If I come up in life
People are jealous of me
If I am a failure, they take pity on me
I have the guts to face enemies
But I can’t bear sympathies even from friends
I am born to win but not to run away from life’s problems
If there is a problem, I will try to solve it
If there is no remedy, I will leave it
I don’t want to ***** in the dark
but I light a lamp and play in the park

Without a promise in this cold world
You carried me
9 months without guarantee for
What the future held
You believed in me before I could
Believe in myself
The core of my soul all started with your love
You reading me books as you as you
Rocked in the rocking chair
You put your life behind you
Just to give me a chance
To see a life worth living
A life that you felt you didn’t have yourself

Without a promise in the world
You raised me for 18 years
Not knowing what the future held
You taught me how to be a woman
How to value my true self
Raised me like a Queen because you
Showed me royalty and loyalty
I can’t ever show you my gratitude
There is not enough gold or money
In the world to pay you back

Now you have a promise in this world
I will always love you I will never abandon you
Because there is no greater bond than
What a daughter has with her mother
No one will ever replace you in my
Heart my memory or my soul
I know God exists
I see it through your energy
Your courage your strength
Your giving nature
Your will to carry on and live life
To leave the past behind you
And to see a brighter path
You give me strength to be the
Best I can be
No matter what I accomplish
You will always be
The best part of me

To love one so perfectly made
is to surely face heartache.
To look in lovely chocolate eyes
is a vow I must truly take.

I must bath in her love
In perfection I surely wade
I am hers and she is mine
our bond; eternity is laid.

Oh, to tarry with her for eternity more
is a vow I must truly take

Don't let your words cloud your mind
For each word spoken
Lays doubt in line
Troubles with liberties,
With words you use to speak
May be arrogant that play
To match for defeat

With the whole world watching
Trafficing of spoken words
Leads to compound interest
Into the cause for wars, racism,
Political mouth piece
On solid soil
Spreading words around in this world
Could get you on a list
Jeapordizing relations of all man kind

So step back for a moment
Before you speak
Become quiescent
Don't let your words
Cloud your mind

depression. its a battle i once faught
not really, but thats what i once thought
the truth is, its never gonna leave me, cause its always gonna need me
i still get down and always will, so when i do, its always gonna feed me
the world wants me to fight it, to beat it away
to let it know that it has no place to stay
but thats not true, cause its a part of me
and accepting thats like paying the hardest fee
so taking a pill each morning might help me see things 'the right way'
but its still gonna surface, not like each day can be the bright day
i know thats it normal, and i'm leaning to embrace it
rather than fighting and pushing, trying to replace it
cause when i get down, man i fall through the floor
i lock my heart in a room, and it breaks down the door
emotions are living, they want to spread wings and soar
and i know thats its true, cause i feel them right to my core

When I first met you
I felt like I had known you forever,
telling you my secrets
and what I didn't want ever.
you listened to me
I bet you thought I'd never end,
who would have thought
we would become more than just friends.
Over a period of time,
I got to know the real you.
A boy so caring and gentle,
with a heart so true.
You've survived your life
with hurt and loneliness by your side.
I told you I'd never leave
because of the feelings I have inside.
I know you
like no one I have ever known,
and sometimes I wonder
what I'd do if you were gone?
So I have decided
time answers all.
If it is meant to be
time will remove the wall.
I love the way we are together,
you can always make me smile.
Will it ever really be forever?
I guess I will have to wait awhile.
Time will reveal, what lies ahead
but always remember
what I have said.
Meeting you has changed my life
and I really love you so,
the feelings I feel for you
I am never letting go.
Remember me always
and I will too.
I always think of
me and you

Paint my life
Paint it with bright colors
Not with a brush
But with a pen

Write me an epic
Sing me a serenade
Let the words flow like water down a glacier
Pure and free

Wind rushing against the autumn burnt trees
Its voice howling, moaning with warning of Jack Frost in her midst

A piece of me dies
Along with the season
A new phase of life begins
A time to embrace

I deleted our texts.

I erased all your voicemails.

Why?

because everything I see reminds me of you,
reminds me of the pain you caused me,
of the burn you gave me.

so I erased it all
like it never existed

hopefully I can do the same
with my mind nonexistence

In many ways we are so close
yet always out of reach
Defenses we both put in place
that neither one could breach

Though put in place to keep us safe
from pain and fear and doubt
They have the added side effect
of keeping others out

When finally I crossed your path
and wished to set you free
The gates were locked so long ago
you could not find the key

And so this space between you and I
remains unto this day
I sit and wait while you decide
if there’s another way

In the depths of my mind,
Everything was figured out
And I was sure of how we would be:
A typical couple infused with happiness,
With lives that were worry free…

Is this how it is meant to be?
That when one finds true happiness,
The struggles begin to run deep?
That the little things begin to grow in power,
Causing everything I imagined to simply be devoured?

