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Selena Irulan Jun 2013
It seems like all you get from me is

Angry glares and blank stares

Not because of an absence of love

Just simply because,

Emotionally I’m not here

I sure do wish that life was still sweet

Like the candy I would eat

Back around the time I was about

Ten

Back then I didn't have anyone

To call a friend

Let alone a future husband as yourself

Lately you haven’t been feeling like

You’re treated accordingly to your wealth

I know this

Sometimes it gets to hard to focus

I get lost between your desires

And the necessities of my own

Bitter sweet nightmares I dream

In the comfort of my home

How is it possible that we are

All together

Yet, we are still

All alone

That’s the song we sing every

Single day

And through it all, here you are because

You decided to stay
Selena Irulan Sep 2013
Turning your back, so easily done
When all the while you are the one
Who began the war, increasing the fire
Just for your pleasure, your sheer desire.

My feelings fall short from your mind
Revenge I seek, and I shall find.
I did nothing, yet I pay the price
What a friendship, how sweet, how nice.

Nothing left but an empty heart
Ripped from my chest, and torn apart.
Nothing falls short of who I am
Letting you win..I'll be ******!!

Standing tall, firmly on the ground
Nothing you do will bring me down.
My hands are washed of you forever
Lost in lies, no longer together.

A better person I prove to be
While your true colors, others shall see.
Dim, and dull, boring and grey
Guess there's nothing else to say.....

Except goodbye and farewell!!!
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
With the mind
turning and twisting
in the agony of a heart
squeezed dry like a sponge with despair
I pace to and fro
in a bedroom's dimly lit silences
as a caged animal
hungering and thirsting
for the scent of a liberating oasis.
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
Your brother's keeper
Let the truth be known

Co-operate CEO's, Politicians, Government Agencies,
Drug Dealers, Preachers, Terrorist, even your Neighbor

Who do we trust
When it's all in the name of greed
For the love of money, power, and prestige
When does this all stop being a game
That we live so selfishly by fame
In putting together
The Master Plan
In robbing the sick, the poor, the elderly
All who our blindsided of a scam
With business as usual
It's all about me and mine
Have we lost our way to committing more crimes
Or is making a deal with the devil
The only way in this lifetime
Selena Irulan Nov 2013
In the shadows she is strong
but the sunlight hides her truth
She blooms in the winter
but scurries from the spring
knowledge of faith
doors to freedom
further they open
for her to just walk through
but yet she stays
watching it open and close
like the talking mouths of people
who come to see her
then leave
She is the girl who is
the one who holds her own
she doesn't want the search light to shine on her
or the ocean of change to move her
she is contempt
yet yearning for more
afraid to just reach out and grab it
Selena Irulan Jun 2013
The world is like the shell of a pearl or the well of a girl

Whose soul is too deep in the past and her fate took a spin in a curl

Never to be straight again because the fate of men

is designed for not even the most complex minds to comprehend

So when I am told the creation of life is nothing more than a

scientific blunder

I start to laugh cause every question answered first started with wonder

Maybe diseases were all mistakes too, why did my cousin get cancer

But we all get lost in the same question that we will truly never get answered

What is God? Where did existence truly start?

And why do some men think with their minds while others go with their heart?

There has to be a bigger purpose because with all the conspiracies and lies

There has to be an ultimate truth beyond the limits of the endless skies

Through the changes life brings, I’m Consistent in my need to be consistent

I’m provincial on the topic of ideology but when I pray my mind travels distant

I ask the Lord for wisdom on all days, no matter cloudy, rainy or sunny

And pray for him to take my soul If ever I become bitter by the love of money

Will I live to see a day more peaceful than my fellow mankind’s history?

