We had big dreams,
you and me.

You & I,
I mean.

Thing is, kid,
all of that lived and died
in
the backward
of
*time.

Clearly, darling, you do not understand why
I love you.

All of you.

Stare at these two cups of coffee or look into my eyes.
Shuffle your feet, tangle your fingertips in your hair.
I don't care,
just listen and
let my words
meld into that beautiful mind.
Okay?

For a person to be here, it took years.
The little wisps of hair that always gets into your eyes.
The laugh-line underneath your cheek.

It all took an immeasurable number of tick-tocks.

In those infinite string of days was hours.

In those hours, there were minutes.
And yes, in those minutes are seconds.

Now, don't roll your eyes just yet.
Dotting in between the mellow epochs are experiences, dreams, unspoken wishes behind closed eyelids, tears, laughter crinkling your lips.
The creasing of the edges of your heart.
The sound of your very breaths in a lonely room.

If you think in such numbing detail, eventually I found myself happily and hopelessly tangled in those strings of little infinities.

And then, I fell in love with you.

It's simple really.

I stare at you
from across the room
We're friends but the line is somewhat blurred
By stupid words said in the wisest of times
I fell in lust with you but you didn't lust me too
So I sold my innocence upon a man who didn't know what he had taken
Now I'm left without the crave of touch but instead the need for love
And undeniably true
I still look to you

I use to protect you
stepped on eggshells
around you

I would lie
for you
lie to you
I'd put you
before me

hate who you
hated
loved who you
loved

I tried to save you
I sacrificed my life
my emotions
morals
all
for
you

turned out
I broke you
even more
than before
and I broke
myself
too

I made you
think yourself
more than
you are
and made myself believe
it too

I blinded you
with good
intentions
and hurt myself
with bad
ones

my friend
I am very sorry
I killed you
with love
and fixed
myself with
hate