Can it be true, that I was wrong,
That love does more than set your heart free?

Well…as I lay here and
Await for the answer to strike from above,
I will continue the path I've chosen,
And refuse to believe in the dark side of love.

You are a frog in the well

And you can’t see beyond the wall

But I am a fish in the ocean

Nobody can stop my lively motion



You think the water in your well is the pacific

And don’t understand the wise counsel of a critic

I travel as long as I can

Swimming is really my fun



Only the dolphin can match me in the run

I feel why I can’t fly like a swan

I can go deep into the sea

The eagle flies very high with a spree



I really pity you , Mr  frog

Your thinking is really vague

And your movement is a mere hop

You will never come to the top

They say "A picture's worth a thousand words,"
and  it's true.
Pictures tell of things that happened.
They tell emotions, struggles and missing pieces to puzzles
They catch you in your truest form and
you cannot lie,
not then or now,
because pictures never die.
Pictures are too clear sometimes--
Too harsh, revealing details
We left blurred in our minds.
A picture is a freeze in time;
Words, that can't be spoken.
But the one thing I like the most,
Pictures don't lie...
You can't hide your feelings in a picture.
And you can't lie to the camera.

So many memories from this life
And some will be forgotten but they're
a time in the past because pictures always last

Everything happens for a reason
Just never seems to be the right season
I won’t let you put these dreams to sleep
They will stay strong like my heart beat
I will no longer accept defeat
Conquering this mountain is no longer a choice
Rather it is a way to speak my voice
Nothing can stop this storm now
I am on my way to flip your world upside down
You will no longer wear a frown
Because you will always be happy as long as I am around

Your brother's keeper
Let the truth be known

Co-operate CEO's, Politicians, Government Agencies,
Drug Dealers, Preachers, Terrorist, even your Neighbor

Who do we trust
When it's all in the name of greed
For the love of money, power, and prestige
When does this all stop being a game
That we live so selfishly by fame
In putting together
The Master Plan
In robbing the sick, the poor, the elderly
All who our blindsided of a scam
With business as usual
It's all about me and mine
Have we lost our way to committing more crimes
Or is making a deal with the devil
The only way in this lifetime

A gleaming thought projected from the lady so undetected
inside the fenced gate where she starred at the stones
the ghostly silhouettes underneath
a frightening owl shined his beak
Summer brighter than years before
She sits much nearer to the bedroom door
...for in shortened shorts and tightest shirt...a silence overcomes the earth
Waiting for the golden hour to chime......the lady fades away in time

Listening to old songs bring back old  memories. Sitting on the beach watching the sunset as you hear developed concepts. Feet in the water, its so warm like chocolate chip cookies come from the oven. I never knew you'd die that day, it did something deep inside of me that i couldn't portray. The thought of you still lingers in my mind, i can still smell your Cologne, and breath mint spray. When we kissed it was like our souls were intertwined with pure passion of art displays. i think of you everyday, i hope you know that. That drunk driver should have watched where he was going....

There was no color
This time
There were only
Melting faces
Shaking hands
And pop rocks flowing through my veins
The laughs were
Continuous
Exploding moons
Dancing walls
Mobs of people stealthily stalking me
The stars above
Glimmered hard
Sadness was
Overwhelming

Our love was a flower,
but somebody came and plucked all the petals off.

Everyone around us took one, and they passed it around with whispers.
The wind took them and shoved them in our ears,
and we ignored them.

But our love is nothing without color.

I am not actually alive
Really it is true I am not actually alive

You think I am because I look and breathe like I am alive but deep down inside I am dead like a cut flower that lies in a vase.

Sitting the there bestowed upon you to gaze at in glory for the few days I have left with my beauty before it wilts and shows you my true colors.

The dry aridness of this place has withered up my body and soul.  

The cold has reached my heart, I am only with myself laughing out the true colors of my joy and mixing my sour tears of sorrow.

I am a woman of defeat that has reached his end. separated from my foundation I am no longer alive.

I lay here surviving on what is left stowed away before my better half was cut from me.

