for the fairy he loves
with the book he read and the book he would write
' Tale of love bringing from the promising land'

shanikayrs

She said
There it is raining
Go out and get wet
I simply asked -

shanikayrs

I am filled with so much of warm love
Wish you were here to share it , my little dove
That will chase away all your cold

shanikayrs

read in sinhala & english*

හඳ
දිදුලන්න
වචනකුදු නොකියාම
හිරුගෙ ආලොකයද
ගත දවන රශ්මියද
විහිදන්න සොම්නසින්
සඳ කිරණෙ සිසිලසින්

හඳ
දිදුලන්න තව ලන්ව
සනසමින් තුන් රැයම
සඳ මඩලෙ කන්තිය
වේවි දරාගත් හැමදෙයම

Beauty keep chanting the ******
In a rhythm exorbitant to love
Pulling the strings of desire
While showing darkness to darkest

Apparently the appreciator
Wake up from the disgrace sleep
Start striping his own words
With a liberating humble smile

Let the universe go ****
And you too take off your clothes
Origin of the meaning of beauty
Worth all your eyes, heart and life

© shanikayrs

Mist in the morning
Invites December
Delicious joy sees
Greening sprouts

- shanikayrs

While I am traveling back home
I wanted to write lengthy poem
Just to jot down - I am existed

Life is a unidirectional flow
flows with the massive force
where the power enough to
destroy and uproot yourself
in an unimaginable way if you
disagree - to certain principals

Yet it is funny - the flow diverts you
and showed up the way against
and dare you to go against

If a blink of a thought is the smallest
fracture of the flow what takes us
I will dive deep into the thought
just get to know - whether it has a way
to turn it up towards the freedom
I always seeking

The sad story is keep happening
like the everything else the truth
it also showing only the illusion
and lost me in a position where
I can't find the way back home

Then just like you awaken from
sleep paralysis - I get up and then
I forcefully convince myself - the destination
will be there in minute - so be normal

Now today I am in a position
Where I can't track down myself
In the pane of universe because
neither X nor Y or the so called cross
not helping me at all
Meantime you also diagnosed me
with the overthinking complex

I should not find myself
in the same place I lost myself
but yet can anyone please answer me
with out the  exaggerated bogus
where this all go
after so many exhausted attempts of
breathing

As a foot note I want to say this
truth is also in my perspective
is an illusion where it comes
gives me the glimpse of that
everything is wonderfully
connected

Track me down and let me live
Or take me to the place I belong

© shanikayrs

Sam - she baked me a Cake
served me with red wine
and with the promise of
candle lights
oh ! then sooner in no time
Wandering through the bookshelves
one to an another to an another
rekindle the candle from
smart sunshine and
tasted the cake while
hot dogs and dark cola
keep fueling the day
oh ! then owl clock stop ticking
pebbles were in the rock glass
burn to intoxicant ....
After a while - in short while
surprising cake has served
with chocolate lava
while I eating crusted pizza
oh ! angle became a *****
then in an another while
I found myself
watching my old day cartoons
well hello two Ds !!

*© (ooops I don't hold right - feel free to take)

To generation to generation
they have passed
the epic beauty of
Birches !

The birches
it always
brings the
green shelter
written to the name of
the God I wish to be
Sun !

The Birches
where I sit
lost and find
celestial moves
geometry and
Love !

© shanikayrs
*carved on the bark of the birch I used to climb

Where in the both dark and light
Mingled and sing happy songs
I tagged a kiss in the bits of lights
Passed to the sky with my fingertips

It will sail along with the winds
Might even through the storms and hurricanes
There at the moment time won't count
My kiss will reach to the fairy land it meant

Take it with your delicate hands
Walk into it with your fairly steps
Keep it safe in your warmest place
Until the day comes to trace me back

© shanikayrs

Before the moon
  The waves
Before the life
  The water
Before the horizon
  The wind
Before you and I
  The us

There will be a moment
we all have to climb a mountain
fight a battle and learn the art
a moment, to smile with your memories
with light and cherished heart

There will be a moment
you to fly above the all odds
what you never and never will understand
drop down the weight your body carries
even the wings letting you to fly

There will be a moment
you learn your greatness
talk to your heart conscience
close your eyes and sleep as man

There will always be a moment
you to learn the universe
feel it - accept it - be matter of it
and embrace the beauty of nothingness

There - that will be the time
you find your beginning and the
ultimate destination of the journey
you madly walked

© shanikayrs

A broken butterfly
fallen to my world of silence
bleeding colors of her wings
started to pour through my soul
to an instance of wonder
my world lights up in color

I slowly closed my eyes
In a breath after
I found myself
flying with the butterfly
to a divine horizon

© shanikayrs

I lost in the subtlety of the ocean
somebody save me I am drowning
Oh !
never mind I was dead long before
aimless lifeless feather I am
Oh !
images are all distort and off the track
expressed by a hand of a rage or madness
let me live
let me live
let me know what life is

Queen !!
she rules the world
tigers and the gladiators
He dominate his queen
in the royal bed
make the world intoxicate
Grapes and wine
ecstasy overflowing
life is much exotic
in the days of vintage

You and I
we dreamed together
under the Roberrosia tree
with all the pink halo of
flowers

You read me ,

For the first time
I loved for the love
what I was afraid of

Billions of tiny thoughts
fought all together
to come out and
say something back
something meaningful

When the harsh storm
making me numb
Roberrosia dream of us
make me awaken

Before I go mad

bring me the happiness
form the flicks of air swirls
tangling around me

take me to that promising land
from the short delicate breath
I take in take out

make me sleep with sweet dreams
in the bed of loft clouds
comes in the evening sky

bring me the vibrant life
in that day - never ends

Let all the delighted magic
about to come
let it go

all the rejoice time
anchored bottom of your heart
let it go

all the beauty of her
exaggerations and the sense you felt
let it go - let it all go

all the promises , overwhelmed sweet words
let it go - let them all go

all the hopes for reincarnation
magical myth of do it over
let it go

my dear - empty your heart
let each and every thing to go
go further and further
as you never can touch
never can feel - never can hear
never can see
let it all go

so comes love

What if the life can be ,
insanely dive into the bright blue ocean of love
for a day or two
feel s it like life time of never ending spring
everything is so bright and mild
promise to our breath
for us to be eternal , this moment be immortal
love is the morning dew ,
golden sand and evening sea breeze
love is the joy of peace , purest wonder in life
love is the only language it speaks

MY HEART
          is in pain
            wish if you are a human
to feel a little
        of this pain,
I AM DYING