im so used to hearing the voices of the unsured reassure me
but today ive gone deaf.
they do not know sign language,
they cannot appease me
not today.
for today
hands so gentle so soft
signed the words
vos sunt
and i am forever chasing the sun
counting the stars
and telling myself
im more

i wish i could say i wasnt sad
when im sad
when im mad
when im sad
when im glad
im still sad

i wish i could say i wasnt sad
when im sad
when im sad
when im sad
when im sad


and now i cant feel
the only feeling
i ever felt
"feeled"

was
sad