It has found me again !
Here it is right in front of me,
Smiling ironicly at me,
Snuggling up to me and won’t let go !
Telling me how much he missed me
How much he missed my mood and my attitude.
My longtime friend !
I don’t even know if I should objectify « It » or personify « him »
I though we will never see each other again
I though I won’t have to deal with him again
People often say you can’t control things that are out of your reach
You don’t have any power on certain things
I have defeated him once. Am I able to do it again this time ?
Am I weak or am I just giving up ?
Letting him invade me !
Invade my space, my privacy, my inner peace and my mood !
Do I have the strength to be in a perpetual figth with It !
I want to chase him for good
Get him out of my mind and out of my soul
Bury him deep in a place unknown,
Where the lost souls wander around and never return
Somewhere he cant never escape from
Go away ****** Depression !
Go bother someone else in some place else !
I have let down my guards for a while
But that does not mean the old me has return
I am stronger than you think
I have come to tolerate my old self !
Forgiving her and accepting her mistakes
When it comes to you, there is no room for forgiveness and pity
I have come to thrive all of my old demons !
You will not be the exception ! You will not be the black sheep !
You really love to see me suffer and shut myself out from what is around
Those days are long gone and you will be the very next
Goodbye Depression, I really did not and will never miss you.