Could it be the result of

Hindsight

That has me walking through this

Blind night

Or maybe its the memories

Of what I thought would be my

Destiny

Sadly, I am hurting badly

And no one can understand

The reasons behind my

Demanding demands

Everyday I strive to prosper

And stay alive

Though I can’t change the past

I do my best to enjoy my life

It’s bitter sweet to be present

In the present

Yet its hard to meet, a pleasant

Peasant

Money is still a major issue

Everyday is all about survival

Love and compassion are vital

Yet to many live to hate

I just want to be respected and great

Life as a kid was so ideal

No worries in the world

No problems no stress

It’s so hard to live in the worst

And be able to still wish for the best

I should have expected the obvious

For it is so clear God is here

So there isn't anything that I

Fear

Expect the idea

Of fear

Your kisses were deadly like poison.
Emotions are in oceans
if you think about all
The people who've died in
them unseemly unnoticed.
I was focused on your
eyes because i could see the lies,
betrayed at
16 your mind wonders with ease
so please save your lies, my cries, and be wise.

What is in a name?
If it gets a lot of fame
Satan writes poems like God
Raskal is a wise poet
Viper is  abeautiful poetic creeper
Crystal Heart’s poetry is really very smart
Dawn to dusk writes poems with a great twist
One may be called with a beautiful name
His life might be full of shame
Some write poems with many fictitious names
The fellow poets call them by names
Your soul is more important than your so called name
Life is a mysterious and miraculous game
We leave this mythical world after playing our parts
Our aim should be winning more and more noble hearts

People misinterpret the meaning of life. Like the word love tossed back and forth. Honestly, i don't think anyone knows the true meaning of love until they're willing to give their life to someone else and switch the glove. Well, there aren't many people with an open mind concept left. Generation after generation pass down false hope, that love is just a word under oath .The question is are you ready for real love ?

You say you don't know,
you pretend not to see
When your vision is obscured
by a reluctance to believe
You claim it's me,
who's in the wrong
When we've both been broken
for far too long
You say you're seeking a bed
A shelter from the storm
Whilst ignoring my arms open
And hands so warm
You imagine I'm lost
Lamenting, feeling blue
When you're 100% right
(but I'm not telling you)
I'd rather die
Than suffer your "sorries"
I've rather drown
in water than worries
I'm sick of the script
So tired of the lies
I'm using emotional scissors
To sever these ties

Looks like this town got the best of us
Like we already dont stress enough
We really aren’t different I do many things
That you do
Maybe that’s the reason I can see right thru you
When I get a chance, I try to make you smile
Take you away and let you stay a while
Because you deserve that, I swear you do
Just like you see the beauty in me I see the beauty
In you
Smile for me
And not that fake smile you give the rest of your peers
I’m talking about that smile you wear when you’re
holding back tears
I love that
I love the real you
The you in pain
The you that is so hard to maintain
Because thats what I see even when you’re not
Trying to show it
Sometimes I feel like I’m your medicine
Matter of fact I know it
Let me please you..
In ways you aren't use to
I wont ever use you
Just enhance the way you think
The way you take it all in
I wanna be in your corner when
You win
Because thats how you love someone
And I love you everyday and night
I’ll go the deepest depths of left
To make sure you're alright

I lay in bed and i hear the rain
coming down on  my window pane.
it sounds so peaceful and calm.
But memories come back haunting
me more and more..
So send for an angel to watch
over me while i sleep.
Keep all the doors and windows locked
so his soul wont bother me.
he'll knock and shout open the door please.
His voice is so sweet but mean.
i'll crawl under my covers as he beats
once he's in i'll scream. He hovers over me
just when he's about to make his move
i awaken from my dream.
Nightmares the scare i cannot bare
save me from despair.

The vivid colors,
Through my eyes,
I see.

They remind me of what’s
Meant to be.

If my life were lived blind of
Everything,

Then I suppose I’d only know of
What my other senses bring.

It’s a shame,
The amount of complaints
Each moment summons.

Especially when,
If I started counting my blessings
Right now,
I’d already be in the dozens.

I’ll fall in love with every street corner,
I’ll fall madly in love with the sea,
And I’ll think of every grain of sand;
It’s where I need to be.
The only place that lets me breathe,
The only place for me.

A pair of converse
Simple enough
Ratty and torn
Lying on the ground
Missing half of a shoelace
Holes near the toe

In some eyes tattered and trash
To others it is a statement of love,
But also caution
A step into the highly guarded soul

White dotted lace lines
Swerve and curl along the sides
As if they were the life lines of a palm
With each turn bringing one closer to its memories and tales

If only our shoes could talk...what would they say?

Listen closely

All this face
With no lace
Running a race
With no place
All this nerves
Rejecting life &
All its space

When lies make it better
but make it burn worse

when friendship denies you
true comfort and safe

Where trust is planted
doesn't always make the flower grow

compassion and belief
shrink and die beneath the snow

defeat controls you
and that final feeling of loss

the dryness of feelings
too dry for tears

heaviness of heart
ache in mind

what would you do?
when you loose your step?