Religious warfare, the line between right and wrong will forever remain a mystery

Some men never distinguish the evils in their own temperament and morality

Some men even bring harm to others, just in the name of an increased secure salary

Even though there is so much all around me, I love the ease of living day by day

The past is triumph; the present is a gift so I know my purpose has not gone astray

Could I be inspiration to help crying souls to endure the pain of the strife in life

Could I be the voice of the young that cuts deceit and destruction like a knife

And I could do all this if you take in my love for stanzas and lines

The world sometimes seems pointless, but my purpose; I found mine
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
Stagnant time
Time not once counted
Between thoughts disconnected
Relief escapes me in my hour
My hour of stagnant time
That chews upon my soul
Lingering and cold
Like a clear winter's eve
In my hour
There is no one
There is nothing
Just time
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
There was no color
This time
There were only
Melting faces
Shaking hands
And pop rocks flowing through my veins
The laughs were
Continuous
Exploding moons
Dancing walls
Mobs of people stealthily stalking me
The stars above
Glimmered hard
Sadness was
Overwhelming
Selena Irulan Nov 2013
My Love does not come from you
It is given in spite
I will love you always
no matter what our plight

You have no control over me
no actions can undo you
I must Love you forever
Even if your feelings unglue

I must forgive
I must give my whole
I cannot stop
I understand my role
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
When the night falls
A  divine woman lights
Millions and millions of lamps
In her big blue house

When the day falls
A divinely bright man enters
In his Golden Chariot
Into her house out shining
Her millions and millions of lamps

Both the woman and the man
Follow the commands
Of their divine master
Some call him God
And others call him
Goddess Nature
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
What is in a name?
If it gets a lot of fame
Satan writes poems like God
Raskal is a wise poet
Viper is  abeautiful poetic creeper
Crystal Heart’s poetry is really very smart
Dawn to dusk writes poems with a great twist
One may be called with a beautiful name
His life might be full of shame
Some write poems with many fictitious names
The fellow poets call them by names
Your soul is more important than your so called name
Life is a mysterious and miraculous game
We leave this mythical world after playing our parts
Our aim should be winning more and more noble hearts
Selena Irulan Nov 2013
Moon
is just
a sliver
a cup
of light
in Sky
all shades
of blue
to
blindwhite
mooncurve
to cradle
my spine
Selena Irulan Nov 2013
Passion burns within me
like the embers of a
thousand suns

my parents would **** me

but

his soft smooth skin slowly
wraps around me like a
sensual snake

OUR HEARTS RACE AS ONE

I would eat from the tree
of knowledge if it
wanted me

my parents will **** me

but

what colors are
painted across his in
The Art of Passion
i awoke from a dream to write this poem.
Selena Irulan Sep 2013
I craved you like plants needed rain. You should have used your brain when you were untamed. I got tired of hearing all the lies and my crys. I forgave you for all those times, that described how your heart felt so unorganized. When i returned the favor to you, you didn't want to apologize
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
What is only in our heads can be more powerful than what is visable outside our minds
And what is born from out imagination is more powerful than what is born in our eyes
Selena Irulan Aug 2013
My new thing now
is teaching lessons to the boys that hurt me
in a selfless effort to try an make them into men.
So I break their hearts
-but only a little-
a fraction of how they shattered mine.
Selena Irulan Dec 2013
This anguish is so unreal. I forgot it was there.
I never needed anything as badly as I need to stop this.
My thoughts running astray, my mood grey.
You calling me names, saying i was insane.
I'm so scared of myself now.
What could i do next ?
I drink for different reasons but
the outcome is always hell
I need to relax but my thoughts keep reeling back
To the end of the night.
Screaming at you? I wasn't even angry.
Just under the influence blankly
alcohol makes you see the world
as it is in truth, and what you see in its absence.

