She always said
"I love you"
first.

You say
"You're gorgeous"
As if I should be thankful
That you find me so

But honey
Don't you know?
A woman like me
Will never be charmed with words that simple

What happened inside of you?
What changed?
When did I go from being the person who gave life to your breath
To the tedious chore you felt obligated to acknowledge?

You asked where it all fell apart
And I replied
"We both loved you the most"

She'd never admit it out loud
But all she truly wanted
For someone to look at all her power and strength
And see how terribly fragile she was

What a paradox
When an old lover
Meets the life that continued after it left

You sat in front of me
As we discussed what happened after we gave up on each other
And all the things that you would've been the first to know
I now keep to myself

I want to write
In a million ways
All the beauty in your soul
How it's you I desperately crave
But when I sit to write the words
My mind goes blank
My tongue gets twisted
My heart starts to cramp

Look at how much power you have over me
Just thinking about your voice
And I'm crippled on the ground
Unable to do the one thing I do best