I color with pencils that are too happy for my feelings.
I paint with colors that express my dark mind perfectly.
I sew too fast to keep my mind occupied.
I hand sew to find a peace within my body.
I play with Chinese Health ***** to keep my muscles working.
I sign the ASL alphabet as I walk to work my mind.
I write poems to keep my thoughts centered and alive.
I do the dishes to find the time to stare outside the window.
I roll a snowball to get the courage to throw it.
I find some ice and hold it tight to restart my system.
And when none of it works,
I take a razor blade to my skin to find true clarity.