Good morning
splashing a sunrise across my
pillow to remember only
fifteen days before the
sky dreams of dirt, rich
ripe and golden

all the clouds can do
is watch

I'm broken
Not bent
I need to remove all this awful
That weighs down on my soul
I'm skeptical
For all the right reasons
But I'm at a new low
Beyond suicidal thoughts
I know that will solve nothing
I've reached the ultimate zero
And I'm ******* dying
I'm starved for love and validation
I'm told I don't need
I'm hurting so much
I'm yearning for someone to hold me
And I'm so tired of crying myself to sleep
Making kittens suicidal
Heaving silent wails
And desperate cries for help in
The never ending wavepool
Of life that doesn't hear the weak
And emotionally disabled
Beg for equality
And plead for
Love
So God if You're listening
Please ease all this hate
Breeze away all this pain
Because I've been hurting
For ten long lonely years
And I need some validation
Right about now

waterpark joys
      three growing boys
              wavepool's laughing noise!

for basketball and borrowed books
     swimming in the wavepool - the joy in their looks!
                 deep dish pizza that cooks...


                                 Yes.