I still can't get over the fact that you said goodbye.
All those tears I cried.
All those wounds I have cut.
I never felt enough.
Yea i get it, your new family is better.
But i am your blood,
your youngest daughter.
I was daddy's little girl.
You were my hero.
I remeber when we saw Rob Zombie
That's one of my favorite memories.
I'll never forget...
I'm sorry I said those words.
Got ****** and shouted back.
But your new wife daddy,
she's got some loose nuts.
5 years later daddy,
you have missed so much.
The first boy i kissed,
The first time i cried,
over some stupid guy...
You missed so much, you missed
my life..
I get a call from my grandma,
She says your dying.
I can't believe this,
I'm the only one you want to see.
I always knew you still loved me.
I get there and I ****** up,
i disobeyed her rule,
DON'T BRING YOUR, GRANDMA, YOUR MOM. ONLY BRING YOU!
Now there dragging me down the hall.
I'm screaming no daddy no!
Please let me explain,
Please don't make me go...
You tell me i can't see you again,
that was the last time.
and no I'm dying..atleast not for a while.
I drown my sorrows in drinks and fun.
I try my damdest to forget about what you've done.
Then one day while i was at work.
You walk thru the door, i thought i was berserk.
I start to cry, no this isn't true.
My daddy has come back.
I run to you.
You tell me you found God and
you left your wife.
You tell me the docs say
you've got 4 years left of life.
Things are really good now,
you moved back to town.
you come to my work
Just to clown around.
Then one day...
The visit start to fade.
You have been so busy.
I feel like i am in your way.
Then the next thing i know,
you're back with your wife.
I support you in hopes you
won't leaveme again
I should have learned the first time,
but i never will
I named my son after you,
and now your gone again.
you're going to miss his first words
his steps,
his laugh.
You're going to miss his life.
Do you even care that i miss you dad?
I really hope she is better then that.....
This was exstreamly hard for me to write, i never really delt with my dad leaveing my life. i was at such a fragile stage in my life. and i would have done anything, to take back the fight i had with his wife. the horrible thing is..it wasnt even a serious fight. but she said she would leave him if i didn't so i packed my bags and walked out the door. he told me not long after words, i wasn't allowed to contact him, i had to wait for him to contact me. so i did...everyday. sorry for the sob story..i hope you enjoyed