I'm sorry I scared you, too i had no clue..
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
life beats hard in my neck
your pulse creates a duet
when my melody becomes erratic,
will you be pounding my chest?
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
When I first met you
I felt like I had known you forever,
telling you my secrets
and what I didn't want ever.
you listened to me
I bet you thought I'd never end,
who would have thought
we would become more than just friends.
Over a period of time,
I got to know the real you.
A boy so caring and gentle,
with a heart so true.
You've survived your life
with hurt and loneliness by your side.
I told you I'd never leave
because of the feelings I have inside.
I know you
like no one I have ever known,
and sometimes I wonder
what I'd do if you were gone?
So I have decided
time answers all.
If it is meant to be
time will remove the wall.
I love the way we are together,
you can always make me smile.
Will it ever really be forever?
I guess I will have to wait awhile.
Time will reveal, what lies ahead
but always remember
what I have said.
Meeting you has changed my life
and I really love you so,
the feelings I feel for you
I am never letting go.
Remember me always
and I will too.
I always think of
me and you
Selena Irulan Dec 2013
They say "A picture's worth a thousand words,"
and  it's true.
Pictures tell of things that happened.
They tell emotions, struggles and missing pieces to puzzles
They catch you in your truest form and
you cannot lie,
not then or now,
because pictures never die.
Pictures are too clear sometimes--
Too harsh, revealing details
We left blurred in our minds.
A picture is a freeze in time;
Words, that can't be spoken.
But the one thing I like the most,
Pictures don't lie...
You can't hide your feelings in a picture.
And you can't lie to the camera.

So many memories from this life
And some will be forgotten but they're
a time in the past because pictures always last
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
The stars come down to earth

On a special plight

To make our lives bright

For kids inexpressible delight

The earth becomes the sky

Our imagination soars very high

The light drives out darkness

As knowledge does ignorance

Even the angels enjoy this night

holding the kids so tight

The moon claps with a shout

even terrorists stops their fight

All religions love light

It is the heavenly sight

May light dawn in our heart!

Loving people is the greatest art
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
Thought is poetry
to create beauty, is thought itself.
to create mayhem, is thought itself.
to inspire fear, is thought itself.
to inspire love, is thought itself.

we only think in the language we know.
labeling
picturing
identifying
what we do in every single thought.

feeling
seeing
knowing
what we want, what we need
what we are meant to have
who we are
who we love
who we are meant to find

All is thought, in the deepest way,
poetry for the best and worst of days
Selena Irulan Sep 2013
I use to love you.
But things have changed
it probably was lust considering the fact that you were lame.
Untouchable beyond imagination i grieve of your presence and the yonder of your blessings. Sometimes its not what you say but how you say it  the impact of your emotions..
Selena Irulan Sep 2013
Listening to old songs bring back old  memories. Sitting on the beach watching the sunset as you hear developed concepts. Feet in the water, its so warm like chocolate chip cookies come from the oven. I never knew you'd die that day, it did something deep inside of me that i couldn't portray. The thought of you still lingers in my mind, i can still smell your Cologne, and breath mint spray. When we kissed it was like our souls were intertwined with pure passion of art displays. i think of you everyday, i hope you know that. That drunk driver should have watched where he was going....
Selena Irulan Sep 2013
Your insecurities change,
all that you hear,
who you are inside,
and how you appear.

It decides what you do,
and what you see,
it lessens what you want,
and who you'll be.

It won't let your dreams,
go as high as the sky,
you stay on the ground,
though you're able to fly.

Won't put your foot forward,
so you go with the flow,
too scared of goodbye,
to think of hello.

You're less than your best,
and a little too late,
your shoulders now carry,
a little more weight.

Slow your mind down,
and stop holding back,
'cause you are what you are,
and not what you lack.
Selena Irulan Dec 2013
My mind never sleeps my thoughts defeat me.
I just need some sleep.
my head spinning round and
round like a merry go round.
how do you sleep with a broken heart when
the one you want is so far gone?
Thoughts control my emotions leaving
me open. My mind is effortless it
leaves my breathless. its amazing how our
hearts and minds work.
A wonderful creation of art graven.
We all have the same functions
but different conjunctions.
When the mind never sleeps
the soul slowly departs the body
leaving an empty shell where once a
person dwelled.
Sometimes i feel like my life is a dream.
At 3 am i'm tossing and turning laying
restlessly..
Hoping one day i'll finally wake up and be stress free.
Selena Irulan Sep 2013
The rain holds our hearts
together forever more
Our souls dance in love
As our smiles spread the shore
I hold your hand as we walk
Knowing that you're not there
In my heart and in my mind
you surround me everywhere
As I speak to you in silence
My words I know you hear
When I touch your body softly
there is nothing that we fear
For love is not a figment
nor a dream we wish to wake
We are the proof of true love
That no one can forsake.
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
Some say anger is a wasted emotion,
Id argue that anger is why we are free from Hawaii to the Atlantic Ocean

