1 am
i miss you
and your
silly jokes,
warm smile

2 am
im still awake,
and i miss your
arms around me,
comforting me
when i was sad

3 am
i need you here,
beside me, every
day, minute, second.
i need you here.

4 am
i love you and
i can't live without
you beside me,
telling me it's all
going to be okay.

5 am
where are you,
when i need you.

6 am
i can't sleep.
i can't dream.
all i have are
nightmares

Thank you.
I have no place to stay.

I need to regroup;
to organise my life.

I really appreciate this.


*******.
I feel humiliated.

I need to be independant;
to stand on my own.

I feel really ashamed.


Thank you.
I am learning to be humble.

I need to shed my pride;
to lessen my arrogance.

I accept this humiliation,
on the road to humility.

Curiouser
And
Curiouser
I follow you
down
  down
    down
      Into the most
       Odd little world of
         Madness and magic
           Jubjub and Jabberwocky
              Red-painted white roses;
                 Such a beautiful adventure
                      I have only dreamt about.
                    Still I'm bothered by how,
                   Even in a place like this,
               You only think of the time.
            My dearest white rabbit,
         I would truly hate to see
     All of Wonderland
  go and
pass
you
by.

"you know what would make me happy?"


"that what you actually felt for me was real."

"i love you."


"do you have any evidence to
support your statement?"

sometimes we take chances




sometimes we take pills

"you're beautiful"

"you're drunk"

i breathe in and then i breathe out,
i got a trillion doubts, and that's fine.
i took a road that wasn't a road, but
it was something i chose and that's fine.

take your guess, spurious at best,
can't you see it's all just

                                          *chaos?