You can't erase me
Not after the way I loved you

You don't get to forget me

I don't get why we think drinking numbs the pain
Because no matter the amount
You're still consuming my brain

It took me
Sitting on a floor
In a strange apartment
With a man I didn't know
Thinking about just how much I didn't want to be there
That finally helped me understand
Why humans so desperately chased love

Because with all the fear and unknown
Even in the risk of heartbreak
I just wanted to be held by a man
Who wanted to also hold me in the morning

It hits me in the weirdest ways

Like when I see a picture
Of you wearing a t-shirt I don't recognize

Or being asked questions about you
That I don't know the answer to

And while I've moved on
It never gets easier realizing that
*you moved on too.

To be honest
I can't really tell anymore
The difference between the princes and the dragons

We're just a bunch of kids with commitment issues
Because we were raised to believe
That we have so much extra life to live
So even when we've found the greatest thing
We convince ourselves there's gotta be more
So we get drunk
And avoid any type of feelings
Because being numb
Is better than believing
That maybe we were the lucky ones
The rare few
Who got it right on the first try

And even in my drunken haze
I wondered
What you'd think of me now
With men draped all over me
Kissing me and touching me in your favorite spots

I wonder if these men can taste you
Because your kiss still lingers on my skin
I wonder if they can tell the difference
Between you
And the brokenness that you left behind