its 2am and i don’t know if I’m drunk
but the green light in my room keeps
showing me your face
and I’ve never even held a liquor in my hand
which makes me realize that you've held it all the time
and made me drink it till it ran out

My head is pouring the gloomiest smoke you have never seen
And I used to think that my life would end up unseen
Like a stone my heart is unbreakable
And to feel, I can no longer be able
These emotions are scratching my chest
Wanting to release themselves from the arrest
Sometimes I wish people would care about me

But sometimes I don't

I wish to tie my rope around the branches
And fall as the old leaves fall

He was a ****
Though he still grinned and smirked
Set my whole world in flames
Like a vessel of a thousand names

"We did it", in fear and suffer he said
As tears raced through my cheeks
And then I thought
He was the one I've always loved

Help me..
I'm scared..
"What are you scared of?"
I am not much than a dead flower

Help me..
I'm scared..
"What are you scared of?"
I am not much than a sky without a star

Help me..
I'm scared
"What are you scared of?"
Myself.

Seven thousand miles away from home
In a place of goldsoil and honeyfur
She's holding Death in both hands
No last words
Just agony

Seven thousand ways to die
And she still can't decide
Which one would hurt her parents less