This anguish is so unreal. I forgot it was there. I never needed anything as badly as I need to stop this. My thoughts running astray, my mood grey. You calling me names, saying i was insane. I'm so scared of myself now. What could i do next ? I drink for different reasons but the outcome is always hell I need to relax but my thoughts keep reeling back To the end of the night. Screaming at you? I wasn't even angry. Just under the influence blankly alcohol makes you see the world as it is in truth, and what you see in its absence.