This is the last time
You will hold me close
I cannot return
Though for you my heart will always yearn

I cannot express
The extent of my gratefulness
For your unending love
The laughter you brought me
The warmth you filled me with

I hope that life treats you well
In Gods presence you always dwell
I have never been good at goodbyes
I cannot help but cry

I never have the words I want to say
They never come out the right way
So just know how wonderful you are
That you have a special place in my heart

Please never forget me
For I could never forget you
Because darling,
You will always be in my memories.  


*Oaxaca Missions Trip-2013. Thank you for leading me back to Jesus.  Always in my heart, forever in my memories.

You said you wanted me
But those who crave the rose
Must live with the thorns

You were
                 Wild
                         Intriguing
                                          Unforgettable
My serious disposition
Giggled with joy at your touch
You grabbed my soul with your hand
And took me to faraway places
That haunt my memories
We ran with the stars in our hair and the water beneath our toes
You danced me around the waves like you were a hurricane
You showed me things I never knew
As I held tight to you
There were mysteries in your eyes
That I was desperate to solve
Everyday my heart craves for the adventure that you were
And there are no words that can suffice the emptiness I feel when you are not near

I hope that one day...

                                  


                                I'll be beautiful enough for you.

Losing you taught me that life
Isn't a "one or the other" kind of thing

I gained more love and joy than I could ever have imagined when you left
My whole world shifted in your absence
To a place of peace, wonder, and joyful curiosity

But that doesn't mean that your absence isn't felt
Because even in all this beauty my heart still misses you
Even though I am doing things I never could have with you
A part of me still wishes I was waking up next to you

And it's taken me a long time but I think that this is what life looks like
Moving on isn't getting to a place of completely "being over" you
I think I'll always feel sad when I think about you
And there will always be emptiness in places you filled
But that doesn't mean that joy can't coexist with missing you

I can rest in thankfulness for all that my life is becoming
And still shed a silent tear that you no longer wish to be a part of it

I do not ask for perfection
For it is not there.

All I want is your love
When times get hard
Or I act cold.

I want you to love me
And never let go.

What about the girl
Who never goes out
And sits by the phone
In case someone calls
Drunk and afraid
Intoxicated and dumb
And she picks them up
Like they're her son

What about the girl
Who feels the need
Like she's designed
To take care of everything
Everyone's problems
She ***** them up
Holding them inside her
So they can have fun

What about the girl
Who sees what they all don't
They pain and the hurt
The shame and the loneliness
The consequences they will face

What about the girl
Who used to be that way

There is something about the rain that has never made any sense to me. The way it gracefully hits the pavement yet is capable of destroying beautiful things. I don't understand how you can dance in it or have your tears hidden in it. I often try to be cheerful in the presence of rain but it never fails to make me feel lonely and nostalgic.

I've discovered that rain keeps its company in sadness. And I have found that it's good sometimes...

To be sad.

Her eyes were the most exquisite thing he had ever seen. They were a special kind of blue. They reminded him of the sky when there aren't any clouds and the sun is shining and it's the most magnificent blue anyone has ever seen and it goes and goes into all the universe unending.

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An­d when she looked at him, he was left breathless every time.

I guess you've decided it's no longer your job to love me.

Fine.
I will love myself.
Because you are not the defying factor of my worth.

Sometimes I wonder why I hate waiting so much.
I cant stand sitting around for a call from a long-distance friend,
Or a cup of coffee.
Things that I love.
It never used to bother me.
But now? It drives me crazy.

But then I realize,
It's because I went crazy waiting for you.

I jump through stars
                And
Moons-planets-universes
       They hold me
  Amongst the gods
Who play with humans
             Like
        They’re rag dolls
    They call me their pet
                                      And I feel happy