Dear Heart.
Please take your time to love fall in love again, don’t bail.
Your time will come.
There are those who would **** to see you fail.

Dear Heart.
You are so frail,
Let it go to Jesus.
And he’ll provide you your wings to sail.

Dear Heart.
You are too swift to fall for lies.
Relax assured in the rested truth.
I know you are incredibly wise.

Dear Heart.
I can only do so much for you.
Be strong.
I’m sorry for what I put you through.

Dear Heart.
I can’t promise you won’t hurt anymore,
But one thing I can guarantee
I’ll give you what you need to soar.

Don’t give up on me yet.

Here I've found some dusty knots
I forget how they were tied
I wish I'd written diagrams
So I could break them when I tried

Instead I left them tangled up
So tight I'd pulled the lines
'til every one was all the rest
Each one another entwined

I pushed, I pulled, I clawed and bit
Each of the knots held strong
And now I know why here they stayed
Hidden away so long

I'll box, I'll hide, I'll stash away
Once more without a trace
But deep inside I'll want to know
Why I tied the **** things in the first place

Life is really such a strange place
You have different issuses and problems
You don't know how to face

People tell you "take one problem at a time"
By then, you've lost your marbles and your **** mind

One minute your learning to talk
The next your learning to walk
Just when you think you've mastered all the task
Life turns around and kicks you right in the ***

It's really a strange life we all try to lead
But somehow, it's really a life we all seem to need.

Beauty lies deep with in
Although we may not always defend
With the heart you never want to pretend
Seek out the beauty to the living end
My heart is blank script ready to be written
The beat is gone
It just wanting for the melody to come along
An empty casket ready to be filled
My heart is ready to be claimed
I am ready to be tamed
Come find me
You have two feet
Every time I search or come near
You run away in fear
I’m done chasing
My heart is in no condition to keep this pace up
Your time of me looking for you is up
Don’t shed a tear my heart is hear
But it is not moving so don’t miss out
Cause I’m not going to hold out

In the shadows she is strong
but the sunlight hides her truth
She blooms in the winter
but scurries from the spring
knowledge of faith
doors to freedom
further they open
for her to just walk through
but yet she stays
watching it open and close
like the talking mouths of people
who come to see her
then leave
She is the girl who is
the one who holds her own
she doesn't want the search light to shine on her
or the ocean of change to move her
she is contempt
yet yearning for more
afraid to just reach out and grab it

Breathing you in...
Inhaling every scent of you,
Drinking you completely..
For your sweetness is so true.
Touching your exterior..
The finest known to me,
Holding your heart..
Counting every single beat.
Kissing your lips..
The softness so define,
Cradling your body..
With these arms of mine.
Entrapping your soul..
Making you mine forever,
Loving you endlessly,
Praying we'll always be together.

With the mind
turning and twisting
in the agony of a heart
squeezed dry like a sponge with despair
I pace to and fro
in a bedroom's dimly lit silences
as a caged animal
hungering and thirsting
for the scent of a liberating oasis.

Sometimes I wonder if my ambition is too much. The word success is what I eat for breakfast, dinner, and lunch. I breath goals and unknown destinations. Roads that lead in different directions. I Hope for opportunities that lead me one step closer to a dream worth holding. I've lost  people I've known my entire life due to my selfishness. Or maybe it was my intent motivation. So maybe one day once I've reached my destination we can all reunite as one to talk about our accomplishments.

Painful and a struggle
Filled with tease and more jokes please
Life is joy, love and fear
All of which will cause you to shed a tear
Life is big smiles and small frowns
You'll always have those ups and downs
Life is passion and frustration
But at least it is filled with color and illustration

I do not feel you in my heart-
that which drums on endlessly
and dull, devoid of most art,
struggling in spineless pulse
to find hemo-globe and not a hearse.

Sometimes I do not even feel my chest
hurtling blood into my veins
though I'm sure it rushes, while I rest,
at near hundred miles a minute-

No, i do not feel you pound in my heart.
I only feel you in my lungs,
breathing steadily through my nose
or heavy by my tongue-
you rush through my neck,
you rise and fall in all my bronchi--

and soft you travel in my body.

Cant Sleep,
Too much on my mind,
Think too deep,
Might not want what I find,
Reality sets in,
Leaves me heart struck,
Not knowing what to say so I just say ****!
Close my eyes,
What do I see,
Still see those happy filled days with you next to me,
Time not stopping,
But the Love still in keep,
Wanting a better day to come I then drift off to sleep...

These are the moments,
When I truly pray,
Please God,
Hear everything I have to say.

Bless this family,
And this little girl,
She has affected all our lives,
And became part of our world.

She is strong,
She is brave,
But with your guiding light,
We will know she is safe.