Some say anger only breed’s violence and hate,
I disagree; anger is the reason for every revolution to date

Some peoples anger burns hot and takes control,
Mine kept chilled, a reptilian soul

A warm blooded mammal with a cold reptilian soul, Trying to make sure anger is used correctly from the far east to the close to home west.

Einstein dared to solve Mc squared.
So I will teach y’all to be angry, sharpened teeth bared

Then you will be taught,
How to teach. For anger with out purpose is for naught

I fight for change,
Till I stand limp on the big bad mans firing range

Some say anger is for those with nothing left
I say anger is the beating behind this planets chest

Some say anger is for outcasts and bums.
Yes anger is for outcasts. The too short the too tall, the too smart the too dumb
The too fat the too skinny, the too poor the too rich
Anger is for outcasts and bums.

Some say anger is a wasted emotion, yet for me, anger drives me when I write these poems
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
Painful and a struggle
Filled with tease and more jokes please
Life is joy, love and fear
All of which will cause you to shed a tear
Life is big smiles and small frowns
You'll always have those ups and downs
Life is passion and frustration
But at least it is filled with color and illustration
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
I’ve wondered always,
If I follow life, or if
My life follows me
Selena Irulan Sep 2013
So many layers I must reveal
So many hats I must wear
So many faces I must present

You see some clearly
Others you have yet to even glance upon

Please do not mistake me for someone who gives up easily
Likewise do not mistake me for a fool

I have learned to separate what I want to be to you
And what I am to you
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
I am fly on the wall in the wrong room
I wish I could just fall and be swept by a broom
My eyes have to disguise these un-forsaken views
I come to you lord as I sit in these pews
Don’t leave me in despair
My heart can’t survive this tear
As the fear fills me in my body grows thin
Brittle and cracked as I feel it attack
Release and shed a tear letting all those hear
The level my pain as I wash it down the drain
There is no right there is no wrong
It’s like there is nowhere I belong
On this wall I lay, stuck so I must stay
Selena Irulan Aug 2013
I see straight through you
You're just flesh and bones
But even x-ray vision
Can't show through the lies that you've told

The veils that you've woven
Your truths lie in shadows
The code of honor
That your words have shattered

I see straight through you
And into the light
But each lie you tell
Takes you further from right

I have x-ray vision
But the truth of it is
It's your lies that blind me
But i know the truth lives
Selena Irulan Oct 2013
Your kisses are sins
Your kisses feel good against my skin
your kisses are deadly like poison
your kisses are deep like the ocean
your kisses express emotion
Your kisses are my potion
Your kisses give me devotion
Your kisses are loyal whispers
Will i ever get to taste them again?
Selena Irulan Dec 2013
Your my drug that i need
the substance of Love is an addictive drug.
one dose is never enough.
My heart races every time i hear your voice  
thoughts come rushing in like waves on the shore
(One beat, two)
i crave it in my mind, body and soul.
it takes a toll on me leaving me weakened by his words.
(Three beats, four)
Stories he told that didn't add up.
it just made me crave him more.
(Five beats, six)
To hear his voice whisper sweet nothings
in my ear.
i always felt like he was
throwing darts at my heart aiming to ****
i forgave over and over again
hoping one day he'd change and the pain would end
(Seven beats, eight)
Those words i use to hold so dear, now gone
Deep into the ocean they went along with those dark eyes i resent
(Nine beats, Ten ... . .)
So i ask you, where were your emotions
when we were together?
Buried deep in your mind or just known but hard to find in an ocean?

— The End —