She was beautiful
And tasted like whiskey
She played coy
And told me I could ask her anything

"You're an open book."
I said. She smiled tauntingly.

*"But you're written in a lost language everyone's forgotten how to read."

I don't know how to explain the bizarre reality
That you went from being the person I spoke to
Everyday for years
To now,
A dead silence ringing in my ears

My brain can not understand
That the man I knew is dead
And the one who killed him
Stands in front of me

Because the two
Inhibit the same body

In all my time loving
I have learned
That men
Need love
Just as much as women

I could kiss a million men
Or never let another touch my skin

But none of it changes the fact
That it's you
That it always has, always was and always is
You.

She always said "I love you" first.
She-
I love you always
She-
Always first
She-
said always
She-
said "I love you" first
She-
always said I love you
She-
I love
She-
I love always
She-
First love

You.
I love you always.